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Tear Grants (mysterymelody) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-09-18 18:35:00

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:mingle, annabelle, buffy summers, hei, hikaru hitachiin, kitty pryde (aoa), matt donovan, sougo okita, spencer reid, tear grants, toul, yuuki kuran

[Day 237] Fear of Abandonment Therapy mingle
[The call to those placed in abandonment therapy simply says to head to the Sector 5 prayer facility, and that's all-- not even that this has to do with those insecure feelings of yours. Posted arrows point the way down to the meditation room that has been filled up with several tables, two completely lined with coffees, teas, and bite sized refreshments ranging from cookies and pastries to sliced fruit and veggies. Plates and napkins are stacked up, and if you want a fork, they're there too.

The third table is larger and round, for that feeling of closeness, with chairs set up and for each seat a set of papers is waiting neatly on the table surface along with a pen. Topmost is a questionnaire with instructions to put detailed responses, be honest, and discuss with another attendee, with questions such as:

Do you get anxious if you cannot see or speak to someone close to you at any given moment?
Are you constantly haunted by the idea that someone may eventually leave you?
Do you put up with negative or even abusive behavior from someone just to keep from being alone?
Did someone important to you exit your life when you were young? How did you feel?
What exactly are you afraid of, beyond the indistinct label of "being abandoned"?

The second is a page with the heading "Make a list of all the people in your life, and determine how devastated you would be if those people left and why. Try to cut the unhealthy relationships, and distance a bit from even the good to build your independence!" and a few extra blank sheets of paper in case the one isn't enough.

Small cards are also scattered in the center of the table, printed with positive tips to help the process of healing.

"Often when people are abandoned (whether because someone leaves or even dies), they feel utterly hopeless and helpless. But you are never helpless.

Nothing lasts forever, so enjoy where you're at and whom you're with.

Abandonment issues aren't always easy to recognize, but can be worked through in a loving relationship.

Try to challenge yourself to be alone for extended periods of time without giving into the urge to reach out immediately and connect to someone."

[[ooc: mingle! you know how it goes by now, use these examples or come up with better ones if you want!]]

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	thisiscalm 2013-09-30 05:51 pm UTC (link)
	[ Whoa whoa, okay. It's clear that they need to back up a bit here because it is massively confusing and not even he can really straighten it out just with this. He shifts his weight, voice low and even. ] How about you start from the beginning? Explain to me what's going on... take your time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2013-09-30 07:48 pm UTC (link)

[Ah-- she doesn't even know where to begin. The beginning? Her head tips down and she stares back down at her paper. A lot has happened over the years. But maybe it was best to start with her real brother.]

It's just sad... I'm not sure where to start.[She draws a breath. Until not all that long ago, much of this information had been kept from her. It wasn't until after it was revealed that her fiance left.]

Before I was born, mother and father had a child. They named him Kaname, the same name as the ancestor of the family. But the day he was born... my uncle killed him. He... [Having seen the memory through her beloved, it was sickening and horrible. A truly monstrous act.] My uncle...used his body to revive our ancestor. The pureblood don't die... but even so, our ancestor had been asleep for thousands of years. Because of that his body was very decayed. He hadn't...ever wanted to awaken.

[Closing her eyes she fights the tears that brim within them once more.]

When our ancestor realized that he had been awoken by such an innocent and terrible sacrifice, he... erased his own memories, and took on the form of an infant in my real brothers place. Both mother and father realized what happened, but raised him all the same.

[She's quiet for a time, and shakes her head.] It-- it probably doesn't make a lot of sense to someone who is human. [Their lifespan and concerns. It's all supernatural, and even to Yuuki it's difficult to really grasp sometimes.]

I...was born so that I could be with big brother. With Kaname, that is. We were engaged. Just like mother and father.

[She's a little too upset at the moment to spend much effort in being embarrassed. There's a small touch of hesitancy in her voice.]

For the pureblood it's-- It's normal to marry your sibling. Mother and Father were siblings. And-- even though he's a terrible person, Uncle Rido had coveted mother. [The depth of his lust was not something she wanted to remember or focus upon though. She clears her throat.] E-Even though the wardens here said it's a crime, it... is not at home. I was truly happy to know that we'd get married. Just like our parents.

[Although that seemed like an impossible dream, now.]

I didn't know what had happened to my real brother back then. Or that there had ever been someone outside of the Kaname I knew. But- because of what had happened to him, mother and father had wanted to keep my existence a secret. They wanted to protect me.

[She shrugs a little.]

So my home was within the basement of one of mother and father's residences. There weren't any windows, and I was never allowed upstairs. Just in the rooms beneath. If Uncle Rido discovered my existence, then they knew that he would attack me, too. So until I was five, I grew up with just my immediate family down below.

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thisiscalm
2013-10-17 04:04 pm UTC (link)

[ It is a lot to take in and he is, as she pointed out, human. Questions are buzzing in his head, about their method of reproduction, the dangers of inbreeding, customs, norms, but that's not why they're here and so he forces it to the very back of his head. Some other time, maybe.

Shifting in his seat, Reid slides a hand across the table. Not to grab her hand, but to offer a bit of contact if she wants it. ]

Yuuki... I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what it must've been like to grow up in such a complicated environment.

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It's just fine! /gobbles it up!

trappedinresin
2013-10-17 07:42 pm UTC (link)

[A watery smile is given in response. In the end she does take the hand, while her opposite one lifts to try and scrub away the tears.]

Sorry. I'm not normally so emotional or talkative. [Well, maybe she can be emotional, but there it is.]

I know it sounds complicated but it hadn't been. Not to me. I was happy because being with them was all I knew.

[To an innocent child, she'd only obeyed the only rules she had ever known. And she knows that they had all loved her very much.] Even though I had always wanted to see what it looked like outside, I would have stayed in there forever if it meant it would have kept them safe.

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	thisiscalm 2013-10-20 12:06 pm UTC (link)
	[ Good girl. He gives her a little reassuring squeeze. Physical contact was so never his thing, but Kitty may just have opened him up to how powerful it can be. ] You're a very good person, Yuuki. [ Maybe more than she realizes, but he's not getting into all that. ] If you ever need to talk... you can come to me, okay? It'll stay between the two of us. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2013-10-20 12:20 pm UTC (link)

[To be honest, she's never had someone to talk to about anything. It isn't like she can tell Kaname, when he's the source of her current problems. And she can't really speak to Zero when he hates that person so much.

And they're more recently recovering.

With another weak smile she squeezes his hand in return. Something to hold onto.]

I don't know about that. [Being a good person.] But thank you. [A little embarrassed after everything she glances up at him and nods.]

I appreciate it.

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	thisiscalm 2013-10-20 12:27 pm UTC (link)
	The offer isn't going anywhere. We have to look after each other around here, right? [ Something he had back home, only then it was confined to his team. The longer he's here, the more he realizes how widely spread that sense of family is becoming. As frightening and heart-breaking as that can be, he really wouldn't want it any other way. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trappedinresin
2013-10-20 12:37 pm UTC (link)

You too.

[It goes both ways. Yuuki has her fair share of problems. More... than just a little. But at the very least she's a good listener. It's easier for her to comfort than be the one to admit she might have any sort of problems at all.]

If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. [Her smile widens just a little, while she continues to clear her eyes.]

After helping me with the concert, I really owe you.

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	thisiscalm 2013-10-20 01:03 pm UTC (link)
	[ Peas in a pod over here, if only on this particular thing. ] Don't mention it, it was fun! Thank you for giving me the chance. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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