This is the hardest battle I've ever faught. It's the most agonizing experience I've ever endured, and I do it alone. Yet, I have no desire to continue alone; I never wanted the lonely path in the first place.

Truly, though, when looking around me I see the faces and feel the heartbeats of those who try to be with me. I am not pushing them away, before you argue with me. Rather, I allow them fully to be with me, however they are incapbable of helping me--of finding me--the way you are.

I'm not some hopeless or helpless romantic. No, absolutly not. Though, you are male, I know that much...and friendship is not all we're going to have. It will be a huge, great part of it, however; we were both made to understand that.

I don't need rescuing, I just need discovering. I can save myself--I'm proving that day by day. Do you see it? Are you here yet and I simply haven't realized it? No...I think I'd know if you were...But I don't know...Either way, I'm tired of trying. I have no more room, time, or capability to try in that area anymore. You know that. You feel it, but you don't see it because of course, you aren't here yet. I think I have decided that.

I need you to find me now. I've been waiting for a long, long time. I'm in this new place alone, cold, and afraid with an old demon tearing me, ripping me, bleeding me dry.

I'm waiting, You. I'm waiting.