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witchdragon (witchdragon) wrote in fic_finder,
@ 2007-11-07 21:54:00

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!found, abused justin, brian/justin, qaf

Abused Justin
Hello all, I'm new to QAF fandom,a nd our lovely mod has now twice written something about abused Justin, so now I have to read some. I would love your favs for abused Justin, with hero Brain, I would prefer no non-con, or at least nothing descriptive, and a happy ending.
Thank you!!

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	pendulumchanges 2007-11-08 05:14 am UTC (link)
	I think most people have read this, but on the off chance you haven't I can't help but rec it. It's not abused!Justin, but it's sick!Justin and it's definitely Hero!Brian with a capital H. It does have a happy ending and it's NOT death!fic. "If You Needed Me" by myrna1_2_3 (on LJ) (I think it has sometimes been referred to as braintumor!fic) (Reply to this) (Thread)

pendulumchanges
2007-11-08 05:17 am UTC (link)

I realized maybe I should explain a tiny bit more since the link takes you straight to the fic and it doesn't offer any explanation.

It's basically an AU after the end of season 2. It's pretty long and is told in 4 parts from the POV of first Ethan, then Michael, then Brian, then finally Justin. It's the mother of all hurt/comfort fics. It's amazing. I've read it twice (once very recently) and I really want to start reading it all over again right now.

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	witchdragon 2007-11-09 09:07 pm UTC (link)
	This was great! Thank you!!! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pendulumchanges 2007-11-09 09:16 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad you enjoyed it! Spread the love. Everyone in our fandom needs to read this one. (Reply to this) (Parent)

vamphile
2007-11-08 05:19 am UTC (link)

Hi, and welcome, and yes, i am just weird about loving abused Justin fics although i find none of them believable.

I do recommended you read "if you needed me, that

pendulumchanges reced Tumor!fic (as most people call it) is a really great way to sob into your computer screen for a while... i mean...gaah. (sorry, my love for the author, Myrna, and that fic, knows no bounds. I'll be back in a few with my abused Justin ~~guilty pleasures~~ recs.

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vamphile
2007-11-08 05:35 am UTC (link)

Okay, there's rubbed raw by Kamikaze (it's terrible. i mean GHASTLY, but when it comes to ethan being abusive...he really is a motherfucker in this one.

this is not abusive!ethan but a thousand beautiful things by lemon bar is just... Justin can't talk, and Brian and Justin are in a mental institution, which is how they meet, and they communicate through a teddy bear and it all sounds insane, and it is, and yet is still just all about teh love.

(please remember these are not recommendations, they are fics i have read that fit your criteria)

this is not abusive!Ethan either, but it is Justin being abused and Brian intervening with all the cliches that go with it I remember you

what if Justin left the Carnival With Brian by toploft.

It's a one off, it's crap, I've read it three hundred times.

Okay, i'll let other people admit they've read some now, but i can't end this without...

Justin comes home this is by Grover, the QUEEN of unintentional crack. It's... um... Justin passes out after being hit in the head with a bedpan... need i say more?

just read it... or don't but keep the brain bleach handy... this fic burns itself into your brain and will. not. leave.

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	pendulumchanges 2007-11-08 04:30 pm UTC (link)
	I just started Rubbed Raw and fuck, Ethan is scary! “I told you Justin, if I cannot have you I will slit your fucking throat and put your ashes in my violin." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pendulumchanges 2007-11-08 04:45 pm UTC (link)
	ROFLMAO you didn't put a warning that this is an MPREG! ohhh this is some amazing crack... the long iron branding stick with a big E on it... because of course everyone has a branding stick laying around. I love the author's note that reveals their son Sam was originally named Spartacus. Ok, I'm not reading the rest of this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vamphile 2007-11-08 06:44 pm UTC (link)
	OMG...i forgot to label it MPREG! Bad BAD Vamphile. In my defense, i read it once, a really really long time ago. I believe Jane tore it to shreds once in her bad!fic tearing to shreds days. it's terrible. You gotta love it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	vl_redreign 2007-11-08 10:22 pm UTC (link)
	LMAO @ Vamp I loved all of your recs, btw. It's just the way you described Justin Comes Home...I'm sitting at the computer desk, giggling like crazy. The bedpan, dude!!! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vamphile 2007-11-08 10:47 pm UTC (link)
	well, i mean, i can't play all "holier than thou" and say i've never read one, or ten, i can only rec those that are so bad they're good. the bedpan o' love and rubbed raw, and.... i'm insane. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	witchdragon 2007-11-09 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	I have read a couple already- very fun g I'm looking forward to the rest! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vamphile 2007-11-09 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	well, the rest are... oh, just read them and take a hit off the crack pipe. 'tis fun. (Reply to this) (Parent)

Abused Justin Fics

vamphile
2007-11-08 05:52 am UTC (link)

Hi, and welcome.

I just wrote this really long response, and IJ ate it...

GRRR.

I'm going to try again.

The important thing to remember about all of these fics is that i'm not reccomending them... i'm simply saying i've read them and i'm sick and i love really insane Absued Justin fics... even though i don't believe for a minute that Justin would actually stay in an abusive realitionship.

so here you go.

A thousand beautiful things by lemon bar... Brian and Justin meet in a mental hospital. Justin's mute, They communicate through a teddy bear. It doesn't have to make sense, it's emotional porn, and i love it.

I remember you it's not ethan who is abusing Justin but it hardly matters. You've got protective Brian and abusive relationship cliches and Just a whole world of silliness.

rubbed raw by KamiKAze... it's... the worst thing i've ever read, seriously, but if you're looking for seriously abusive Ethan and some seriously silly Brian/Justin schmoop... read it.

what if Brian Left the Carnival with Justin by Toploft69 It's a one off, it's um... it's silly, i've personally read it about 300 times, i will probably read it three hundred more.

and this list... really no list, would be complete without Justin comes home by Grover. She is the QUEEN of unintentional crack. This fic.. it's just... Justin falls into a coma after being hit on the head with a bedpan... need i say more? Just read it... with Brain Bleach handy, because this fic hurts, it weaves its way into your brain and does not let go.

It's just... it's crack, responsible for the actual phrase, "yay! ICU!"

so there you go. I've got more, but i'm only reccing ones i've read and remember. I'm sure others will have some for you. (if they're willing to admit it)

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Re: Abused Justin Fics

sidhe
2007-11-09 12:05 am UTC (link)

I hate ~~though not really~~ to admit that I've read all of these. I can't decide whether to be proud or slightly mortified. I'd forgotten that Rubbed Raw was an Mpreg fic - which just confirms that I will read damn near anything.

You are so right. No list - crack!fic, bad!crack!fic, or otherwise - would be complete without Grover who ~~is currently sitting at home in a funk-covered bathrobe, snack cake wrappers littering the floor, and who hasn't actually left the apartment in years~~ writes the "best" ~~if you can call it that~~ crack!fic ever.

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vl_redreign
2007-11-08 10:41 pm UTC (link)

Along the lines of Vamp and Pendulum, I'm gonna rec Growing Up Kinney, by Myrna. This one is Blind!Justin, and it's...trust me, read it. Vamp would totally back me on this one. NO ONE throws Justin down the well quite like Myrna.

Out Of Shadows, by Kimberly. This one is a different "Escort!Justin", and it has violence. And emotional abuse, so...yeah. It's good.

There are others, can't think...wait, hang on.

besame_bj does lots of Abused/Hurt!Justin, but I think most of it's on LJ, and you have to friend her, I believe.

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vamphile
2007-11-08 10:50 pm UTC (link)

hey, you know i love justin down a well, and growing up kinney, or Blind!justin kills me dedder than tumor!fic.

Out of the shadows is fun,
and while we're talking about abused Justin... Doesn't he get kinda beaten up in New Year's by Rizabeau?

Xie can't subscribe to this site, because multi fandom stuff hurts her head and her eyes, but she'd back me on this, as anyone who's ever met her knows...

yeah, Rizabeau's fics are cracks of beauty.

oh, and since we're pimping crack. Superstar. Available at Bjfic.net and written by me has justin getting beaten up like, every other chapter. I'd like to make excuses for it but it would take too long.

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vl_redreign
2007-11-08 11:23 pm UTC (link)

I think he does get beat up in New Year's. Rizabeau is a crack!mistress of beauty.

And since you opened that door, I'm gonna rec Brother's Keeper, which also has Justin getting beat up. Plus, it's teh bomb, yo.

And the link for Shooting Star (damn, Vamp! lol): http://www.bjfic.net/main/viewstory.php?sid=9185&warning=NC-17

Also This Time. Justin gets sort of abused. Mostly Brian, but since Brian belongs to Justin, yeah. I'm just saying.

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vamphile
2007-11-08 11:28 pm UTC (link)

Jesus i put the boys through hell don't I.

I hardly count Brothers' Keeper because he gets beat up but like, only for a chapter, and that's one out of forty and not really the actual plot, where as superstar/shooting star and This time are all about the abuse type thing, because i write what i ~~know~~ like.

(which is not Justin getting hurt, but Protective Brian and Strong Justin getting hurt anyway

i mean if we categorized every one of my fics in which Justin sustains some physical damage (other than spanking) well, i think more than half would fall in that category.

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	vl_redreign 2007-11-08 11:34 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, you put them through hell, and we love you for it. Vamphile's-Your One-Stop Shopping For Teh Angst. :) True, Brother's Keeper is only one chapter, but emotionally, everyone gets beat to hell. So it sort of counts. nods head (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vamphile 2007-11-09 01:00 am UTC (link)
	okay, that reads wrong, there's only one chapter in which Justin suffers any physical damage at the hands of another in Brothers' Keeper... as we all know, the fic is 40 chapters of alternately beating the emotional hell out of Brian or Justin. (Aaron really gets off easy in BK... which may be why he suffers so much later) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vl_redreign 2007-11-09 01:33 am UTC (link)
	re-reads comment You're right. That is jacked up. SQUEAKY!!!! COMMENT EDIT ABILITY, PLKTHX!!!! lol (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vamphile 2007-11-09 03:18 am UTC (link)
	oh man, if squeaky could do that... i'd do things to him that really, um... well, things that Justin does for Brian and vice versa... or you know, i'd just give him more money. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	witchdragon 2007-11-09 09:09 pm UTC (link)
	Oh thanks- I look forward to reading them! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	witchdragon 2007-11-09 09:12 pm UTC (link)
	Are either of the stories on other sites? I can't access their journals. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vl_redreign 2007-11-09 09:41 pm UTC (link)
	Hmmm, that's odd. I'll check for you! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	witchdragon 2007-11-10 04:53 am UTC (link)
	Thank you- I'll just stare at your icon while I wait sighs in happiness (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	vl_redreign 2007-11-10 05:15 am UTC (link)
	Okay, this link is good for Kimberley. Out Of The Shadows And this one: Growing Up Kinney, by Myrna. Enjoy!! (Reply to this) (Parent)

Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack

sidhe
2007-11-09 12:24 am UTC (link)

Okay, here are some that I don't think have been mentioned:

All of them are by Crazy Fairy:

Decadence - 1920s Pittsburgh and Evil!Mobster!Michael - how great is that?

Edge of the World - ancient Romans in Ireland, again Evil!Michael ~~I'm sensing a theme~~

This series is about Brian and Justin meeting under different circumstances. Justin is being abused by his boyfriend, and Brian steps in to save the day. Read these in this order:

Subdued Sunshine

Glimmering Sunshine

Hazy Sunshine

Raging Sunshine

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	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack vamphile 2007-11-09 01:01 am UTC (link)
	OMG the sunshine series! with the mary sueist mary sue ever! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack vl_redreign 2007-11-09 01:35 am UTC (link)
	OMG, EYE NOES!!!! Yes, I read them all. Hey,, it was early in my QAF career, sue me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack vamphile 2007-11-09 03:19 am UTC (link)
	i think we all read them in our embryonic fic reading stages...because if you keep reading and reading and reading and you're still thinking MMMM... this is good... well, you're probably also enjoying Grover's fics for the Angst. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack vl_redreign 2007-11-09 03:21 am UTC (link)
	Ummmm...no. snicker I'm crazy, but not, you know...nuts. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack sidhe 2007-11-09 01:40 am UTC (link)
	aren't they dreadful? i wish someone had been able to talk me out of reading these when i first discovered them. i seem to get into all sorts of trouble when left to my own devices. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack vamphile 2007-11-09 03:09 am UTC (link)
	They were one of the main reasons i wrote "a rainy saturday afternoon". I practically mention that fic specifically. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack sidhe 2007-11-09 03:18 am UTC (link)
	OMG, I didn't realize that was you. I know I've read it - it was fucking hilarious, IMHO - but couldn't remember who wrote it. I've been wanting to find it again due to the absurd amounts of crack I've ingested lately. You have no idea how glad I am you mentioned that. :) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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vamphile
2007-11-09 03:25 am UTC (link)

http://vamphile.livejournal.com/138214.html

that's an index with link of every QAF think i've ever written including a link to the the filter of only my drabbles at Qaf_drabbles...

it should keep you entertained for fifteen or twenty minutes at least,
but yes, i wrote "a rainy saturday afternoon" and "mouth breathers" both mocking fic, (both acknowledging that mine deserves equal mockery)

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Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack

sidhe
2007-11-09 03:31 am UTC (link)

Pfft, this will keep me entertained for weeks. ~~I totally suck since don't have a "yay" icon - the icu doesn't count - a squee icon, or a OMG icon. This needs to be remedied quickly, IMHO.~~

Your fics don't deserve mockery, I promise. When I read "A Rainy Saturday Afternoon", I wanted to find out where the bad!crack!fic was located just so I could read it for myself.

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Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack

vamphile
2007-11-09 03:37 am UTC (link)

A) i made this so feel free to steal it.

b) do NOT blame me for your need to read crack. I'll totally take responsibility for introducing you to the bedpan O' love, but not for crackfic in general. when i first found fic, i started in alphabetical order by title at bjfic.net and read EVERYTHING.

it's where i learned to fear Abandoned fics WIPs and the phrase "the older man, the teen" and "baby"

It's also what made me write my first B/J fic ever... "I want you safe" followed closely by "rainy saturday afternoon" which i think i wrote while i was also writing EDR which is crack in and of itself.

okay, SUN.

i'd use my new SUN icons but i'm using my OMG YAY icon instead.

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Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack

sidhe
2007-11-09 03:51 am UTC (link)

One, yay for icon! *happy sigh*

Two, I did the same thing with BJfic.net but with author's name rather than title. I may or may not have done that with Midnight Whispers, too. I, too, learned the fear of abandoned WIPs (how fucking hard is it to take it down if you *know* you're not going to finish it?) The strange thing is that I was reading the fics before I'd seen an episode of QaF. I was SO confused with the characterizations of the fics v. the ones on the show. This may explain why crack!fic doesn't bother me too much. The stories made me want to write a B/J piece, but I know I would fuck that up horribly.

Hmm . . . makes me wonder now that I think on it.

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faith1922
2007-12-15 05:07 pm UTC (link)

You know, stumbling around ij blindly and landing in random places was never this funny. I don't have to read the crack, the running commentary was enough already.

I'm getting the impression that the QaF fandom might just be even crazier than my usual haunts. And that'S saying soemthing.

So, while I'm here and have never really considered QaF fic before, do you have any, you know, good recs? So I can bypass the obligatory new-to-fandom blunders and get right to the juicy stuff?

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vamphile
2007-12-15 08:57 pm UTC (link)

we're insane, and a true fandom with factions and arguments about what is and is not OOC and IC and canon and the like. we got a slightly ambiguous ending (which others will argue is not at all ambiguous) and we have TONS of fic (a lot of it bad) but a really lot of it good.

I would suggest, if you're looking for post series, sticking to canon, beauty,

xie_xie_xie's "only time" series, that starts with Plans, and then goes on from there.

I will take a moment to pimp my series It's called "the Keeping Series" you can find it here along with just about everything else I've written. it's long and some say quite good.

There's just about everything at

qaf_retread where all the fiction is completed and many of them have become fandom classics.

Tumor!fic...which is linked in here somewhere is worth reading..(it's called "if you needed me") we just call it tumor fic, just like "growing up kinney" by the same author will always be "blind!Justin".

stay away from "queer theories and Queer realites" because they're long, they've been going on forever and they're really really OOC (and addictive) but to start, you really should read the stuff where they got the characters right...

which brings me to Rhiannonhero There's Fairy Dust and Omlet and so many beautiful stories of the love.

I could sit and list authors all day but it does depend on what you're into. I HATE HS AU (high school, alternate universe) in which Brian and Justin are in school together...but that's me, not everyone. there's a couple that don't completely suck.

I am not a fan of reversing the ages, (Justin then being 29 Brian being 17) but

_alicesprings whom i love, LOVES "teacher Fic" like, whoa, so i have to accept that sometimes it's not the worst thing in the world to reverse the ages.

I will reiterate.

qaf_retread is the best place to find pre-screened, guaranteed completed fic.

Have fun, and um...rend the DVDs if you haven't watched the show recently. No matter what, NOTHING beats CANON.

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faith1922
2007-12-16 03:28 pm UTC (link)

Okay, second try to write this comment:

Thank you, those are a lot more recs than I expected.

And age switches....IMHO they never work, no matter what fandom. Changing the age takes away too much of the character. If you want to see loads and loads of bad fic though, I suggest the Harry Potter fandom, especially on ff.net. It just kills you dead.

Again, thanks heaps. And have a nice Sunday.

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	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack vamphile 2007-12-16 07:51 pm UTC (link)
	Hey, this isn't my first fandom, and I myself have posted bad buffy fic and angel fic at ff.net (i wrote one where Angel sleeps with dawn) all fandoms have thier bad cliches and storylines... enjoy YOUR sunday. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Re: Abused!Justin - may contain slight crack witchdragon 2007-11-09 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you! (Reply to this) (Parent)