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Euphemia li Britannia (friendly_fire) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-06-10 12:12:00

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aidan reilly, calliope-caliborn, dirk strider, elena gilbert, euphemia li britannia, helen magnus, jane crocker, kitty pryde (evolution), laura kinney, lelouch vi britannia, piter de vries, tear grants, yuuki kuran

Day 223 [voice | open]
[Euphie's voice is soft and she omits the video this time, opting only for sound, which she very rarely does.]

I just wanted to thank everyone for their help in the other prison. I'm extremely sorry for the the things I said and did. I'm especially sorry to those I hurt and scared. I'm not feeling any of those urges anymore since we returned. I hope I never do again.

[She pauses, wanting to say more. Wanting to put it right. But what can she say? She called for the deaths of innocent people. She considers offering to leave the school to someone else's care, but she also doesn't want to burden anyone. In the end, there's not much more to say. She isn't looking for sympathy. She just wants people to know they're safe.] Thank you for your time.

[Private | Yuuki]
Yuuki, I... [Her voice shakes a bit.] Are you feeling better?

[Private | Housemates]
I would understand if you don't feel comfortable living with me anymore.

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zugzwanger
2013-06-10 10:07 pm UTC (link)

[He doesn't let any judgement he may or may not have made show on his face.] That's fortunate. If there's anything I can do for her, let me know. [She seems to know a lot about what went on with Euphemia and he doesn't like the feeling of being indebted to someone that knows that much about him.]

How many people know about what I did to you? And how much do they know?

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	friendly_fire 2013-06-10 10:11 pm UTC (link)
	[Nodding.] I've never told anyone it was you. [She may have said Zero or terrorist once or twice in her time here, but never Lelouch or her brother.] I was...more public when I was under it's influence, so everyone knows something was wrong with me. I haven't told that many people about what it was, and they aren't all still here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zugzwanger 2013-06-10 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	[Of course she wouldn't give him up like that. Euphemia would never do that.] I won't let anyone hurt you because of something I did to you. It's not your fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

friendly_fire
2013-06-12 04:02 am UTC (link)

[Not even when he was gone or to people who wouldn't have known any better!]

I don't think anyone will try to hurt me. When we were in the other prison and I was...like that, they helped keep me from hurting anyone, but they didn't hurt me. [She hurt herself a bit in the struggle, but that's another story.]

But thank you. I know you wouldn't want me hurt any more than I'd want you hurt.

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	zugzwanger 2013-06-12 04:13 am UTC (link)
	[He nods.] It looks like they have some understanding, then. That's very good. I suppose we could be worse off. Have you heard from Yuuki yet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

friendly_fire
2013-06-12 04:17 am UTC (link)

Not yet...

I hope she's alright. [And that she will speak to her again someday if not now. It's not the first time she's hurt someone while in prison under the geass. She'd pushed Orihime down a flight of stairs. Things were never the same between them after that.]

The two of you had been friends once. I know you don't remember. Actually, I'm not sure she would either.

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	zugzwanger 2013-06-12 06:13 am UTC (link)
	Perhaps I might be able to talk to her on your behalf. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2013-06-14 02:28 pm UTC (link)
	Are you worried she'll be hostile? I don't think Yuuki would be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zugzwanger 2013-06-15 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	Not necessarily. I hope I may be able to provide some context for her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2013-06-16 02:25 am UTC (link)
	I'm sure she'd like to talk to you. I still hope to talk to her too. I should explain things. She deserves at least that much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zugzwanger 2013-06-16 09:31 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, she does. If I had been there it would have ended differently. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2013-06-19 03:47 am UTC (link)
	[~~More Euphie death?~~] Please don't feel badly about it. You're here now. That's what's important. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zugzwanger 2013-06-20 08:15 am UTC (link)
	[~~....Possibly.~~] [He seems to struggle with something to say for a long moment. He doesn't want to burden Euphemia with his issues any further.] I've found myself a place to stay in Sector 2, apartment [number]. I'll see if I can get you a spare key. If you need to, use it. Whether I'm there or not, make yourself at home. Maybe I can make dinner sometime. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

friendly_fire
2013-06-29 11:50 pm UTC (link)

[She smiles softly and a bit sadly, thinking of the brief time they lived together here and the happy time together as children. She'd like that again but after everything that just happened maybe it isn't right to ask her roommates to welcome him and she wonders if he'd be comfortable with something like that. Perhaps this is best for now. A compromise she didn't even need to ask for.]

I'd like that very much. You've gotten very good at cooking, and I'd like to spend time with you. [As much as she can really. She can't know when he might disappear again.]

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	zugzwanger 2013-06-30 12:41 am UTC (link)
	Once I get settled, I'll make some plans. Until later, then. Take care, Euphemia. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2013-07-02 04:12 am UTC (link)
	Ah, [She would like to see him now, but she supposes it's better if he has some time to re-acclimate and she does need to focus on those she's apologizing to.] yes, of course. We'll talk again soon. Take care of yourself too, Lelouch. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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