rattish (rattish) wrote in fourteenshades, @ 2014-06-12 22:23:00 |
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Entry tags: | !ageplot, james potter, remus lupin, x-peter pettigrew |
Confessions
Who: Moony Wormtail and Prongs... Sorry Padfoot!
Where: The Food Court
When: Thursday lunchtime
Peter was dreading this meeting quite possibly more than any other he'd had in this village. A mad homicidal Sirius was one thing, a chronically insane genocidal Dark Lord was another, but fifteen year old James Potter, well. He couldn't imagine anything worse.
All his instincts were to go rat, bolt, and hide away somewhere. What stopped him more than anything else was the fact he had not transformed now in over two months - if he had been any good at self analysis he might have said this was a significant progression in the right direction, but as it was, it was merely another constant source of humiliation.
He was going to let James down all over again - this time to his face - to see the disappointment and the betrayal and the hatred in his eyes afresh. He wasn't really afraid James would attack him - Moony was there if it came to that, even if Peter's magic wasn't up to any kind of duel - but the idea of having to say the actual words, to admit wrongs he had never even said out loud and once again try to explain why without really knowing the words to express the reasons, was more than he could bear. Remus or Sirius would have been bad enough, but James... James...
Usually he liked the pizza place - after being thoroughly confused by pizza the first time he had tried it, he now prized it as one of the few foods he could eat easily without a knife and fork. Today though, not even a steaming half-open box of pepperoni with the rich meaty scent floating out of it could make him relax even for a second. He sat half curled in his chair, every part of him tensed as he and Remus waited for their teenage friend. "I think I'm going to be sick," he murmured, hiding his face in his good hand as he leant over the table. "I can't believe you talked me into this."