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Klara Guildsen ([info]lostababyfang) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2013-06-18 18:39:00

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Entry tags:elena gilbert, eric northman, hikaru hitachiin, klara guildsen, penelope garcia, sougo okita, xander harris

[Day 224] [Video|Voice|Action|Open]
[For weeks Klara had deluded herself in the false sense of security about what she could and couldn't do here. She had listened and tried and thought maybe she was making progress. She didn't have to be a monster, could make sure that she stayed in control.

Then they were sent to the other prison. She had been normal in most ways. Human almost. It had been like a terrible sweet trickster dream on her. She had still needed blood, but the sound of heartbeats and breathing and the smell of people--so delicious, like a freshly spiced steak--had been gone. It had been wonderful.

And then they had come back. And so had the real hunger. Reality was always so much harsher than her dreams.

She's currently in the library, taking notes and all the different books on the supernatural that she could find, many of them about curses and vampires. There are even two about contagious diseases. To anyone who comes across her, they might notice the sharp edge to her movements, the jerking turns of the pages that isn't as gentle and reverent as how she usually treats books.

Klara's impatient and maybe even looks worried to those who are good at discerning body language despite her blank expression. She needs to do more and so she finally decides to ask for help.]


...What do you do when you...really really want something, but you know you shouldn't have it? Like...being allergic to chocolate, but you really love chocolate. How do you make yourself stop wanting things that are bad for you?

[Or bad for other people. Her voice is hesitant, but she can't think of what else to do. After an evident pause she also asks]

And...is there anyone who is good at...wood carving? Such as carving words and nice, clear designs into wood? I want to decorate my house, but I'm not good at it. [A truth and a lie.] I can draw what I want for someone else...if they're willing.

[She adds a bit quickly.] I can do something for you in return, too.



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[info]sadistfaction
2013-06-19 12:03 am UTC (link)
You do it anyway. [he shrugs.] How is this even a real question? Damn kids.

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-19 12:16 am UTC (link)
...That's impractical. [Her question had been purposefully vague, but his response makes no sense to her. Why would you do it anyway?]

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[info]sadistfaction
2013-06-19 12:37 am UTC (link)
Complaining about it is impractical too. [Not that she was complaining, but he will consider it as such anyway.] You gotta decide on one or the other.

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-19 12:52 am UTC (link)
[She wasn't complaining. ...Did it sound like she was complaining? She wasn't sure. Her mother considered it complaining when she asked for help with homework she couldn't get on her own. But she is fairly sure she wasn't complaining now.

He's just being a jerk.]


If you decided "other," then how do you keep denying what you want? It's not that simple.

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[info]matter
2013-06-19 03:54 am UTC (link)
[ elena remembers klara. she hasn't seen the young girl around lately. seeing her on the network is a bit of a relief and also a devastation. someone so young shouldn't be here - they should be home, with their parents.

(yet somehow elena thinks klara might be already a bit independent of them, for whatever reason. she said, "decorate my house" and seemed to want to be alone - seemed to prefer it, even.)

elena answers slowly, thinks about her answer.
] I think... sometimes you have to find something you want more or just as much, and focus on that.

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-19 05:40 am UTC (link)
[Klara remembers Elena, too. She was nice when Klara had been feeling very awkward and unsure. She still feels that way, but it's not as bad. She's grateful for the advice, although she isn't quite sure how she could use it.]

But what if what else you want is something you...can't have? [She can't be normal, no matter how much she wishes she could be.]

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[info]matter
2013-06-19 12:59 pm UTC (link)
[ it's a good question, and it's something elena has faced many times, in her own way. she pauses again; it hits home some and it takes her a moment to consider. ] Then you have to live with what you do. With what you can have. [ it's not advice anyone would want, and it's not easy advice, but it's honest. ]

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-19 01:31 pm UTC (link)
[Honest is what she wants. Off screen she clenches her fist and her eyes look off to the side for a moment in thought, but Klara doesn't get upset. Getting emotional would not help her find a solution. Dad used to say to check bad feelings at the door and keep them out of the house. She wants to do that now.]

I understand. You do what's necessary if it's the only choice you have.

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[info]onelevelmeaner
2013-06-19 04:01 pm UTC (link)
I don't carve wood, but I'm great with decorating houses! [Hikaru chirps!] If you're still interested without the wood carving aspect of it, that is.

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-19 04:43 pm UTC (link)
[She really would prefer wood, but maybe if someone else is better at this than she is...]

...Do you know how to put designs on the walls that can't come off? I don't want them to wash away. To paint them on the walls so they don't look sloppy? [She can't draw them together herself. Not as a whole like they need to be.]

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[info]onelevelmeaner
2013-06-20 01:12 am UTC (link)
[He puts a hand to his chin.]

It depends on the type of design you're looking for. Sometimes you can use templates and tape, but for more original designs, it requires a more careful hand.

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-21 12:06 am UTC (link)
It's a design I know...from home. I can draw it for you.

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[info]unmitigated
2013-06-19 09:26 pm UTC (link)
[Oh no, a sweet little girl! As if Garcia didn't hate the Wardens enough.]

Well honey, when I want something I shouldn't have I distract myself with something fun. Have you ever tried that?

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-21 12:20 am UTC (link)
[Honey? Klara doesn't really know how to feel about being called something like that. It's...strange. This woman doesn't look like an old aunt. But she's trying to help, so Klara doesn't want to be rude..]

Yes. I do things every day. It's not working very well.

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[info]unmitigated
2013-06-21 07:07 pm UTC (link)
[Sorry darling, nicknames are her thing.]

Yeah? I'm sorry, that's rotten. Is it that the things to do here aren't your favorites, or are you just that bothered? Because if you can't get around the problem, maybe it's best to hit it head-on.

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-21 07:10 pm UTC (link)
[It's still strange.]

I do fun things here. But it only takes up so much time in the day. [She hesitates, but goes on. She sounds like she could be helpful. Klara will take any kind of potential solution at this point.] And...the second thing you said. But I can't face it head on. Like being allergic to chocolate. [You should never eat the chocolate.]

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[info]notapirate
2013-06-20 02:56 am UTC (link)
[Why are you so tiny? Well, okay, not tiny, but she looks pretty young for prison to his eyes...eye.]

That first part is hard. I've never met a chocolate bar I didn't like. The second part I might be better with. I'm a carpenter. [Among other things.] I've done some basic carving work for some finished pieces. [He's not going to start calling himself an artist but he could follow a pattern.]

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-21 01:20 am UTC (link)
You are? [Her stare may get a little intense, but she's looking him over trying to get an impression of it.]

So...if I drew something for you...you could copy it into wood?

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[info]vikingly
2013-06-20 05:26 pm UTC (link)
[Eric has a very, very good idea of what she's talking about, at least when it comes to the craving.]

Take a small amount. One square of really good chocolate instead of a whole bar.

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-21 01:37 am UTC (link)
[Oh. Erik. She expects disappointment or something else she's not sure of. She had been doing well. She had been getting blood when she was hungry, she had felt like maybe this could work...but no. She'd been stupid. She wasn't like him.]

I can't have any real chocolate. I should only eat the processed kind. [She wonders if he'll understand. She doesn't know how to explain what she's been craving the last two days. What she gets at the Blood Shack hasn't been...enough.]

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[info]vikingly
2013-06-21 01:48 am UTC (link)
Have you tried eating a bit of real chocolate? Maybe take a bit and separate it from the rest. Is the processed kind disagreeing with you?

[He's formulating a plan. Too bad most of the people he actually gets along with are vampires. He might have a couple of humans he could talk to.]

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-21 01:55 am UTC (link)
No, no, it's not. [She says it a bit quickly, but she's not lying.] It's just...plain. [She manages not to show how much this gets to her to say since she knows he knows what she means.] It's always been plain. It's not the same.

[And something inside her knows it.]

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[info]satomobility
2013-06-21 05:30 am UTC (link)
You can't stop yourself from wanting things. [Asami sighs. She's still thinking of Klara as a child, someone she can't quite explain things to at her level.] It's... complicated. You just have to resist.

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[info]lostababyfang
2013-06-21 07:07 pm UTC (link)
[That is the most unhelpful way she's ever heard of to not want to do something, but she doesn't think Miss Sato is trying to be mean.]

How do you resist? It's not that easy.

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[info]satomobility
2013-06-23 05:25 am UTC (link)
No, it's not easy. [She's trying to be helpful! She just doesn't know how to explain willpower satisfactorily.] But there's no big secret.

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