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Myka Ophelia Bering (beringandwells) wrote in makebelievelog,
@ 2012-11-10 21:30:00

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claudia donovan, myka bering

Who: Myka Bering and Claudia Donovan
What: Girl-Sister time.
When: Saturday Evening
Where: Helena's sitting room (Because lets face it she never spends time in her own room)
Rating/Warnings: The usual with Myka and Claudia...so nothing.
Status: Closed, Ongoing

Her nightmares had only become more frequent but she'd learned how to not wake Helena in the process. Myka wasn't sure where the urge to ask to move in had come from. No sooner had she asked than did she regret the action. It was too soon. Sure, they'd talked about most of Helena's past but the two of them had carefully avoided addressing the issues lurking in the back of their minds. Though Myka loved Helena and knew that she always would, a part of her could never accept the deeds she'd done against them.

Helena's past had been accepted from the moment that the Victorian woman had sacrificed herself to save them all. But the actions that had been taken and the betrayal after her debronzing were still fresh wounds. They had driven Myka away from the Warehouse and she still didn't understand why the older woman had done it. Having never had a child and then losing said child in such a brutal manner was a pain she couldn't understand until experienced. Seeing what it had done to Helena, Myka hoped that she never was introduced to such an event.

Claudia always knew what to say. It was an odd thing that the junior agent with a profound destiny knew how to handle the problems of them all. She knew just what each of them needed for certain situations and tried to make herself available. The fiery spirit was one that Myka loved and found amusing. Claudia was very much another sister for her. So, when the going got tough, Myka had turned to the one place that she knew she could count on. Pete had been sent home and there was still an emptiness there that couldn't be filled. Part of her hoped that he would be brought back because the future he was returning to was not a great one. When, Claudia had brought up a movie night, Myka had begun to think of what movies they could watch. The library was full of an endless supply and variety that it was hard to choose.

As she stood in the library, Myka looked at the selection and then sighed. It was too hard to decide on anything in particular. Spotting the original Star Wars trilogy as she passed over one of the shelves. Myka grabbed them and turned to leave the library. If Claudia decided that she wanted to watch something else they could go down together and choose. But for now at least they'd have something in the room for when she stopped by for girl-sister time. Once back inside, Helena's room, she sent a quick text off to the junior agent reminding her that they'd be in Helena's room, and then picked up Grappler and sat her on the bed in Helena's room. Both the elder and younger had been gone all day and the cat would be starved for attention. Attention that Myka was not willing to give and she doubted Claudia would either. Laying down on the couch she sat staring at the floor awaiting Claudia's arrival.

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beringandwells
2012-11-22 12:23 am UTC (link)

Talking. It had been why she'd wanted Claudia to spend some time with her but she was still wary of actually discussing everything. Talking about what was bothering her meant that she had to actually accept that something was bothering her. Even if everyone around her could see that she wasn't her usual self. Motioning to the dvd's sitting on the edge of the table, Myka said in confirmation to the suggestion, "You do that and I'll start talking." The question was where should she start?

Myka could start with her persistent nightmares of the Warehouse explosion. Or the fears that someone else that she held close to her heart would be gone one morning. She was still feeling the pain of having Minerva and her younger self sent home. And not too long after that Pete had been sent back to a future that was so dreadful. Myka could start with how there were parts of Helena that she'd never be able to fully accept. And how that could potentially affect their relationship in the long run. Or the sudden marriage proposal that happened whilst she was sick. They hadn't brought that up since it had happened but Myka knew it was in the back of their minds. And lastly whether or not they should move in with one another.

"Where should I start, Claudia?" Myka asked. It would be far easier if the younger woman helped guide her. Deep down she knew relationship talk was not the girls forte but they knew each other. And at most Claudia's need for answers and asking questions would move things along.

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clauds
2012-11-22 04:49 am UTC (link)

"Uhmmm." Claudia paused at that question, literally, standing there with the DVD case in her hand for a moment while she thought over the question Myka had posed. Claudia didn't know all of the details and it was hard to pick one specific "thing," as a result. But she had sat through enough psychiatric evaluations and sessions to have an idea spring to mind.

"What one thing, when you think about it, makes you level 10 on a scale of 1-10 upset? Nauseated, don't want to think about it, avoidance needed. If there's not a 10, give me the next highest number and start there?" She suggested before moving to pop the DVD into the player. It was easier to tackle the big subject because, in the midst of it, there would be all the attempts to deviate to avoid it. And, if Myka didn't deviate, it would still seem easier to tackle a 6 or the like after hitting on the 10.

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