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Ashton Kowalski ([info]turn_to_ash) wrote in [info]freedomtownic,
@ 2020-12-26 01:17:00

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Entry tags:ash kowalski (turn_to_ash), jason (hiddendemigod), lord john grey (lordgrey), patience kowalski (eternalpatience), penelope kowalski (worldburning)

Christmas has always been bittersweet for me.

I have such a great memories of it as a little kid, because my mom always made it great for Patience and I.

Then things got... really bad once she passed. I think my father tried to be an even BIGGER bastard than usual on holidays. God forbid I have a little bit of joy in my life.

More than anything though, I think I just get a little down at the holidays due to not being where I hoped to be by now. Anyone who knows me well knows I've always wanted to be a dad. And I guess I imagined that by this point in my life, I'd be giving a kid the kind of Christmases I always wanted my father to give me.

Instead, I'm on a world that still confuses me, and can't seem to stop saying and doing the wrong thing constantly. Still... I'm not the humbug type.

So just... I dunno. Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukah, Happy Life Day... whatever you celebrate, I hope you have the best one possible.


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[info]worldburning
2020-12-26 06:46 am UTC (link)
Solstice, babe.

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[info]turn_to_ash
2020-12-26 06:49 am UTC (link)
Hey, beautiful. How was your day?

PS - I really don't celebrate holidays in general. Christmas just has sentimental value to me.

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[info]worldburning
2020-12-26 06:56 am UTC (link)
I've barely left my room in at least a week.

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[info]turn_to_ash
2020-12-26 06:57 am UTC (link)
Want to spend some time together? I can throw some coffee on, make us something to eat...

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[info]worldburning
2020-12-26 07:02 am UTC (link)
No. No sustenance.

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[info]turn_to_ash
2020-12-26 07:03 am UTC (link)
....alright. Just thought I'd offer.

Just miss you.

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[info]worldburning
2020-12-26 07:06 am UTC (link)
Yeah... me too.

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[info]turn_to_ash
2020-12-26 07:08 am UTC (link)
So come see me.

If you're that scared of me, I don't have to touch you.

But not seeing you is killing me.

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[info]worldburning
2020-12-26 07:13 am UTC (link)
I like being afraid and I now welcome death.

I'm just working on getting myself out of bed.

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[info]turn_to_ash
2020-12-26 07:14 am UTC (link)
Please don't welcome de-
If I lost you I would die

Want me to come to you?

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[info]worldburning
2020-12-26 07:27 am UTC (link)
I'm already on my way.

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[info]turn_to_ash
2020-12-26 07:27 am UTC (link)
Love you, babe.

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[info]lordgrey
2020-12-29 02:16 am UTC (link)
I never thought I would have the chance to be a father. I tried to make the yule season lighthearted for my son but it has been a bittersweet time since losing his mother.

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[info]turn_to_ash
2020-12-29 02:18 am UTC (link)
Hey... if you're a father, just make the best of it, and remember how lucky you are. Never forget that or make that kid feel like less than great about himself.

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[info]lordgrey
2020-12-29 02:20 am UTC (link)
He is the best part of my life. I count myself lucky that the gem brought him here with me.

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[info]hiddendemigod
2020-12-29 02:19 am UTC (link)
Did you have a good Christmas here at least?

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[info]turn_to_ash
2020-12-29 02:22 am UTC (link)
Not really, no. Just... kinda sat around thinking.

It's ok, though. It's just another day.

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[info]hiddendemigod
2020-12-29 02:27 am UTC (link)
At least it was a Friday.

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[info]eternalpatience
2020-12-29 09:39 am UTC (link)
A normal Christmas is for dorks, anyway.

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