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Tweak says, "Stop hurting people"

αℓєχ υ∂ιησν ஜ knows how to live with the pain (russiandoll) wrote in freedomtownic,
@ 2014-06-28 18:49:00

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~alexandra udinov (russiandoll), ~bruce wayne, ~nikola tesla

I know everyone on this ship can't be squeaky clean, where can I find some heroin? Or hell, I'll take just about anything right now.

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	nomorewine 2014-06-29 02:21 am UTC (link)
	Such a polite way of asking for a fix...I suppose if I had access to the med lab, it would be easy enough to whip up a little something to ease your burdens. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2014-06-29 12:44 pm UTC (link)
	I want to OD. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nomorewine 2014-06-29 07:43 pm UTC (link)
	What a foolish thing to say. If your intent was to kill yourself, there are so many simpler ways to have gone about it. Yet announcing your intentions...Well if that is how you feel I am certain you can locate a broom closet somewhere on this ship. The cleaning chemicals will do the trick, though consuming them will kill you it will also be far from pleasant. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2014-06-29 09:11 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not picky but one last high would be nice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nomorewine 2014-06-30 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	Oh there would be no high, only gut wrenching agony...but if you are weak enough to end your own life, then perhaps in death you can be of use. (Reply to this) (Parent)

_starlord_
2014-06-29 02:40 am UTC (link)

Whoa there, honey.

I admit to having NO idea what you're going through right now. This has to be hard on all of you. But you still can't be going around all LA-DI-DA asking for heroine.

Number one... there's nothing like that here. Only drugs we got here are for healing purposes. We got NOTHING that's gonna make you high.

Second... WE HAVE LAW ENFORCEMENT HERE. Seriously. This probably isn't the best course of action.

But look: this isn't me being a wise-ass, or a flirt, or ANYTHING. This is me caring. I don't know you, and I don't know what's bothering you. But I do know that you're a young, beautiful woman who's better than this. Be strong, ok? Where are you? I'd like to come and talk to you. No tricks, no ulterior motives. Just let me come chat with you.

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	katebeckett 2014-06-29 02:54 am UTC (link)
	All of that. Though you can't actually arrest someone for asking for drugs, Quill. You have to be in possession of them. Best thing to do, go to the hospital and detox under medical care. Otherwise its gonna be a rough ride. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2014-06-29 12:42 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not actually on anything right now, I just want to be. I need...something. If someone has a gun I can use, that'd be fine too. But I was going for an OD. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	katebeckett 2014-06-29 04:48 pm UTC (link)
	Kind of a really personal question, but is there any season you want to kill yourself? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2014-06-29 04:48 pm UTC (link)
	Because everyone I love dies and now it's my turn. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	katebeckett 2014-06-29 04:51 pm UTC (link)
	Taking a guess that your determination is less about being brought here and more about something that happened at home? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2014-06-29 04:52 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. Sean's dead and it's my fault. I'm cursed or something. So now I have to die before anyone else I care about dies instead. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	katebeckett 2014-06-29 04:55 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry he's dead, I know how it feels to loose someone you love. But, in an effort to be logical, no one you love is here right now, are they? So why kill yourself for no reason? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	russiandoll 2014-06-29 04:56 pm UTC (link)
	I do have reason. I couldn't save my father. I couldn't save the girls at the brothel. Larissa. I couldn't save Sean. I can't save all of you, so it's really better if I'm just gone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

katebeckett
2014-06-29 04:59 pm UTC (link)

Well, the beauty of the thing? Saving people isn't your job if you don't want it to be. That's my job. You are here, and I know its weird and scary, but here you can basically start over.

And I know about loss. I couldn't save my mom or my fiance. It almost killed me, but I'm still here. Still fighting because, really, I know that they'd be disappointed if I just gave up.