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Helena Wells-Quinzel is H.G. Wells (indelibleink) wrote in makebelievelog,
@ 2013-06-27 00:01:00

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h.g. wells, myka bering

Who: Myka and Helena
What: Myka has something to tell Helena.
When: After these
Where: Myka's room
Warnings: ****WH13 spoilers**** Angst, a lot of angst. Should be low but will update if needed

Ever since Claudia's texts earlier in the week, Helena had been worried. She wasn't certain if she'd done something or not done something, but she'd decided to give Claudia some space before prodding her again. Helena was focusing on keeping an eye on her younger self and ensuring that she abided by being grounded. The elder Helena ensured to make frequent trips to the library with her younger self to get her enough books to keep her occupied when she was at work or needed to go somewhere. The atmosphere in their rooms was extremely tense, so much so that one could cut it with a knife. They rarely spoke to one another, the elder not wanting to start another argument, the younger wishing to ignore the elder's existence. Aside from the tense truce, Helena had been thinking of finding another job, one better suited to encompassing more of her skills. Being a waitress simply wasn't cutting it any longer. She'd at least accumulated some money to support both herself and her younger self, but she wasn't going to quit her job until she felt secure enough in her understanding of modern technology to pursue another job. She already knew what job she wanted, she was studying about it and learning everything she could to prepare herself.

She'd been in the middle of reading a book about the topic of forensic science when her phone indicated she had a text message. Seeing Myka's text instantly worried Helena. She couldn't help but wonder what was going on and wondered if this had anything to do with Claudia. Or perhaps it was about the television show about them. Claudia had said she was going to tell Myka about it. So setting her book aside and telling Myka she'd be right over, Helena made assurances that her younger self wasn't going to try and sneak off while she was talking to Myka. For added insurance, Helena grabbed her tracking device on the way out her door as it would ping if the younger Helena decided to make a break for it. Going over to Myka's room, she knocked and opened the door, poking her head in.

"Myka?" She called, announcing her arrival. Given Myka was expecting her, she had simply let herself in. It was less awkward that way given the texts had been exchanged only a couple minutes prior.

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indelibleink
2013-06-29 12:27 pm UTC (link)

It was without a doubt a good thing that Helena hadn't seen the show recently. This was not something she would've reacted to well having seen it on television. Well, she wasn't inwardly reacting well to this news now, but it was infinitely better coming from Myka instead of learning it from the show. Helena supposed that was the downside to watching the show, that information such as this would be revealed to them whether they wanted it or not.

Helena maintained the hug for a minute, perhaps hugging Myka slightly tighter than was needed. It no doubt stemmed from her feelings for Myka, her desire to comfort her friend as best as she could. She was so very afraid, but Helena would hold her emotions inside and let them out later. Well, maybe. She wasn't certain just what she would do later when she was on her own and things truly sunk in, but for now, she needed to stay strong for Myka, and she would do that without question.

Finally pulling back from the hug, she looked at Myka. "I admit this is new territory for me, but what are you going to do?" She was certainly not privy to understanding how such things were even approached medically in this day. All she understood was that cancer almost always resulted in death. She certainly hoped modern medicine allowed for a better prognosis, but Helena was not an optimist any longer. The thought that she could potentially lose Myka again, this time in a rather final way, began to sink in through the shock. Losing Myka was not something Helena could handle.

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agent_bering
2013-06-30 12:32 pm UTC (link)

Myka didn’t suspect anything untoward about Helena’s lingering hug. In fact, she thought it might not have been long enough, but she didn’t want to make Helena feel uncomfortable. She pulled back and wiped at her cheeks.

“I have an appointment on Monday. They’ll run a few tests then we’ll go from there, and the appointments the doctors recommend. So… I guess the short answer is I’ll know more on Monday.”

She fiddled with her fingers, something she didn’t normally did. But she wasn’t normally this upset, this nervous, this trying so hard to keep it altogether, because, while she knew modern medicine in this area was leaps and bounds above what Helena was used to, and that the earlier you caught cancer the higher ones chances of survival were, this was still something so big for her to embrace.

“Claudia is going to drive me- Do you want to come with? I could use the support.”

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indelibleink
2013-06-30 07:58 pm UTC (link)

There was an urge within Helena to not want to leave Myka's side from this point on. Of course, that was perhaps largely out of the fear of losing her again. But when Helena cared about people, she did do whatever she could to help and protect them. While Helena herself may not fully realize it, caring about others was certainly both a strength of hers and something she was good at.

"I would, yes. I'll go to any of the appointments you want me to." Helena would ensure she was available to be there for Myka, even when it meant moving her work schedule or therapy sessions around. Myka was far more important than anything else. Seeing the way Myka fiddled with her fingers, Helena once again reached out and took one of her hands in both of hers.

"Any time you need company or anything, I'm here, okay? Day or night, it does not matter." This was not something Myka had to go through alone, she had both Claudia and Helena here, and they would get through this together. And it was perhaps in that moment when Helena made the internal decision to not let herself react emotionally to this. She needed to be strong for Myka, and no doubt for Claudia. It wouldn't do them any good if Helena fell apart as well. It was also far easier to filter her painful emotions away than it was to embrace them. It went completely against what she was trying to work on with her therapy, but Helena was not going to let Myka or Claudia see her fall apart over this. So she would be the strong one and do her best to keep them afloat as they moved through this.

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	agent_bering 2013-07-03 12:37 pm UTC (link)
	Myka squeezed Helena’s hands again, drawing so much comfort from this touch. “Thank you. Again.” She half laughed again, though it was more sad than joyous. “For everything. I don’t know how I could do this without you.” (Reply to this) (Parent)

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