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Euphemia li Britannia (friendly_fire) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-06-10 12:12:00

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aidan reilly, calliope-caliborn, dirk strider, elena gilbert, euphemia li britannia, helen magnus, jane crocker, kitty pryde (evolution), laura kinney, lelouch vi britannia, piter de vries, tear grants, yuuki kuran

Day 223 [voice | open]
[Euphie's voice is soft and she omits the video this time, opting only for sound, which she very rarely does.]

I just wanted to thank everyone for their help in the other prison. I'm extremely sorry for the the things I said and did. I'm especially sorry to those I hurt and scared. I'm not feeling any of those urges anymore since we returned. I hope I never do again.

[She pauses, wanting to say more. Wanting to put it right. But what can she say? She called for the deaths of innocent people. She considers offering to leave the school to someone else's care, but she also doesn't want to burden anyone. In the end, there's not much more to say. She isn't looking for sympathy. She just wants people to know they're safe.] Thank you for your time.

[Private | Yuuki]
Yuuki, I... [Her voice shakes a bit.] Are you feeling better?

[Private | Housemates]
I would understand if you don't feel comfortable living with me anymore.

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lifelines
2013-06-30 03:46 am UTC (link)

[ neither of them know what the other has been through, but somehow this talk, this small experience, seems to be shedding a little light on the mystery. ]

She would thank you, were she here. [ helen's voice is thick and quiet with the emotion she's trying so very hard to hold back. that whole thing may have happened over a century ago for her, but it's very difficult for her to think about, even now. ashley isn't a subject she brings up. helen would much rather ignore her issues than face them, particularly with a stranger. even so, there's only so much she can do with this topic. ]

My name is Helen Magnus. I don't believe we've been properly introduced.

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friendly_fire
2013-07-02 04:55 am UTC (link)

[Euphie's eyes soften further as she listens to the timber of Helen's voice as she speaks of the one who is not here. It's hard to miss that it means something to this woman.] I'm Euphemia li Britannia. Most people here call me Euphie.

I'm glad we have this second chance to introduce ourselves the right way. [Without threat of death.] Were you very close? You and her.

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lifelines
2013-07-03 06:18 am UTC (link)

It's a pleasure to meet you, Euphie, despite the circumstances. [ and it really is. she's liking what she's seeing now, but she'll reserve judgment for the moment.

at the question, she pauses. it's barely a minute, but it's significant for anyone caring to keep tabs on the conversation. it means, regardless of how she answers, this is a topic that is very dear to her. it means something. ]

Yes... [ she could have lied, but she figures it might be better to be honest, even if she can't talk about everything just yet. ] But I hope you'll understand if I would prefer not to discuss the details of that situation just yet.

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friendly_fire
2013-07-06 05:23 am UTC (link)

Of course. I do understand, and I'm very sorry. I know it was hard for my family after what I did. [She's not saying she assumes this person was Helen's family. It's just that the people in Euphie's life who were close to her were her family. There were few others. Suzaku, her knight, and perhaps Guilford, her sister's knight. Maybe a few others in the military, but who else did she really know or see?]

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lifelines
2013-07-08 03:15 am UTC (link)

As I am for you. It's always the most difficult for the people involved, the ones directly affected... and their family. [ the assumption is correct. it's the kind of family tie that doesn't go away but hurts the most to lose. helen always knew it would be a possibility when she finally brought the baby to term, but she never imagined she would lose her daughter at such a young age. ]

May you find your peace here.

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	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-07-09 04:18 am UTC (link)
	Thank you for being so understanding. I've been given a lot here. I'm thankful. I hope you find as much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] lifelines 2013-07-09 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	[ she doesn't answer for a while, her heart in the process of breaking again and she doesn't want to give away more than she already has. instead, she takes a few quiet breaths before she answers shortly. ] I have a long time to live with it. [ she appreciates the sentiment, but if she hasn't found peace in over a century, she doubts she will now. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-07-21 03:33 pm UTC (link)
	[She notices the pause and somewhat vague reply.] There is hope in time. [Even the possibly small amount Euphie has in this place alone.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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