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Tweak says, "You looked hot."

vikingly (vikingly) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-11-06 09:39:00

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caroline forbes, eric northman, liz forbes, penelope garcia

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[Eric has been in a panic since he was woken by the incredibly distinct lack of the squishier emotions inside of him. He couldn't feel Sookie or her emotions and that had been a void deep enough to awaken the dead. Literally.

A check of all his abilities assured him that he was still a vampire and there was no physical reason for the bond to be broken. After a daylight search that had left him with a case of the bleeds and a certainty that Sookie was gone whether he wanted it or not, he'd gone to the Blood Shack. Walking into the familiar building had given him some hope. Sookie's scent still lingered there, but it was residual and nothing new. He walked to the bar, sorting through his emotions in the most distanced, analytical way possible in an attempt to control a rage and a pain that he'd only experienced once before: during Sookie's 'vacation' to fairyland. He filled a glass with blood and took a sip. That sip was enough blood to fuel the rage that bubbled so close to the surface even on a good day. The self control that Eric was so terribly proud of crumbled and the vampire broke apart in ways that he'd forgotten was possible.

It was easy to forget that Eric could be a weapon of perfect destruction. He was good at smiling and pretending. He was excellent at maintaining control of a frightening strength and rage. He was good at hiding the fact that he felt the negative spectrum of emotions so much easier than the positive ones. Through his bond with Sookie, he was able to tap into her emotions, able to feel them as if they were his own. He had gotten accustomed to what happy felt like and the complete lack of it left far too much space to fill with rage and anger, loss and pain. He hurled the glass of blood at the wall and screamed at the top of his lungs. There wasn't anything human or controlled about the way he began ripping things apart, tearing the building to pieces as an outlet for rage he didn't want to feel. It was difficult to tell because blood was still seeping from his eyes, ears and nose, but those were also blood tears running down his face.

He had so few people in this world he would weep at the loss of. The dome had managed to take away one. ]

[ooc: approach with caution. before the event. ]

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vikingly
2013-11-06 02:25 pm UTC (link)

[Eric hesitates because with Sookie here, he would've agreed with that statement. He'd thought it more than once. He'd even expressed it in different words in conversation. However, despite the mess that his world is in back home, despite the fact that he is preparing to let Sookie go back to being that girl in the white dress, to having a life without him, at least his world has Sookie in it. At least there he has his own cocky belief that Sookie will come to her senses one day. He knows that somewhere never far away there is a girl in a white dress that is capable of falling in love with him. He doesn't have that there. He has to keep it in his heart, to borrow Caroline's idea. He doesn't know if that's enough to be more than the man who kept humans changed in the basement. Godric had told him and shown him that humanity in a monster was possible, but Sookie had given him a reason to want to be more than a monster. ]

I don't know if that's enough. [ yes and on any other day, it would be an image that would give Eric a good chuckle, but the truth is he needs protecting most of all from himself. Caroline could be just the person to do that. ]

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amplified
2013-11-08 07:11 pm UTC (link)

[ It's not that here is better than home for so many of them. But somehow, she feels like she can actually breathe here. But she's got people she loves, she's got people from home. Even with Eric here, if the rest of them went, she'd feel pretty lost too. But she wants to make sure that Eric doesn't get that way, that he doesn't lose heart. ]

It has to be, [ she insists softly and yet there's a firmness to her voice that says that he better believe in her because she means what she says.] It will be okay. It might take some time but it will be. And in the mean time, she could come back.

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vikingly
2013-11-11 06:33 pm UTC (link)

[ For Eric and Sookie, this was a chance to be with each other without the stress and strain that home would bring and for that, he wouldn't have traded all the pain in the world. Eric knew from the moment he fell in love with Sookie that any time he did have with her would be finite. Of course, he also always imagined that eventually he would turn her, against her will if necessary and one day she would thank him for it, one day in the far future when they had eternity to forgive each other.

As for how he finds his way here, he doesn't know. He hasn't a clue. He is trying to cling to Caroline. He's trying to cling to the idea that he has a business to run, but the truth is, his business will run whether he's in charge or not. He knows that he can't lose his mind and kill everyone in sight. He will be punished for that, and there's a part of him that longs for that. ]

I will try to believe you.

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