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Euphemia li Britannia (friendly_fire) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-06-10 12:12:00

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aidan reilly, calliope-caliborn, dirk strider, elena gilbert, euphemia li britannia, helen magnus, jane crocker, kitty pryde (evolution), laura kinney, lelouch vi britannia, piter de vries, tear grants, yuuki kuran

Day 223 [voice | open]
[Euphie's voice is soft and she omits the video this time, opting only for sound, which she very rarely does.]

I just wanted to thank everyone for their help in the other prison. I'm extremely sorry for the the things I said and did. I'm especially sorry to those I hurt and scared. I'm not feeling any of those urges anymore since we returned. I hope I never do again.

[She pauses, wanting to say more. Wanting to put it right. But what can she say? She called for the deaths of innocent people. She considers offering to leave the school to someone else's care, but she also doesn't want to burden anyone. In the end, there's not much more to say. She isn't looking for sympathy. She just wants people to know they're safe.] Thank you for your time.

[Private | Yuuki]
Yuuki, I... [Her voice shakes a bit.] Are you feeling better?

[Private | Housemates]
I would understand if you don't feel comfortable living with me anymore.

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trappedinresin
2013-06-26 04:14 pm UTC (link)

Euphemia-san...

[Ah- she knew this would be coming. Euphie isn't the sort of individual who would forget easily what happened. As it is though, she puts on her best, reassuring voice.]

I'm fine. I promise. It takes a lot more to hurt me. [Although at the time she couldn't heal. But- well, she'll just remain quiet on that front.]

I'm one hundred percent back to my old self. Please don't worry.

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	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-06-29 11:51 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad you're feeling better, Yuuki. I would like to do something for you though. I know I can't make up for it, but something... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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trappedinresin
2013-06-30 03:15 am UTC (link)

You- [Don't have to do anything, she wants to say. But, maybe that isn't the right thing to say at a time like this. After making mistake after mistake at home, it's frustrating to feel so helpless. Yuuki understands that sort of feeling all to well.

It's not a good feeling when unable to try and make up for a mistake. Whether the mistake was intentional or not.]

If you want to, that's fine. But... I hope that you know I don't hold you accountable for anything.

[Gentle and sincere...]

I know that wasn't you...

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	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-07-02 04:15 am UTC (link)
	Thank you, Yuuki. For everything. [For believing in her and for letting her deal with it as she must.] I really am happy you're feeling better. They do take care of our health here at least. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] trappedinresin 2013-07-14 02:59 am UTC (link)
	Although the warden's in that other dome were pretty harsh. [She wont mention that she didn't heal right away like she would have here.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-07-21 03:50 pm UTC (link)
	Were they? I suppose I didn't have much of an opportunity to know them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] trappedinresin 2013-07-21 04:01 pm UTC (link)
	You didn't miss out. I promise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-07-21 04:18 pm UTC (link)
	Well, it would have been better if they had tried to contain me, but I'm glad others were able to do that. [Even if some got hurt in the process.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] trappedinresin 2013-07-21 04:27 pm UTC (link)
	Can I... ask you about that? [It might be a painful conversation. She doesn't want to further hurt her, but it begs a few questions.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-07-21 04:30 pm UTC (link)
	Ah, yes, of course. If anyone should it seems like it would be you. [Since she hurt her and because Yuuki helped her with it.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] trappedinresin 2013-07-21 04:38 pm UTC (link)
	I know that isn't you. That you, as a person, wouldn't want to hurt anyone. [It has to be an outside influence. Gently:] What... was it that happened? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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friendly_fire
2013-07-21 06:34 pm UTC (link)

[Unseen, she tucks some of her long, pink hair back before she begins to tell the story. It's not her first time telling it today, but it's always a bit difficult, especially when she must withhold some of the information.]

There was a person in my world who had a special ability. It's not common. At least it's nothing I've ever heard of before, but he can make people do whatever he commands.

He was explaining it and gave an example... [Voice trailing off.]

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	[Private] trappedinresin 2013-07-21 07:20 pm UTC (link)
	[Horror floods her.] And he... he told you to kill Japanese? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-07-25 02:16 am UTC (link)
	He wanted to say something he knew I would never choose to do on my own. Something...impossible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] trappedinresin 2013-08-04 02:15 pm UTC (link)
	[Her heart sinks] Euphemia-san... I'm so sorry. [That kind of thing...] Could he not tell you just to stop? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-08-05 12:54 am UTC (link)
	It seems it only works once. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] trappedinresin 2013-08-09 10:00 pm UTC (link)
	Then how... that is... [She can't remember before, but she does have an idea.] Last time... I was involved, wasn't I? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-08-10 11:07 pm UTC (link)
	With breaking it, yes. You did something to take the thoughts away. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] trappedinresin 2013-08-15 03:44 pm UTC (link)
	I see... [Well, it doesn't take a lot to figure out what she must have done, but even still...] I'm sorry it happened again to you. I... can only imagine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[Private] friendly_fire 2013-08-17 04:03 pm UTC (link)
	I'm just glad it's over again. Maybe it will be the last time. [But having it resurface again has left her feeling more uneasy than she cares to admit. How many times will this happen? Who will she hurt next?] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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