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Roland Deschain | The Dark Tower (ofgilead) wrote in madisonvalley,
@ 2013-10-14 22:45:00

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!open, ~10 points, ~2013 october, ~~cuthbert allgood (cuthbertallgood), ~~georgia mason (afterthendtimes), ~~leisha camden (leishacamden), ~~roland deschain (ofgilead)

I have come across a job of sorts, mayhap.

There's a...camp, called Louis Ernst, north of town a bit, where young boys - Scouts, they call them - learn skills important to a young man's life. After a bit of research, I inquired after a job placement there, and they've told me they could use a 'counselor' for the target shooting merit badge. They wish to see me shoot, but I am certain that will not dissuade them, say true.

Does anyone know of this organization? We've nothing like it in Gilead, except the gunslingers themselves.

[Filtered to Cuthbert]

I've finished the second book, so I have. Jake...comes back alive!

But I lose two fingers on my right hand, Cuthbert. Two fingers. On my right hand.

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	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-16 01:21 pm UTC (link)
	Ka's not always something we're meant to comprehend, Bert, and so you know it. But if that's the cost of finding the Tower, I'll gladly pay it. I don't quite know how we're supposed to find the Tower here though, when there's naught but a small town and no way to leave. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cuthbert | Roland

cuthbertallgood
2013-10-16 01:27 pm UTC (link)

Aye, I know it. But don't I also know that not everything we don't rightly comprehend can be traced back to ka? It's a poor sort of excuse for things that way.

Nor do I, but think on it. There are people being pulled here, accidental todash, from all manner of worlds. Doesn't that mean there's something particular important about this one, where we're all coming together?

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	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 11:26 am UTC (link)
	My father told me that if there was something you couldn't understand, it was best left to ka. So I will. Or perhaps this world's but a waystation, to others? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland cuthbertallgood 2013-10-17 12:24 pm UTC (link)
	You do that, then, for I'm not fool enough to pick an argument with your father in his absence, of all things. 'Course, one solution there is to come to understand whatever the problem might be. That would explain the...size of it, so it would, but folk usually travel on through a waystation, not get stuck there! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 12:29 pm UTC (link)
	And that is exactly why you are here, friend, so it is. Aye, it's a peculiar kind of waystation that leaves you waiting for something but won't let you leave. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cuthbert | Roland

cuthbertallgood
2013-10-17 12:39 pm UTC (link)

Me? I'll try as I can. Mayhap I need to talk more to Sai Georgia, for hasn't she a better understanding of things than any of us? If she's right and she's from a time long before ours, then we ought to take note. It might explain why there were no doorways or chimes or aught that there should be when a fellow goes todash.</s> Mayhap going between times is something else altogether.

She doesn't know a bit about the Tower, though, and that's a proper shame.

So it is. Unless what we're to wait for isn't yet here, of course.

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	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 12:42 pm UTC (link)
	Sai Georgia, aye, she's not fond of me, so she's not. And I can't say I'm right pleased with her, after the things she said about Susan. But if she can help us find the Tower, we'll use her regardless, say true. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cuthbert | Roland

cuthbertallgood
2013-10-17 12:48 pm UTC (link)

She's not rightly fond of anyone, that's her way. She's from a world moved on and she's got all kinds of responsibilities and you're not to think badly of her for that.

I like her well enough. And her brother.

I'll not excuse what she said of Susan, though. She doesn't know near enough about it and she shouldn't have made comments on what she won't understand. But then it's her way to do that, too.

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Cuthbert | Roland

ofgilead
2013-10-17 12:52 pm UTC (link)

She's told me she thinks me right spoiled, too. And aye, we grew up in Gilead, we had it better than most, but I'm hardly a pampered prince like in the bedtime stories my mother told. I've worked my whole life, and worked hard, but she won't listen a bit to anything I have to say and insists on thinking of me so.

But, there'll be water when God wills it.

She's a cold woman, so she is.

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	Cuthbert \| Roland cuthbertallgood 2013-10-17 12:59 pm UTC (link)
	Spoiled. And what would she know of it? It's all very well for her to call us spoiled, she's never met Cort, so she hasn't! Don't mind it. She didn't think at all well of me when I first met her either, but I reckon it's a little different now. She's cold. She's been through things that have made her so, I'll say that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 01:03 pm UTC (link)
	Aye, she knows nothing of it. She hears of our world, of Gilead, and of the line of Eld, and immediately assumes what such would mean in her world. But if these books turn true, I'll be colder still. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland cuthbertallgood 2013-10-17 01:13 pm UTC (link)
	That's so. And I'll admit I likely didn't help matters by going on about Gilead and what a fine place it is. ~~I was homesick.~~ Aye. You'll be cold, if that all comes to pass. Mind, not near as cold as I'll be, say true! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 01:17 pm UTC (link)
	But it is a fine place, say true. The finest. Nay, such a thing's not for joking, 'Bert. Your loss grieves me, even reading of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland cuthbertallgood 2013-10-17 01:26 pm UTC (link)
	'Course it is. Only folk like Sai Georgia don't rightly see it that way. If she could only visit Gilead she'd know different. I know, Roland. Only I have to joke about it, it's either that or I'll get right melancholy and isn't that worse? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 01:29 pm UTC (link)
	Aye, aye, joke as you will. I'd sooner stop a dog from barking, so I would. I'd trade you your fate for mine, though, if I could. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland cuthbertallgood 2013-10-17 01:35 pm UTC (link)
	And I'd trade them both out for something newer and shinier, like, say, finding that Tower half a year from now and living on in Gilead 'til we're both old greybeards. I take your meaning well enough, though. Didn't I say that I don't envy you for it? Dying's not the worst thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 01:40 pm UTC (link)
	Well, aye, of course. But such, I think, is not our fate. No, watching everyone you love die is, say true. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cuthbert | Roland

cuthbertallgood
2013-10-17 01:48 pm UTC (link)

No, I reckon not. Only it's like I've said to other folk here, it doesn't trouble me a bit if I should die fighting for Gilead and for the White. Well. Mayhap a bit, but not near enough for me to need to change matters. If I knew that Gilead went on after me, that'd be enough. It's not for proper selfish reasons that I mean to alter what's written there.

I'll not disagree. Your fate is worse.

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	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 01:51 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps I can keep it alive in some small way? It's my hope, so it is. Perhaps as long as a gunslinger still walks Mid-World, it'll not be forgotten. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland cuthbertallgood 2013-10-17 01:56 pm UTC (link)
	I don't doubt a bit that you'll do so, Roland, so long as you live, but that's not- I can't stop thinking on what'll happen to my mother, so I can't, or my little sisters, or Sidony that I took to cotillion that time, remember her with the blue eyes, or - any of them, Roland! All the folk we care for, that we ought to be able to protect. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cuthbert | Roland

ofgilead
2013-10-17 02:01 pm UTC (link)

I remember your Sidony, aye, blue eyes that glittered in the sparklights. She was smitten for you, Cuthbert, right bad, too. What became of her? I expected you to court her.

Cry your pardon, I don't want to think on it. On all those who'll be lost because we fail. My mother, too, and all those we're pledged to keep safe. All gone, and all of Gilead's blood spilled into the dry earth. I don't want to think on it, say sorry.

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Cuthbert | Roland

cuthbertallgood
2013-10-17 02:09 pm UTC (link)

There, look, it's my fault, so it is, I've gone from jokes direct to melancholy again. I'll not speak on it further. It won't help to, not yet. ~~Although I can't rightly help thinking about it whether I want to or not.~~

Mayhap I would have courted her, although I'm not rightly sure she was as fond of me as you say. She was so very pretty, though, and I did love the way she laughed. No doubt she found a new fellow to look to when we all went off to Hambry, though. A girl like her wouldn't have any shortage of admirers.

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	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 02:12 pm UTC (link)
	Aye, but none an apprentice gunslinger, say true. You'd more worth than most. Did you ever think what it might be like, 'Bert, to have had a life like our fathers'? To marry, raise children, grow old in Gilead? I never thought it a life I wanted, until I met Susan, say true. And now I can't get it out of my head, maybe because I know it'll never be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cuthbert | Roland

cuthbertallgood
2013-10-17 04:09 pm UTC (link)

As it counts, I suppose. And wasn't her mother's father a gunslinger himself? She knew what it meant, say true.

I'd not ever had much cause to think on it; I reckon I just assumed it'd be so, eventually, before I was old enough to consider it properly. I'd still want it, but isn't it fair distant now, like a far-off sort of dream? Likely it'll never be, you're right on that.

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	Re: Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 04:14 pm UTC (link)
	She did. I think she knew your worth well enough. A far-off dream, aye. Sad that we were born in such times, I don't feel ready for such a thing, Cuthbert. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland cuthbertallgood 2013-10-17 04:19 pm UTC (link)
	Could anyone ever be ready for such? We'll do what we can to make things better, serve the White as we're meant to, and mayhap that'll be enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cuthbert \| Roland ofgilead 2013-10-17 04:19 pm UTC (link)
	In any case, it's all we can do, say true. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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