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Akuba Maeko ([info]giantfruitbyday) wrote in [info]disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-11-06 04:09:00

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Entry tags:maeko, misaki

Who: Maeko, Misaki
What: Something.
Where: School
When: Afterschool, on a non-club day for either of them, once Misa's back.
Why: Because Maeko did something really stupid.

Maeko had attempted to write a note. And failed. Even when writing she didn't really trust her skill with words. What had been written, if one attempted to look behind the heavy strikeouts, was nice enough. Higher than the normal standard for a Nanakamado locker note, anyway (though this meant very little, considering the standard of most Nanakamado locker notes).

Instead, a room number and the word 'afterschool' had been scrawled on it. The note had been placed inside a large sketchbook which was empty other than 'Property of Aoi Misaki. Please return if found.' writted in the inside cover in very small, very neat writing. Taped to the front of it was the bracelet.

The repair was imperfect. Maeko lacked the dexterity to use wire or clasps and not all the beads had been retrieved. The lost beads had been replaced by store-bought glass ones that didn't quite match. Thin white ribbon had been used instead of both wire and clasps, it would require tying.

After school, Maeko waited in the specified classroom sat on a table and kicking her legs. She wasn't sure what she was going to do next but this seemed like a good enough first step.



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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-06 04:18 pm UTC (link)
Misaki had been lucky so far, the hand book didn't specify that you couldn't add a slip under the skirt, so she had (a white one with lace that hung out around the edges) and they didn't say you couldn't wear a shirt that had ruffles or add a scarf around your neck to make the shirt look more high collared (which she had since it looked better when the collar looked higher). She only wished that she could lenghten the jacket but that had to stay the lenght it was, and would look silly to wear anything under it. So she'd gone to get the black jacket she'd put in her shoe locker after school and was suprised to find the sketchbook sitting there.

"Huh?" Misaki gently lifted it out with the jacket and put the jacket over her arm as she examined the bracelet. She recognized it at once but wasn't sure what to make of it. Her first thought though was that this was the final act. That Maeko was giving this back to her as a way of saying good-bye.

The note was a scibbled mess, but she was able to make out a room number and placed the sketchbook under her arm. Walking up the stairs to the room Misaki felt a bit ill. She wanted to run away but if she did then the shadow would have been right. And she needed to face this and grow a spine. She placed the bracelt into her jacket pocket before placing her hand on the door.

Turning the knob she peeked in, "Hello?"

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-06 04:25 pm UTC (link)
That speech she'd carefully prepared ad gone over mentally word by word as she waited? Vanished the second Misaki openned the door.

"Hey...you should come in." She said lamely instead, concentrating very hard on zipping and unzipping her pencil case.

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-06 04:34 pm UTC (link)
"Um, all right," Misaki came in and pulled out the bracelt. She held it out. "Here...I think this is yours."

Misaki looked at her, "I don't want this back Akuba-san. Not...Not until I can be real friends with you. You told me I was just imaginary, and you were right. I was. I can't go back to being the Misaka that you knew, so...I think it wouldn't be right of me to accept this until I really earned your frindship properly."

Misaki gripped the bracelet and blinked some. She wanted more then anything to put it back on, it was what she had been hoping for but...if she took it back now, everything would be the same. "I have to earn the right to be your friend, not just...I can't just depend on you to be the person that gives me love or acceptance. I have to accept myself, right. And if I can't do that I just become a burden on you, and pretty much everyone else."

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-06 04:47 pm UTC (link)
Maeko bit her lip. Inhaled. Exhaled. It all took a very long time.

She shook her head.

"I don't want you to go back to being the Misaki I knew. I want to try again, without deciding who you are for you. I want to learn who you really are and if you don't know that either then we can find out together. I don't think I've ever worked out what I want to be, either. Maybe we'll work this stuff out quicker if there's two of us."

And sigh.

"Friendship isn't something that can be earned or bought or even just given. If you think that way I don't think you'll ever be friends with anyone because you'll never be equals. It's shared." Misaki might have recognised this part. Maeko had stolen it word-for-word from a shoujo manga she'd borrowed once.

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-06 04:56 pm UTC (link)
Misaki blinked, was that from...she started to giggle but cry at the same time. "And the path to that is never an easy one followed but it's what makes it stronger."

She nodded her head and looked at the bracelet. "Does....that mean that we can try again? I know I wasn't the best before but...I missed you so much Maeko-chan. I...didn't think that I could ever talk to you about what I was feeling because I thought that it would break what you saw with me. I...I'm not perfect, and I'm a needy person. I'm going to try harder okay. I'm going to try harder not to be jealous of Sempai. I just...I didn't want him to replace me. When you told me you didn't want to be friends, it just broke my heart."

Misaki clenched it tight, "I don't want another best friend ever because...you...you're the person I was waiting for since I was small, and I thought...I thought I had lost you forever. I was so scared when you became a shadow, but I tried to be happy because i thought that's what you wanted. But I should have just listened to myself and told you off the bat that I thought it was a dumb idea to split up, since it wouldn't help anything."

She looked up at Maeko, "Can you forgive me for being the way I was?"

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-06 05:08 pm UTC (link)
Maeko nodded.

"Of course. Can you?"

After a little longer she paused for a second and "Hey, pass me the bracelet after all, okay? You've got to tie it now and I think it'd be hard to do that with one hand."

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-06 05:57 pm UTC (link)
Misaki nodded some, "I think I...I can..."

She wiped her eyes and held out her wrist to her and was starting to bluber again. Passing the bracelet to her Misaki whispered an, "Okay..." as her voice was starting to crack.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-06 06:59 pm UTC (link)
Maeko carefully tied the ribbon in a double bow so it wouldn't come undone easily, taking care not to make it too tight or loose enough to fall off. When she was done she pulled her sleeve up a little to show her own bracelet.

"Hey, what? Don't cry..." Maeko patatted her blazer pockets, eventually producing a handkerchief and holding it out. "Here."

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-06 09:28 pm UTC (link)
"I know but..." Misaki sniffled some and took it. "It just makes me happy that you...you want to be friends with me still. Maeko-chan."

She looked at the bracelet and smiled. "I'll take extra good care of it. I'm not going to take it off."

Misaki looked down, "Do...do you want to walk back to the flower shop with me? I mean it's cool if you have other plans...I just, wanted to talk you know."

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-06 09:55 pm UTC (link)
Maeko nodded and slid onto her feet.

"Of course I want to. What did you want to talk about?"

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-06 10:35 pm UTC (link)
"Just...what happened between us. And, well, how we can work on it. You know. So that it doesn't happen again." Misaki blushed some and smiled.

"If you don't want to that's okay. Oh and I wanted to show you that movie I mentioned...er...the Princess Bride. I think you might like it. It's very funny. Wesley is as dramatic as Kanaye-sempai."

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-06 10:56 pm UTC (link)
Maeko nodded. "It's fine."

Maybe she didn't want to discuss that kind of thing but she certainly needed to.

"...really? It's hard to believe anyone could be."

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-06 11:03 pm UTC (link)
"Well it's true. He's very dramatic going," Misaki posed ala Kanaye if he had a sword in hand. "You see this isn't my best hand either."

She giggled and titled her head, "I...I was wondering if, well, were you going to join the drama club too? It would be a lot of fun, and I think Sempai would be really happy if you did. I...I'd like it to. They could use someone like you Maeko-chan. Er...it is okay to call you that again?"

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-06 11:12 pm UTC (link)
Maeko laughed. Mostly forced, but most of her laughs were. They were pretty convincing by now.

"Of course it's okay. Can I call you Misa-chan?" She responded, leaning back and thinking. "I didn't know you were in the drama club..."

But Kanaye was also in the drama club. She would prefer not to. (Was that at all the right way around? Surely her boyfriend being in a club should make her want to join more? Oh well.) She didn't really see what they could use her for anyway. A tree?

"Acting? I...don't really think I can do that. I'd forget all the lines or not be able to speak or..."

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-06 11:40 pm UTC (link)
Misaki paused, "Don't do that Maeko-chan. Please, don't. If it's not funny just say so."

Misaki rubbed her neck some and smiled, "Sure if you want to. And sort of. I'm helping with the costumes."

She looked thoughtful, "Um...well if you don't want to you don't have to. But theres's things you could do there that have no connection to acting. Like helping with sets, or the lights, or managing the stage and stuff."

Misaki blushed and started to walk some then walked back and took Maeko's hand, "Lets do something you want to do. Okay?"

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-07 05:04 am UTC (link)
"I-it was funny!" Maeko said, nodding furiously.

"I don't think I'd be very good at any of those things..." She tigged at her hair a little. "Besides, I spend a lot of time with senpai anyway. If I joined the same club he might get mad and thing I was stalking him or something."

She took Misa's hand, squeezing it. She had no idea what to suggest, she hadn't done anything other than working in a while.

"We could get cake?" She suggested lamely.

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-07 05:10 am UTC (link)
Misaki put a hand on Maeko's shoulder, "Maeko chan, if it's not funny to you it's okay. I would rather find a joke that actually makes you laugh then one that you're forcing yourself to laugh about."

Misaki looked thoughtful, "You wouldn't be stalking him. I'm in the same club with Keiikun. And I think that he'd like you there, he could show off then."

Misaki giggled, "Perfect! Were would you like to go then?"

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-07 05:33 am UTC (link)
Maeko shrugged. "It's fine. It's normal to laugh when people make jokes."

"You were in the same club as Ito-san before. I think it's different joining after..."

She brightenned up again, swinging Misaki's arm. "I think the bakery at the top of noodle alley has cute cakes. How about there?"

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-07 05:52 am UTC (link)
"But it's not normal to laugh when you don't really think it's funny. It's like forcing yourself to find something amusing. If you don't want me doing that, just say so, okay Maeko-chan." Misaki smiled and grinned at the squeeze.

"It wouldn't be. If you like drama then join, if you don't like it then don't. Just come and look at it, okay."

She laughed happily and swung her arm back, "Yes Yes! I like the way they decorate them."

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-07 05:57 am UTC (link)
"...okay, I will." Maeko said, nodding less enthuseastically. Communicating that something wasn't funny? Unheard of!

"I guess. I'll come help you out if things get busy and you need help but I'm not sure I have time to be a permanent member anyway..."

She grinned. "Then we'll go there, then!"

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[info]pinksunbeam
2009-11-07 06:08 am UTC (link)
Misaki nodded and smiled, "I'm glad to hear that. I just..." she paused and looked at Maeko gently. "I just want you to be honsest with me, Maeko-chan. I don't want you to say you like something just because, I like it. We don't have to like the same things all the time."

Again Misaki nodded, "Good...I just want to spend some time with you."

Misaki twirled her hair with her finger some and grined, "Yup, and can I pay please! I still have some extra birthday money."

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-11-07 06:29 am UTC (link)
Maeko squeezed Misaki's hand again and smiled. "I'll try. The whole things a little new to me..."

"You don't have to do that. Oh, but-" She paused, digging around in her bag with the free hand until she produced a piece of paper.

"It's a club registation form. I don't really have that many interests of my own right now but if you like the idea I think I'd like to help out with something like this."

She handed the paper to Misaki. At the top, the words 'textile design club' were filled in, along with a room number. Maeko's own name was on the form, but as a prospective member rather than club leader.

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