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Tweak says, "It fills the void."

Ianto Jones (readystopwatch) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-07-04 10:41:00

Entry tags:

bro strider, dirk strider, ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), martha jones, penelope garcia, raven darkholme, rose, sam winchester, shining armor, spencer reid

Day 226 l Christmas Party Mingle
[Ianto has, predictably, gone a bit overboard for the Christmas party he and Jack are throwing. The entire apartment has been decorated; there's a tree with gold and silver ornaments and twinkling lights, garlands draped over doorways, candles in every window and festive nicknacks scattered about. It looks like something out of a magazine, and may make visitors a little afraid to actually touch anything. There's also a lot of mistletoe around (one of the side effects of living with Captain Jack Harkness) so it's probably a good idea to keep one eye on the ceiling at all times.

Of course he's made plenty of coffee and some appetizers, so he hopes people really do respond to the invitation Jack sent out, otherwise there are going to be a hell of a lot of leftovers.]

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	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-22 08:11 pm UTC (link)
	No, of course not. It's not like we have to figure out how to raise the kids or something. [How is she still making this worse?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-22 08:17 pm UTC (link)
	[ It's okay, he can probably top that with the next question. It's one of those things you know you shouldn't do, but do anyway. Like eating too much dairy or taking a flak vest off. ] And... what if we had to? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-22 08:21 pm UTC (link)
	[Wow. She isn't drunk enough for this. Or maybe she's just the right amount of drunk for this. Her larger-than-usual eyes linger on him for a few quiet steps.] Then...it wouldn't be the first thing on my mind. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-22 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	[ He nods, battling hesitation for a moment before eventually retreating. ] Sorry... I shouldn't have brought it up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-22 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	No, I... You can bring it up. [She's so curious what he's thinking.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-22 09:23 pm UTC (link)
	It's not like it'll ever be an actual... thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-22 09:27 pm UTC (link)
	I know. [Softly and a little sadly. Should it be a neutral thing? It doesn't feel especially neutral. She hasn't thought about it a lot because she doesn't think of herself as having a future. At least...she didn't before Reid.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thisiscalm
2013-07-22 11:56 pm UTC (link)

[ He hadn't given it a lot of thought either, to be honest. Not because he didn't believe he had a future, but rather that he was convinced it wasn't for him — with parents like that, how could he possibly? Add to that his job and his massive social awkwardness and you didn't even need underwater prison to understand that kids were not in his future.

Until Kitty came along and they started brushing up against the subject. ]

For what it's worth... I never thought I wanted them, but with you..? It's... a nice thought. Sometime.

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kitty_has_claws
2013-07-23 01:14 am UTC (link)

Sometime... [She agrees. It is a nice thought. She wanted a family once even younger than she is now. There was no time to waste there. You never knew when it would be over. Maybe just thinking of bringing a child into that was horrible, but she wanted some piece of that life for herself and Piotr even if it was selfish.

But even saying sometime now feels like a lie. The wardens sterilized her. Even if it's reversible would they really start permitting pregnancies? And what if they disappeared? What if...

It's too much right now and she just shifts closer to him, wanting his warmth in the midst of all this snow and all these doubts.]

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thisiscalm
2013-07-23 01:38 am UTC (link)

[ It is a lot. Too much to think about when they know perfectly well that it'll never happen, and yet he can't keep himself from entertaining the idea. Deceptively sweet and bitter all over, like picking at a scab despite knowing fully well it'll scar badly if you do.

He slips his arm around her shoulders, hugging her to his side but it's not quite enough and so he stops in all this snow and all these doubts, pulling her into a proper embrace. ]

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	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-23 02:05 am UTC (link)
	You'll be a really good Dad. [You will, not you would because she wants to believe that he will live happily ever after with someone even if it isn't with her. And even if kids don't equal happiness, for right now it feels appropriate as she hugs him tighter.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-23 12:06 pm UTC (link)
	[ He could brush it off or he could respond in a similar fashion and as painful a lie as that would be (she doesn't have much time to be a mom in, after all) it probably would be a lot better than what he actually settles for in the end. His voice is raspy. Squeezed off. ] Not without you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-23 01:15 pm UTC (link)
	[She holds him tighter. Their hugs are basically resistance training at this point, but with all this cold the extra squeeze is even more necessary.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-23 04:48 pm UTC (link)
	[ Looking at the bright side, all this hugging in wintery conditions will give them even more of a reason to grab a hot shower once they're home. The original excuse may have faded a bit at this point, anyway. He holds her close, as close as he possibly can and then some. A long stretch of silence passes. ] I love you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-23 06:00 pm UTC (link)
	[She shifts, but only enough to look at him—faces close, hug loosened just enough for this repositioning.] I love you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-23 06:30 pm UTC (link)
	[ With their faces so close like this and chests swimming with emotion, he really can't avoid kissing her, can he? Not that avoiding kisses is a thing he wants to do. Absolutely not. It's soft and sweet and lingering. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-23 07:22 pm UTC (link)
	[It's definitely the warmest thing in the vicinity and she responds with every bit of affection she has. It would have been a terrible time to practice kissing restraint!] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-23 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	[ The absolute worst. He breaks the kiss eventually, breath coming out in quick puffs of white. ] We should go home. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-24 12:22 am UTC (link)
	Home sounds like a really, really good place to be. [She slips back, placing her hand in his as she does so.] Let's get warmed up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-24 01:10 am UTC (link)
	[ And home they go, without any great stops on the way this time. It's too cold to get frisky in public, although that seems to have become A Thing over the last few weeks. Once inside, he slips his arms around her in another embrace. It's hard to let go for long tonight. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-24 01:12 am UTC (link)
	So much warmer in here. [She presses in close and kisses his neck.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-24 02:08 pm UTC (link)
	Mmn, very. [ Nuzzle. ] Still think we're going to need that shower if we want any chance of heating up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-24 04:48 pm UTC (link)
	I'm beginning to think you like the shower more than me. I might get jealous. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2013-07-24 07:05 pm UTC (link)
	Trust me, it's not nearly as interesting when I'm on my own in there. [ You started this, Kitty. You created this. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-07-24 11:30 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe I should peek in sometime and see for myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)