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Tweak says, "it's over aaron"

Bruce Wainright has (onerule) wrote in doors,
@ 2014-03-26 02:57:00

Entry tags:

batman, catwoman, riddler

selina k., eddie n.
[He waits. And waits. And then he sees this, and thinks maybe, just maybe, she remembers. It still takes him a while to actually convince himself to contact her, and even longer to progress it beyond endless cursor blinking.]

[locked to selina k.]

I ~~Do you~~ ~~This is a terrible~~ [...] Hello.

ETA: [locked to eddie n.]

What do you want done with your security?

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	Re: Selina K/Bruce W spacecowboys 2014-03-26 10:38 pm UTC (link)
	[Cursor blink.] Are we actually going to talk about this? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-26 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	[Pause.] ~~You told me to~~ Yes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W spacecowboys 2014-03-26 10:47 pm UTC (link)
	[The cursor blinks, stops blinking, blinks, stops blinking.] I'm angry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-26 10:58 pm UTC (link)
	Why? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W spacecowboys 2014-03-26 10:59 pm UTC (link)
	Are you sure you have time to ask that question? Doesn't Gotham need saving? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-26 11:01 pm UTC (link)
	I have time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W spacecowboys 2014-03-26 11:04 pm UTC (link)
	[There is, again, extended cursor blinking.] I don't even know where to start. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-26 11:29 pm UTC (link)
	[...] Start wherever is easiest. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W spacecowboys 2014-03-27 12:04 am UTC (link)
	[Cursor blink, blink. blink.] I'm angry at myself for being so stupid. I'm angry at myself for risking myself for anyone. I'm angry at myself for trusting anyone. For believing in anyone. For putting anyone first. [Cursor blink, blink. blink.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-27 12:22 am UTC (link)
	Why did you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W spacecowboys 2014-03-27 12:28 am UTC (link)
	[Cursor blinks. She doesn't want to answer that.] Isn't it enough that I'm never doing it again? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-27 12:30 am UTC (link)
	You're not just angry at yourself because of what you did. The reasons why matter. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Selina K/Bruce W

spacecowboys
2014-03-27 12:36 am UTC (link)

Why? It doesn't matter. If I say I did it for you? Then that makes me an idiot, seeing as you considered me acceptable loss, even if only for a second. If I say I did it for Gotham? Then that makes me even more of an idiot, since Eddie and, apparently, Stephanie run this town now, and they think I don't care. Why does it even matter, Bruce?

You know, my version of the Bat always thought I was more than I was. This Gotham? This Gotham thinks I'm less, no matter what I do. So I'm done trying.

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Re: Selina K/Bruce W

onerule
2014-03-27 01:10 am UTC (link)

[Cursor blink, blink, blink.] No one runs Gotham. Eddie doesn't. Stephanie doesn't. I don't. This city is not a dictatorship. I didn't put on the cowl with the intention of appointing myself leader. That's not what any of this is about. I am tired of those who take initiative being accused of being in control. It's ridiculous. [...] It doesn't make you an idiot. You did it for the people. You put millions of lives before your own and that is very, very brave. It matters.

[Loooooooooooong pause.] ~~Your Bat~~ ~~Sometimes I think it would be better if I left and your Bat~~ Who thinks you're less? Tell me who exactly who said that to you.

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Re: Selina K/Bruce W

spacecowboys
2014-03-27 01:22 am UTC (link)

Oh, please, Bruce. This city is turning into Edward Nigma making every last choice, and Edward Nigma doesn't like me very much. He spends his time telling you how untrustworthy I am, and telling me how I'm just a thief, or telling us how we don't work. And then he doesn't warn me when he knows my head's going to explode. For months and months, and he didn't warn me. He didn't warn you. I'm in the way here, Bruce. I don't fit anymore. Don't you see? Stephanie insists on saying none of us care. Death gets in the way? She tries to kill her. If you don't hear it, then you're not listening. Or do you think this family of little bats and birds really needs Spoiler telling them to keep their eyes on the roofs? It gets old, and it gets tiring, and I'm done with it. Initiative. Initiative doesn't get you anything here. Initiative gets bombs detonated, and it gets you told to sit down and shut up. And if you think Eddie didn't know exactly what he was doing when he didn't tell you not to have someone go after the ring? Then you don't know Eddie.

[A long cursor blink.] I miss my Gotham. It was a nightmare, but at least I knew where I fit in there. I knew where I fit and no one betrayed me there. I trusted Eddie. I trusted him more than I trusted you, and now I look back and it was all a lie. I'm not the Cat he thinks I should be, or I'm not the kitten he knew, and that's apparently worth betraying someone over.

And if he's the person advising you, then that makes me worry for my fur.

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Re: Selina K/Bruce W

onerule
2014-03-27 01:40 am UTC (link)

Do you think I always listen to Nigma? Or do I not have a mind of my own, Selina? I know he has his flaws. I know he's wrong more often than he'll admit. I don't blindly follow whatever path he leads me down, though you and the others seem to believe that is the case. I know you're not untrustworthy. I know you're not just a thief. But you listen to him, you believe him, no matter what anyone else tells you. [Cursor blink. Blink.] He should have stopped you from joining the Squad. He shouldn't have used you to get intel. Mistakes were made. Too many. [...] I can't speak for what's happened with Death, because I don't know. [...] We got to Watchtower in time. We did what we set out to do. But I realize a lot of things happened that shouldn't have. Are you implying that Nigma wanted you to die?

[Endless cursor blink.] You're not the only one who misses their Gotham. I don't belong here. I don't think I ever did. I will always be the wrong Bat. Maybe the best thing for all of us would be to go back to our own worlds.

I'm sorry, for what it's worth. You deserve better.

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Re: Selina K/Bruce W

spacecowboys
2014-03-27 01:50 am UTC (link)

I think you listen to him enough that I should be dead. And I think that if you'd been taking counsel from anyone else, that might not be the case. Or, better yet, if you'd talked to me, then I could have helped. But that was never an option, was it? I'm tired of being the dark, Bruce. Every day, every week, I'm less a part of anything, and I'm more in the dark. I was more than that once. I thought I still was. I lied to myself, because this has been escalating since I came back. Since before.

You're a better Bat. Regardless of this. You're a better man than that Bat ever was.

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Re: Selina K/Bruce W

onerule
2014-03-27 02:06 am UTC (link)

You didn't talk to me! Had you told me everything from the start, I could have done things differently. Nigma fed me information for months and I thought it was coming from him. Of course I listened. Instead, I find out what's going on at the last minute. [...] I assumed. I admit that. I didn't think Nigma would suggest going after the ring to begin with if detonation was guaranteed. I know better now. I told you what we were planning for Watchtower and I would have warned you before we moved on it. [...] It was easy to work with Nigma. Perhaps I let that cloud my judgment, since it's so difficult with everyone else.

[Cursor blink.] In my Gotham, I was effective. I made a difference. I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything here. I don't see an end to this, and the city needs more. It deserves more.

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Re: Selina K/Bruce W

spacecowboys
2014-03-27 02:22 am UTC (link)

I acknowledge that. Damian died, and I didn't think telling you was a very good idea. I didn't realize you'd move on Watchtower without telling me. I assumed I would know, and I assumed there would be more time. I understand that you didn't have all the information you needed to make an informed decision. You didn't. You. But you weren't making decisions alone, were you? And I was angry. I was angry at a city that let murderers walk free in the sunlight, but that made me a fugitive. I was so angry. I still am. And maybe all I am is a thief. It's certainly easier, in the end.

[A long cursor blink.] You're effective here, and you're the only one that can bring these people together. Without you, it falls apart, Bruce. Without you, we all fall apart.

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	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-27 02:43 am UTC (link)
	We all assumed. That's part of the problem. [Cursor blink. Blink.] No. Nigma knew more than I was aware of. ~~Maybe I gave him too much free rei~~ ~~I tru~~ [...] You're not. You can be a thief. You can tell yourself that's all you are. But none of that will make it true. ~~Oh, Seli~~ It is falling apart. We are. Don't you see? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Selina K/Bruce W

spacecowboys
2014-03-27 02:48 am UTC (link)

[The cursor blinks and blinks, and she only addresses his final comment.] Maybe not, but it'll hurt less, don't you think? Even if it's just pretend.

I see. Trust me, I see. But I don't think you not being there is the solution. These people, they signed up for this because they believe in you. Not in Jason, and not in Diana, and not in Hal, and not in Eddie. In you.

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	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-27 03:45 am UTC (link)
	The hurt will still be there, beneath pretend. [...] ~~Not me. I'm not their~~ ~~I'm not sure I believe in~~ [The cursor just blinks.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W spacecowboys 2014-03-27 03:46 am UTC (link)
	Better than where everyone can see. Or are you going to try to convince me otherwise? Bruce. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Selina K/Bruce W onerule 2014-03-27 03:48 am UTC (link)
	I would be a hypocrite if I did. [Blink, blink, blink.] What? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)