Private to SelfWHY?! WHY THE BLOODY FUCKING HELL DID I LEAVE? I was perfectly safe with him. WHY?
He's gone forever and he's never coming back. Ever.
This is the last fucking time I ever leave my suite alone. Jagger is probably going to chew me out some time or another for leaving.
This is all my fault. I told him I would never hurt him, and now he's gone forever because of me.
I almost deserve the death that waited for me tonight.
Alexander, no words can even begin to amount to how stupid I feel right now. I have failed you.
End PrivateHe..he's really gone. He's dead and there's nothing I can do to ever bring him back.
I'm sorry, Alexander. Fuck my nightmare on the card and fuck this stupid house. If anything was my nightmare it was losing Alexander and I barely even survived that. I brought my own worst nightmare to life without even so much as a strange door.