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Dear Zach

'Going to him, happy letter' )

Current Music: Wonderwall(Oasis) and Epiphany(Staind)
My dearest new friends-

It's not that I ever had any intention of stealing him from her, or that I even had a chance of doing so if I tried. It was never part of my plan to be that girl. That girl who throws herself at boys with girlfriends in an attempt to retrieve for herself what she knows she can't have. I could never be that girl.
I know that you didn't mean anything by all the things you said. I know that you were just throwing out statements to see what my reaction was because you weren't sure.
And now you know. You know that my feelings are harmless. Not only do I not have any chance at all with him beyond a great partnership and friendship, but it was not ever my motive to try for that.
I know that sometimes I came off very flirtatious, and it looked like I was trying to get him to like me back. To an extent that's true, but it wasn't a desire for him to like me beyond his friend. It was a desire for him to like me as a person, not as a girl who he might want to date. And I think that's perfectly normal, especially given the kind of person he is.

Now, I realize that since you knew I sort of liked him, it was harder for you to be able to think that on your own without my reassurance, and I completely understand. But next time, could you not bombard me with rude, sarcastic comments and out of control, none of your business questions? I would really appreciate it.

~Your grateful new friend

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