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Kazuya Arai ([info]puppetofhisown) wrote in [info]disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-11-06 17:16:00

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Entry tags:kanaye, kazuya, toru

Homolust! MK. II
Who: Toru, Kazuya, and techncically anyone else who has access to the dorm.
What: ToruKaz!
When: Post-Misa Dungeon.
Where: Toru's Dorm.
Why: Kaz-bandages cause puzzled expressions?

The path to Toru's dorm was considerably longer than it physically should have been. At least, that's what his limbs were protesting the entire way he dragged his feet into the step after step pattern. More of his body hurt than it had initially upon coming to the school, and his mind was still dealing with all of the rushing questions and disturbing things that should not have existed. The voices, the music, the playground.. He still felt the nausea. In fact, he would not have minded spending a few moments to deposit the dry contents of his stomach into the nearest toilet of garbage bin. But he was around Toru, and it wasn't necessarily polite to do so in such company. Still, he could confide mentally in his own poor situation.

There were a lot of questions that might be arisen in privacy, and few of them he really wanted to currently answer. He would've liked if everyone could simply believe he'd toppled down a set of stairs, but there was a level of suspicion and intelligence in the group that defused such an explanation. Ah, he could at least continually persist it was merely an accident. That would get him as far as his arm wasn't twisted by any emotional or social threat. Emotions always came up in that way.

His expression betrayed a touch of self-irritation at that, his one eye narrowing as he attempted to focus on the path to the door. It wasn't too far away, was it? Toru had provided the directions, and they were in the dorm complex now.. Who had he said was in the dorm with him again? Eh. Kaz currently forgot. They probably weren't there anyway.. And suddenly, the subject of smoking became suddenly more appealing. But, Toru clearly would disapprove of him breathing carbon dioxides in his living space. But, at least they were.. finally there? Kaz noted the number on the side of the door he at last came to approach. It was the number that coincided with Toru's initial saying. A small victory! And with it, he allowed himself to collapse/lean against the side of the wall adjacent to the dorm entryway. His legs complained terribly of strain, weariness and overall stress. His back gave way to the relaxation and ease of simply relying on something else to keep Kaz on his feet.



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[info]puppetofhisown
2009-11-12 01:07 am UTC (link)
Kazuya observed quietly, and with a sort of pseudo-amusement as Toru set off on the mini-adventure of finding the first aid kit. He'd been surprised, shocked, even.. But he hadn't questioned him at all about the injuries' origins. Kaz had expected some curiosity, some sort of demanding as to what had harmed him so. But only the quiet understanding. It was.. well, the only word that came to mind was sweet. Maybe that was one of the reasons while he felt comfortable around Toru. It was the kind of mannerisms he held. They were gentle in every way.

However, it was a regret that Toru had to see him like this. Surely, there was distress evident and questions (even if they were not voiced). It was unfair for such stress to be placed upon him. He'd already listened to the breakdown.. He should deserve peace. But, he didn't seem to mind at all. He was already fishing out an assortment of medical tools and accessories. Just the way he operated in silence, his hands laying out the necessary items. It was.. well, cute wasn't the word, nor was adorable. It was something near lovely. Especially the way he voiced his unsteady thoughts on how the treatment should be administered. Kaz wouldn't have minded in the least if it had simply been some damp cloth, or even a dry tissue trying to clean his wounds. All the same, the watered down mixture was.. well, admittedly soothing. The hot, uncomfortable pain of his face now at last received some sort of countering coolness and respite.

"Yes." It was a quiet confirmation, but it seemed somehow appropriate to speak in softer tones. "Thank you. You've been very kind to me." The natural, formal tone began to override his method speak. "I'm sorry for burdening you with my condition. You don't have to do too much, really. I'll be alright if I can just get the bandages retied." He attempted to sound reassuring, at the very least imply that Toru did not have to fully continue care. But it was.. touching. To have someone take care of him in such a gentle manner. Was this what visiting a hospital was like? Although, admittedly, no Hospital would ever have such a wonderful staff member as Toru. Even if he wasn't the most experienced.. Affection filled that gap, didn't it?

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[info]2dbeauty
2009-11-12 12:23 pm UTC (link)
Pleased to see that his ministrations were having a positive effect on the other boy, Toru nodded in confirmation as he picked up a roll of bandages. "D-don't worry about that. I'll just put these on you, and you'll be set, I-I think..."

It took a few false starts on Toru's part in order to get going with the bandages, but he soon found himself wrapping them around Kazuya's head in a way that securely covered all of the obvious cuts and burns, as well as most of the bruises, though not his black eye. "Er... you'll want to be able to tell when this heals up, right? S-so, I'm gonna leave it uncovered so you'll be able to see out of it as soon as you can. Is that alright, Kazuya-kun?" Along the same lines, he remembered to leave a broader gap around his "patient's" mouth. "It'll be easier if I leave it like this, right?"

It wasn't long before Toru finished wrapping Kazuya's wounds. Once he'd finished, he sat back to admire his handiwork... which was at least better than Kaz's own self-treatment. More of his face (and most of his hair, which was probably the fault of Toru's own sensibilities) was now visible, and the wrappings were no longer haphazardly held together with staples and the like. Granted, there was no way to show the "patient" what the bandages looked like, given that Toru didn't own a single mirror. But that was a minor tragedy, and not worth rooting through even more of Kanaye's belongings to address.

"Th-there you go... it's not the best, but it should serve its purpose well enough..."

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[info]puppetofhisown
2009-11-12 09:44 pm UTC (link)
A light smile hung on Kaz's lips as Toru went about his treatment. It was surely and decidedly a pleasant thing to be cared for, especially so with the person doing so being Toru. While he was not necessarily the most skilled, the job was far better than the earlier bandage setting. Now, he could at least relax with the light pressure on his face. As well, he wasn't half-blinded with this work, although the black eye would attract attention. Well, it fit in with the falling down the stairs, didn't it?

With the work completed, Kaz lifted his left hand to touch at his face area. Toru had done an excellent job in concealing the injuries. From what he could feel, none immediately popped up. Relief washed through him at that. If anyone else saw what had been done.. Well, he didn't want to think of the possibilities. With the digits of his left hand, he tugged off the glove of his right hand. What lie beneath was the pale, unblemished skin of a hand that apparently very rarely saw outside contact. The index finger of his right hand was twisted at a noticeably awkward angle, and from the way he was holding it, clearly somewhat sensitive. However, he once more broke the personal bubble without permission. Reaching out with the bared right hand, he curved the softish fingers about the bangs of hair that surrounded Toru's face, and settled on the cusp of his cheek. His hand was warm to the touch, perhaps an after affect of the glove he'd wore, with a smooth, gentle grasp.

"It's the best, because it was done by you. Thank you, Toru-kun." Kaz's tone was delicate, and his smile grew a bit with the words, a warmth to it now visible, "I never got the chance to tell you that I thought you looked beautiful, today. But then again, you always seem to look more stunning every day. I'm envious."

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[info]2dbeauty
2009-11-13 01:25 am UTC (link)
When Kazuya removed his glove, Toru suddenly realized that this was actually his first time ever seeing the other boy's hands. How strange. It was a stark contrast to Kaz's face, without blemish, cut or bruise. Except for the index finger, anyway. Was it broken? Toru couldn't tell for certain, but it certainly looked that way.

"I-is your finger alright? It doesn't look like you could write with it like that..." He didn't mean to pry, but the condition of Kaz's finger looked painful. Nonetheless, he allowed for him to touch his face. What a difference it made, for Kazuya to have his glove off! The contact was soft and gentle against Toru's skin, and he welcomed it, smiling.

"Er... thank you! I-I tried, at least..." This brought a sheepish smile across his face. "It's not like I'm very good at things like this, like Oubai-senpai is... b-but, I didn't want to see you in pain and risking infection... th-that wouldn't be good..." He didn't have a chance to say any more, as Kazuya complimented him. Such sentiments were alien to him, and as a result left him blushing bright red.

"Do you... mean that?" With a hand, he reached up to touch his own face. "I-I'm not... y-you don't need to call me..." Each progressive word was more and more choked up with Toru's shy embarrassment, left over from his days of self-loathing. It hadn't all gone away after he'd confronted his Shadow. Things were never that easy. "Th-thank you... i-if you say so... m-maybe I am..."

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[info]puppetofhisown
2009-11-13 02:58 am UTC (link)
Ah, his finger, Toru had noticed that.. Well, he could probably make up a little lie later for it. It didn't hurt anymore, thankfully. And he doubted that such pain would've mattered anyway. Toru had allowed him to cross the invisible barrier of personal space for the brief moment, and that was reason enough to ignore anything else. Even now, when he was stuttering and stumbling over his words.. He was truly lovely. There was no maybe to be involved at all. It was the clearest thing of the day, wasn't it? People were foolish or stupid, or simply blind not to realize that about him. From his fair complexion, to the way his hair set atop his head, to the smiles he wore on different occasions. Every part.

So when Toru raised that hand to his face, Kazuya's free, gloved hand closed atop it moments afterwards. "Hey, there's no possibility involved. There's no chance. You simply are. Every moment of your life, you're the most striking piece of artwork, the most exotic treasure in the entire vast world, the incarnation of everything that deserves offerings. Don't you see that?" Kazuya couldn't help but move a little bit closer with the words, murmuring each syllable in a quiet way. The lower of his voice came natural, almost as if they were conversing about the most confidential of things. Things only the two of them could ever share.

"I mean every word, and even if I didn't need to, I would. But, I want you to know. I need you to know. Because it'd be a crime for you to think you're anything less." For all intents and purposes, his emotions demanded he close the gap.. But he couldn't. Just for now, he wanted to watch Toru, and speak sweet truths to him. For it was for only Toru, that he opened such doors of emotion.

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[info]2dbeauty
2009-11-13 07:00 pm UTC (link)
There was hardly ever a time when Toru had been left like this, wide-eyed and shocked. What Kazuya had said was indeed the exact reversal of everything he had heard, internalized, and believed for so many years now. Artwork? Exotic treasure? Beautiful? He could hardly come to grasp these statements; they were alien to him, like a lost tribe's forgotten language. Such compliments were far richer fare than his poor, starved self-esteem was used to.

"...you... y-you really think that..." His hand was clenched tightly within that of Kazuya's, and curled tighter still as he spoke. "I-I'm..." Toru's face was now brighter red than before, and his eyes downcast, incapable of meeting Kaz's.

"Beautiful." This last word was tiny, hushed, upon a single breath. Nobody but Kazuya could have heard it. Before the other boy could do or say anything, Toru had responded in the one way that felt appropriate. There was no other possibility for showing his emotions at the time.

No hesitation or inner refusal held back this kiss. It was a whole-hearted expression of gratitude, which Toru was determined to make last. His hand, which may have had been a barrier between them before, was swept out of the way along with the hand clasped around it. Perhaps at some other time he would've felt embarrassed as to how much he leant into it, and how much initiative he was showing, but now, it was just the right thing. Nothing else mattered.

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-11-14 01:10 am UTC (link)
Kanaye, unsurprisingly, had decided to open a door a crack to see what was going on. He had done so about the time that Toru had begun to undress Kazuya, and he was about to close the door to give them some privacy when he noticed that he was, in fact, just dressing his bandages. Kanaye smiled. It was, honestly, quite adorable. He could imagine him doing the same to Maeko, or Maeko doing the same to him. He couldn't fault them.

And then they kissed. Kanaye turned away softly and closed the door this time. He wasn't about to intrude on something this important if one of the people involved was one of the two people in the world he actually cared about.

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[info]puppetofhisown
2009-11-14 08:55 pm UTC (link)
Kazuya had watched Toru carefully under the lidded eyes, noting the response in his face and the new and stronger pressure on the hand that had earlier been clasped over Toru's. He could only guess at what kind of thoughts were running amongst the other boy's head. The repression seemed to run deep, at least in terms of a battered self-esteem. The fact that others would have tormented Toru in such a way infuriated him (to such an extent that would have disturbed him had he stepped back to analyze it).

But for now, all that mattered were the barely whispered words that escaped the other adolescent's mouth. His face was almost a pure crimson. Did his words really have such an effect? Kazuya had never known or seen anyone react so strongly to any phrase he'd uttered. It was almost as if Toru's actions were a mini wonder of the world. The way he moved and held himself in those few seconds.. Kazuya could only stare. And then the final word was breathed, and Kazuya's own mouth opened slightly. But he didn't have a moment to speak, for Toru had already moved faster than he could have stopped him. Not that he wanted to, or that his feelings would have allowed him at all.

There was something unendingly pleasant about a kiss. It was a sweet, sweet honeyed thing. A ever-replenishing spring of the stuff, in mere physical form. It made sense, why people did it so often, and so passionately. And he couldn't help but fall into the same boat. It was a feeling that could simply take over, overpower every other wish but the want to kiss more. And as Toru leant in, so did he. The ungloved right hand that had been placed upon the other adolescent's face now snaked about his neck, holding him in the physically closed distance.

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[info]2dbeauty
2009-11-17 02:35 am UTC (link)
It was akin to floating. This time, there was no pressure upon Toru to hurry up. He took the time to linger, feel, explore, almost. As Kazuya's arm made its way around his neck, his arms looped around Kazuya's torso, holding him closer. The warmth made him want to go closer still, closer than he'd ever been to another person before. Yet at the same time, he feared for what wounds lay beneath, and so refrained from holding the other boy tightly. Further intimacy would wait. Toru was happy like this.

Soon enough, he stopped to breathe (what a pointless human function, he thought, still in the thrall of his old ways) but still held onto Kaz, inwardly glowing. Outwardly, too, as the blush was still intensely evident on Toru's face. "I feel... alive. W-well, you know, I always feel like I'm... y'know, physically alive and all... b-but... this is like you validated me. A-as a person."

His smile at that moment was sincere, if somewhat embarrassed. "T-that sounds pretty stupid, huh..."

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