[ For Eric and Sookie, this was a chance to be with each other without the stress and strain that home would bring and for that, he wouldn't have traded all the pain in the world. Eric knew from the moment he fell in love with Sookie that any time he did have with her would be finite. Of course, he also always imagined that eventually he would turn her, against her will if necessary and one day she would thank him for it, one day in the far future when they had eternity to forgive each other.
As for how he finds his way here, he doesn't know. He hasn't a clue. He is trying to cling to Caroline. He's trying to cling to the idea that he has a business to run, but the truth is, his business will run whether he's in charge or not. He knows that he can't lose his mind and kill everyone in sight. He will be punished for that, and there's a part of him that longs for that. ]