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Tweak says, "Do you have a toolbelt of love"

Dom Weasley (the_actor) wrote in flippedrpg,
@ 2013-08-05 07:44:00

Costume fitting day. Thought I'd show off this little gem.

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	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 05:58 pm UTC (link)
	Yes. I just couldn't think of a good way to say it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-06 07:01 pm UTC (link)
	You care. Why would there not be a good way of saying it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	I do care. I just don't want to offend you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-06 07:06 pm UTC (link)
	You can't offend me. Speak your mind. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	It's not my place to tell you how to live your life. But I worry about some of your choices. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-06 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	..is that really all you wanted to say? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	Generally yes. Specifically no. I've been to Amsterdam. I know what it's known for. I also have very vivid memories of helping you pump your father's stomach the last time he went on a bender. I don't want anyone to have to have to do for you what we did for him. Ever. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-06 07:29 pm UTC (link)
	Wouldn't be the first time I shoved fingers down someone's throat. ~~although a first for him~~. Trust me when I say I don't care if I come back from that rabbit hole. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 07:37 pm UTC (link)
	You might not, but I do. Very much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-06 07:42 pm UTC (link)
	And now the ever repeating question...why? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 07:48 pm UTC (link)
	Because I like you, Amie. You are my friend and I care about you. If something were to happen to you, especially drug related, I don't know what I would do. To be perfectly honest, I wish you didn't do them at all, but I know I can't stop you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-06 07:57 pm UTC (link)
	This is true? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	I have not, not will I ever lie to you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-06 08:09 pm UTC (link)
	No, but you will refrain from speaking your mind. You shouldn't like me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 08:16 pm UTC (link)
	I do that sometimes, to keep from hurting people. I don't like conflict, so I avoid it. Maybe I shouldn't, but I do. It's not something I can just turn off because I "shouldn't" have those feelings. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-06 09:05 pm UTC (link)
	You don't have to avoid anything with me. I don't understand why you like me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-06 09:12 pm UTC (link)
	I'll keep that in mind. I don't understand it entirely myself, but with these kinds of things... It's not possible to completely understand. You're beautiful, smart, curious, intuitive, challenging, and interesting. Other than some of the things you do in your life, I can't think of a reason why I shouldn't like you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Dom

willnotbeled
2013-08-07 02:54 am UTC (link)

I can think of a few reasons and they are all what you stated above. What you're feeling is a physical attraction that has also made you blatantly tell me you have already fantasized about the possibility. This attraction has made me seem desirable and almost untouchable. I give no hint if I am interested in the same idea, which pushes your curiosity.

All of this, everything we feel is driven by attraction and the sheer fear of not being alone. And even as I am writing all of this, it still doesn't answer your question that you may never ask.

I find you attractive.
I would probably sleep with you.
And nothing more.

The act of sex is exactly that. There is nothing romantic or passionate about it. Two people using each other for that single moment of when all things stand still. The emotions someone throws in, of like or love are blinded by the climax. I fuck to climax, not to hold each other through the night and wake to a face that won't be there in a month's time. As for my choices in life, they are my own. I know why I do it. I won't stop. I can't stop.

This is me.

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Amie

the_actor
2013-08-07 04:46 am UTC (link)

That's one kind of sex, yes. It has it's merits, as does sex with an emotional connection. I never asked for more from you, cherie. I don't like going into such things with those expectations. It's better for all if they develop naturally, if it is meant for them to develop at all. True, I have felt feelings for you, mostly of friendship, perhaps with the possibility of growing to more, perhaps not. But so you know, I have no intentions of leaving this place.

And for the record, you can stop. Everyone can stop. You just don't have a reason to want to.

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	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-07 11:46 am UTC (link)
	I know you haven't and I would really hope that you don't ask any more of me. There is nothing I can give you other than company and a good time. I have no intentions other than to live my life and live it on my own. I barely even offer friendship. [...] Touche. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Amie

the_actor
2013-08-07 11:55 am UTC (link)

I will never intentionally ask more of you than what you are willing to give. And if it happens, it happens by accident, and all you need to do is tell me when I've gone too far and it will stop immediately. If all you want is a good time, I can give that to you. I just don't want to have a good time and then never hear from you again. This place isn't very large, and awkward run-ins really aren't my thing. And while you may "barely offer friendship," you have thus far proven to be a very good friend.

I don't expect you to go looking for a reason. It would be a shame and end in nothing but disaster. But maybe one day a reason will present itself. Just don't brush it aside when it does.

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	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-07 12:36 pm UTC (link)
	Ah, what worries me are those feelings you might start to develop. Like I said, there is nothing else to offer but my attention. If being a good friend is simply spending time with you, then something is wrong in this place. And what if I never want that reason to present itself? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-07 12:42 pm UTC (link)
	There are many things wrong in this place, the least of which is what qualities make a good friend in someone's eyes. Right now, all I want is your attention. That doesn't mean it won't. We rarely get what we want in life. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dom willnotbeled 2013-08-07 12:45 pm UTC (link)
	Many things wrong and yet you don't want to leave? [...] I'm not wanting anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Amie the_actor 2013-08-07 12:48 pm UTC (link)
	Just because things are wrong doesn't mean there aren't bright spots. Everyone wants something. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)