you are my reason for living.  you're all i can think about.  i could never love anyone else.  if i lost you, i would wanna die, except then id have to spend eternity without you.  when im not with you it hurts.  talkin to you helps, but only when your arms are around me is everything ok.  your arms make me feel safe, and when you hold me i can feel how much you love me,  i see it in your eyes when they look into mine.  those eyes and arms are what i miss the most.  when im in your arms looking into your eyes, everythings alright anf the world goes away.  nothing matters anymore except me and you.  i need you more than anything; more than food, water, sleep, more than life itself.  i can only keep going with the knowledge that youre still there, waiting for me, and someday.. i live for "someday' but will it ever come?  i cant say i dont have doubts, or at least fears.  i think well be together forever, i hope.... but i have no way of knowing.  things happen... thats what scares me more than anything.  i get so afraid im gonna lose you, even though i know youd never leave me if you could help it.  i wish there was some way i could be sure... but nothings for sure, is it?  everythings about "faith" and "believing."  i want more than that!  i need more.  i have faith in our love, but...... i think u understand.  u always do. ill just hold on a little longer, until "someday" comes

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