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Toru Ishinomori [石乃森都丸] (2dbeauty) wrote in disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-10-29 16:43:00

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tom, toru

Just When You Thought It Was Safe to Go Back Into the Dorm...
Who: Tom and Toru
When: During Toru's sudden hikikomori-age
Where: Toru's dorm room
What: Our beloved Batman breaks into the otaku's fortress of solitude
Why: Because introspection is for weenies.

It had been a day, already. Toru couldn't possibly bring himself to return to class after the gravity of it all hit him. Even though by all rights confronting his Shadow should have done away with this habit, it was still so easy to just shut himself away when the pressure got too great. Plus, it meant that he didn't have to put any regulations on his own sleeping habits, which meant long all-nighters playing console games or chatting online and sleeping briefly in the morning. At the moment, he was curled up under a blanket in front of his TV, completely absorbed in some brightly-colored action-rpg. He didn't want to think anymore.

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2dbeauty
2009-10-30 12:05 am UTC (link)

Something about Thomas closing the door set off warning bells in Toru's head. He didn't especially think he would be robbed or raped or murdered; he just felt distinctly unnerved. To help shake off the feeling, he pushed himself up off the floor and properly pulled the blanket around himself.

"Y-you... daily checks? L-like, stalking?" He shook his head, not wanting to think about it. "But you knew that I'm like this, right? T-this isn't the first time I've taken off school for a while."

And blushed. "K-kazuya-kun didn't do anything to me! I... I only needed time to think about everything."

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	ofmanydevices 2009-10-30 12:31 am UTC (link)
	Tom looked at Toru. "More like I ask around to see if anyone's seen you." He put his hands in his pocket. He sniffed at the comment that Kaz hadn't done anything. "I had heard you'd done this before. I thought it was kind of odd. Someone who routinely risks his life to save others and fight shadows would want to hide from the rest of the world." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

2dbeauty
2009-10-30 01:03 am UTC (link)

Toru half-glared back. "That's... that's still creepy." Which was a bit of an understatement. Then again, hadn't Kazuya been doing the same thing? And both of them had good intentions...

"Y-yeah, this... it's happened at few times in the past." He drew his knees in closer to his body, in a blanket-swathed fetal position. "S-sure, I might be brave out there, but I'm no good with people... a-and I'm pretty sure I've ruined my chances of ever functioning in society. Y-you were there when my Shadow did those things... you understand, right?"

However, the otaku didn't stay exactly in this position for long. One hand darted out from beneath the blanket to hit the "pause" button on the game's controller, which had fallen to the ground when Tom had appeared. "It's... easier for me to be alone."

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	ofmanydevices 2009-10-30 03:44 am UTC (link)
	A blank look crossed Tom's face. Then he frowned slightly. "It seems like... the shadow is you, but it's not all of you. You don't need to define yourself by it." He shrugged and looked away from Toru. "It doesn't matter what people think. Nobody cares about anyone but themselves, so their opinions are irrelevant." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

2dbeauty
2009-10-30 11:25 am UTC (link)

This statement elicited a sigh from Toru. "Of course not... t-that's not what I'm doing, a-anyways. My Shadow... he had very different motives for shutting himself away. This... i-it isn't about me hating the outside world or anything... it's my own damn fault."

The floor was getting less and less comfortable. The otaku pulled himself up off of it and onto the bed, still clutching the blanket where the two ends met. "Er, senpai... you'd be surprised. No matter how selfish other people seem, they can't help but get involved with others." Another sigh. "For good or bad. S-so, whether I like it or not, their opinions are gonna be involved."

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	ofmanydevices 2009-10-30 07:19 pm UTC (link)
	Tom quirked a brow. "I meant that what the shadow did doesn't entirely matter, not that it was what drove you here. People are going to have opinions, but if there's not genuine interest behind those opinions then the feelings are invalid. If no body actually cares about you, then their opinions are hollow, they have no value save what you assign to them." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

2dbeauty
2009-10-30 07:47 pm UTC (link)

It was Toru's turn to look at Tom oddly.

"Y-you... you say that like there's nobody that cares about me." Though he certainly had a low opinion of himself, even Toru didn't think that way entirely. "Senpai... th-there are people who care about me. Yoshimi-san, Misaki-chan, Kanaye-kun... Kazuya-kun. E-even you must care, in some way, if you bothered to come here to check on me."

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ofmanydevices
2009-10-30 08:16 pm UTC (link)

"I..."

Tom crossed his arms and looked away from Toru.

"No I don't, I'm here because..."

Tom paused for a moment. He shifted uncomfortably.

"I'm here because in case there's information about the case that's all.

And the others... Do you want the list? Aoi just... has problems. I have no idea what's wrong with Satou, and Arai... I still don't know what he's planning."

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	2dbeauty 2009-10-30 08:54 pm UTC (link)
	Tom was earning more suspicious looks from Toru, and at a greater rate, with each new point he made. "Just investigating, sure... i-if that's how you feel, I won't question it. But..." The look on the boy's face was both searching and distinctly unhappy. "What do you mean, list? Are you keeping... case files, or info cards on the team!?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofmanydevices 2009-10-30 09:17 pm UTC (link)
	Tom rolled his eyes. "Of course. If everyone's being targeted then there's a pattern amongst them. If there's a pattern there I need to have as much information as possible to figure out what it is." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

2dbeauty
2009-10-30 10:34 pm UTC (link)

Toru's expression didn't change. "That... makes sense. But you made it sound like they were a list of suspects, rather than victims. You mean that after all we've been through, you'd still treat us like one of us might be a... a killer, or something?"

He hugged his knees to his body again. "I don't want a list. I'm not... l-like you, senpai. I... trust them more than that."

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	ofmanydevices 2009-10-30 11:08 pm UTC (link)
	Tom nodded, and cocked his head to the side. "Yes I know. All you needed was anonymous notes to convince you I was completely wrong, and Arai was completely trustworthy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

2dbeauty
2009-10-30 11:19 pm UTC (link)

Was that an insult? Probably. He didn't want to rise to the bait, yet at the same time felt a need to address it.

"L-look, it was more than just anonymous notes! W-we talked then, and we've talked since! I-I don't know about you, but it's not that hard to tell when someone is sharing heartfelt emotions!" he said, irritated.

"I trust Kazuya-kun... a-and I don't understand why the hell you're going to such lengths to 'protect' me from him!" As he grew more irate, Toru sat up, glaring at Tom, blanket somewhat forgotten.

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ofmanydevices
2009-10-30 11:30 pm UTC (link)

Tom didn't seem to react to Toru being mostly unclothed in front of him.

"I was trying to convince you to have a bit of caution. You know what is at stake and are making your choice. Now it's on your head what happens.

How easy would it have been for Arai to isolate you like this if he was the killer? Or one of those Angels?

It's a terrible mistake t risk your life and everything over a deep seated lust."

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