silvermoonlady (silvermoonlady) wrote in halcyon_halls, @ 2008-07-17 17:10:00 |
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Entry tags: | miklos, sydni |
Week 14: Wednesday
Who: Sydni and Miklos
What: You do the crime, you do the time
Where: Miklos's office
When: After evening classes
The week had not been a total loss, contrary to Sydni's expectations. Monday, she'd been able to spend some time with Charlie, which had definitely cheered her up a bit. Tuesday, she'd gotten a job and had met the coolest guy ever - Starbuck. The things she'd be able to learn from him were limitless, and he seemed more than willing to help her to learn more. And, he seemed like a nice guy to top it off. She'd left the surf shop with her mind spinning with all the possibilities and opportunities she'd have to discover more than she'd ever known. The excitement had held her over until she finished her homework and had climbed into bed. It was then she remembered she had to meet with Miklos on Wednesday, and the dread had hung heavy over her all day. In fact, she hadn't been able to much of anything all day. She hadn't even attempted breakfast, and lunch had been a few crackers she'd forced herself to munch on. Dinner was the same.
After finishing her "dinner", she attempted to work on her homework, barely succeeding in focusing at all on her studies. When evening classes finally ended, she set her books aside and started toward Miklos's office. She normally would have left early, but he had a class and wouldn't have been there if she'd arrived early. Just walking to his office, she felt like her stomach was going to revolt. That would certainly be impressive during their meeting. Normally, a thought like that would have amused her - due to its absolute absurdity - enough to calm her. Right now, it only made her feel worse.
Sydni'd imagined all sorts of scenarios for this meeting. But the worst ones were when she could just see the disappointment in his face. He didn't even say anything. And as for the punishment... canceling the independent study. What if he sent her home? That had caused several moments of panic at various times throughout the day. If that had been the case, wouldn't the administration have told her? She didn't know. It seemed odd to have a guide be the one to administer discipline. She thought guides were supposed to be like guidance counselors, and guidance counselors were purposely separated from administering discipline to build the proper rapport with students. The school did things differently here, obviously, so maybe Miklos would be the one to tell her to leave.
The various scenarios continued to run through her mind as she walked to his office, and she found herself at his door sooner than she'd expected, or wanted. She had to stop herself several feet from his door to calm herself - she felt sick, and she noticed her hands were shaking like she was in withdrawal. She hated confrontation to where it was probably a phobia. Funny that - she was here about getting in a fist fight.
Finally gathering herself together enough to not fall apart the instant she opened the door, she walked the last few feet to his door and knocked. Her hand was still shaking slightly, so she couldn't knock very hard without abusing the door. "Professor Lazlofi?" Somehow, her voice was steady, though very soft, practically a whisper. She was finding it hard to breathe, so now she had to worry about fainting on top of vomiting. Really, the only thing she was worrying about right now was what Miklos would say. Things like breathing were only her second concern at this point.