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Peter Pettigrew (p__pettigrew) wrote in hogwarts_dawn,
@ 2021-04-11 17:12:00

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character: james potter, character: peter pettigrew

RP: Peter/James
Who: Peter/James
When: Later afternoon 11th April
Where: around Hogwarts
What: they try talking again

Peter went straight to the tower to meet James. He was... ambivalent, because he knew that James had every right to tell him to piss off, but the fact that James had agreed to meet was a good sign. Maybe they could make it work. Maybe they could have the Marauders back, the smarter and grown up version of them.

He made it upstairs quickly, half running and half speed walking, but slowing down when he got closer. "Hogwarts really needs to let us Apparate. I'm out of breath," he said, in greeting. "And hi, how are you? How's Lily?" he asked, not having spoken to her yet. He wouldn't reach out to her without patching things up with James first.
"So we're looking for the stink bomb store because-?" He was pretty sure that there was no real reason, but they were getting bored in this castle and boredom led to introspection and no self-respecting Gryffindor wanted introspection.

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p__pettigrew
2021-04-16 10:24 pm UTC (link)

"It was a slow thing, something that built up from school. I always felt that you and Sirius would put each other first and I thought I could live with that until my family was threatened and if I had said something earlier-" He sighed. "James, you have done shitty things since you were eleven, but focusing on your son and wife wasn't one of those things. You did the right thing. I- I guess part of it was jealousy. I was so used to you putting Sirius, then it became Sirius, Lily and Harry. I convinced myself that you wouldn't care."

He sighed. "I don't know, Prongs. Slowly, one day at a time, one awkward discussion at a time, that's the only way to do it. It's not something that you have to decide now. That's not why I wrote. I wanted to truly talk and tell you all of this. Now take your time, talk to Lily, see what she said and in the meantime we life and we grow. It seems that none of us got that chance last time around. Maybe this time we can."

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_cervus_
2021-04-18 09:14 pm UTC (link)

"I can care about quite a few people at once, you know," James sighed. "I don't get why me getting married or having a kid means giving less of a toss about you lot."

He'd always had a weird feeling of responsibility when it came to the other three - Peter included. Whether they wanted it or if it was required was another matter. Still, the fact that he and Sirius were... well, him and Sirius, and that he had Lily and Harry in his life, didn't change that.

Or perhaps it had, and James just hadn't quite noticed. Perhaps he had been too busy reacting to everything else falling apart to take the time.

He nodded at Peter's next words. It was a good thing, really, because he honestly was no closer to figuring this out than he had been at the start of the conversation. He was less angry at Wormtail, perhaps - the apology had done that much. Now, if he was honest, he mostly felt sad. And hurt; that was still simmering there, although more of a dull ache than the white hot pain it had been before.

"Yeah, maybe." He couldn't keep the note of uncertainty from his voice. There was too much to wrap his head around. He needed to talk it through with Lily or Sirius. Probably both of them.

And wasn't that what Peter had been saying?

Merlin, this was a nightmare.

"I hope you're right," he finally agreed. "I'd like that. One day." James stuffed his hands back in his pockets, half turning to continue down the corridor. "You coming?"

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p__pettigrew
2021-04-18 09:27 pm UTC (link)

"James, you never cared about me or Remus as much as you cared about Sirius. Never. It was always the two of you, through thick and thin. Sirius who moved in with you. Sirius who was Harry's Godfather. Sirius who would never be questioned. You already cared less about us and we got used to that. Having Lily and Harry just meant that there were two more people who came before us and we learned to adjust to that as well," he said with a shrug. "Okay, Remus adjusted, I resented."

Peter nodded. "Yeah, let's go find that room." The rest needed time, because he knew that one apology wouldn't change anything. James needed the time and Peter knew how important that was.

Hopefully with time, they'll finally get those smarter, mature Marauders they kept talking about.

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