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Tweak says, "...i've taken a new position."

Aoi, Misaki (pinksunbeam) wrote in disappear_rpg,
@ 2010-01-31 00:37:00

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maeko, misaki

Who: Misaki and open
What: Wandering around the shopping district of Iburi
and visiting the fabric store.
When: Post dungeon/Recovery
Where: Shopping district
Why: Just wanting to think and try to destress

How many times had she played the Trap fall game in the last couple of hours? Ten, twenty? She had lost count, and going online had not helped any. She'd read some fanfiction to get her mind off everything.

Tom had died, he actually died. Yes he was brought back, but, he had died. Physically, his body had stopped working and...

Misaki visibly shuddered. She'd heaved when she got back to her dorm room. Things had not gotten better, dreams of birds attacking her, strange masked faced creatures chasing her down, a river with no end and the dead around her, becoming lost in a hospital with faceless puppets bearing down upon her with hands outstreched. Worst of all the laughing face of her shadow, skin made of lace, holding her in a glass bottle, and she was unable to get out. She felt like she was going insane.

Now she was going to add Tom's lifeless form, along with Keiichi's and a crazy shadow demigod poser wrapped in a japanese flag to her nightmares. It was enough to make her sick. She wondered how the others were doing as she looked around the stores and paused by a window. When was the last time she'd dyed her hair? Two months ago, going on three maybe...she didn't remember, it had been a while. She could see the roots in her alburn hair coming out, and it really looked sad.

Glancing around she noticed a hair salon and wondered if she could get it colored. She heistated some, touching the locks and looking at the window. Blue eyes peered back, false eyes, the color that she liked. Eyes that were only there to make her stand out, get noticed in some way. Misaki had been wondering if it was a good way, really. Even if people sometimes told her they looked good, in reality she'd been given strange looks by those around her. She didn't like just being part of the crowd though, she never had.

Taking a breath she made up her mind to cross the street, and looked around to see if anyone was coming.

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	giantfruitbyday 2010-01-31 07:34 am UTC (link)
	What on earth was she talking about? She wasn't even facing her. "You're not stupid." She said, shaking her head. "And even if you were you're not meant to accept that you are. You're supposed to say 'No I'm not' and try harder to not act stupid." Her expression softened. "It's not dumb. It's your hair." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pinksunbeam
2010-01-31 07:41 am UTC (link)

Misaki shook her head, "No I am, I really don't have much common sense, Maeko-chan. Seriously. I always open my mouth when I shouldn't, and well you've been telling me for years I hurt people and I don't think about it at all."

She turned at looked at her, "Tom died in there, and things are getting more serious. I really don't think about how it affects things, and I get selfish. If I hadn't have been focused on worrying about you and Kanaye-san, maybe I would have seen something going on with Keiichi-kun, or even you."

"It's my hair but it's fake, the whole thing is fake," Misaki said and fingered it again, then looked at the hair salon. "It's fake, and everyone in dungeon saw the real me in there. How can I go around, looking like this when it winds up being a false person. As much as I don't like my hair the way it is, it is my hair, and a part of me."

She looked down, "My relationship is fake."

	giantfruitbyday 2010-02-01 05:07 am UTC (link)
	"I don't do well." Maeko corrected, shrugging. "You don't work had because you want to do well, that kind of thing's judged by natural talent. You work hard so you're not a waste of skin." If she was bitter about it it wasn't showing on her face. "I looked- You think that'd look good on you?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2010-02-01 07:47 pm UTC (link)
	"I don't see how. Isn't it just getting your hair done lke always?" "They're not really normal but-" She tensed, remembering the efforts Misaki had gone to to split her and Kanaye up before. It was a trick question. "No." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2010-02-01 11:31 pm UTC (link)
	"Ah." Maeko said. That had clearly all gone completely over her head. "Do what you want, I guess." She said, still wary of this topic. "They're your eyes." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	giantfruitbyday 2010-02-02 02:48 am UTC (link)
	"Just because you don't get it doesn't mean you're allowed to be so inconsiderate about it." Maeko said. "You've been told. Often enough. You can't exactly claim ignorance." She sighed again. "I'll go in." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)