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Tweak says, "The backroom is reopened, boys"

Lavender Brown (en_lavender) wrote in enigma_rpg,
@ 2009-04-06 21:32:00

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* complete, 2004-04, character: lavender brown, character: susan bones

RP: Empty Shell
When: April 6th, 2004
Who: Lavender Brown, Susan Bones
Where: St. Mungo's
Private/Public: Private-ish
Rating: All Ages
Summary: Lavender thinks. Or doesn't think. Mostly not-thinking.

Lavender was half-asleep. Or maybe she was completely awake and just too dead inside to actually focus on anything. If she'd wanted to move, she couldn't. The Healers had cast another spell to immobilise her legs and keep them still as magic worked on healing the shredded in tendons in her knees. On top of that, she was so cut up from hexes and re-opened scars that she was either covered in bandages or her skin was so new and sore that it hurt to stretch it.

Regardless, she'd been panicked when she had awoken, feeling as trapped as she had with that monster looming over her. Lavender wasn't sure whether it was a memory or not, but she'd screamed when the Healer had tried to change the dressings on the Greyback scars. Maybe she'd screamed, maybe she hadn't. Maybe she'd screamed last night. Lavender looked down at her broken nails; she didn't so, struggling to catch her breath for a moment before her body seemed to realise there wasn't an arm wrapped around her throat.

Maybe she could have done more to fight back.

Maybe she should have begged.

They'd brought in Healer Salus to see to her after that and, half-asleep as she was, it was possibly the first time that Lavender had been glad to see her. She'd changed the dressings, sorted out the food that they'd tried to send her - even if Lavender couldn't eat a bite - before giving her a Calming Draught.

Maybe that was why she wasn't quite awake.

Right now she was alone and she didn't like it at all. Except she didn't really want anyone with her now, either. She didn't know what she wanted, except maybe just to sleep and block out the world for a while. She was safe here, even if she didn't completely believe it. A low sigh escaped her and Lavender raised a hand to touch her cheek. She felt the tears on her face, realising finally that she was crying.

Oh.

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	en_lavender 2009-04-07 06:45 pm UTC (link)
	Lavender raised her eyebrows. "For me it started with Oliver and Alicia." It was longer than a month and this whole year just seemed to keep getting worse. She licked her dry lips, turning a little to reach for the glass of water beside her bed. "I already needed therapy," she said quietly. "Nothing new there." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	en_susan 2009-04-07 07:05 pm UTC (link)
	It was good having Lavender talk, granted Susan knew she wasn't going to be the one the witch would confide in but seeing her just say something was good. "Do you want to go into therapy? Or is there someone who would treat you?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

en_lavender
2009-04-08 07:04 am UTC (link)

Lavender sipped the water, so muddled by everything that she wasn't even sure if she was thirsty or not. Talking was tiring, though.

"I was think... I was thinking of booking into the Avalon Clinic." Perhaps she needed that now more than ever. After her last stay, however, she'd hoped she wouldn't have to go back.

She lifted her eyes to look at Susan. "How much did they tell you about what happened?" she asked warily. She had no idea how much people knew.

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en_susan
2009-04-08 12:01 pm UTC (link)

The Avalon Clinic? That was serious stuff there, but Susan did want her to have the best care possible. "Do you think it would help? You'd be pretty far away." As much as she wasn't sure exactly what was going between all of them Susan didn't wish her ill.

Lavender's question caught her by surprise but she responded.

"I saw the Dark Mark outside and Aurors came to the door looking for Richard, but I told them he was away on business. I didn't know how badly you were hurt though."

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en_lavender
2009-04-08 12:12 pm UTC (link)

Lavender carefully set the glass of water back down. "It helped me last time I went there. I know I haven't been... right lately." She'd spent the better part of two months there a few years back trying to overcome her addictions and, as much as she had hated being there and having to confront her problems, Lavender couldn't deny that it had helped.

She rubbed idly at the spot on her cheek where she had grazed it against the bricks. "Death Eater," she finally said, nodding. She remembered seeing the Dark Mark in the air above her. Fucking sparkly green skull. "He... I was..." Lavender closed her eyes, frowning and trying to get rid of the image of the Dark Mark in her mind. Now the words wouldn't come. Maybe she didn't want them to. "I'm sorry. I can't."

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