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<sub>The following are works of fanfiction written by Cozzybob based around the anime Gundam Wing. If it's recognizable at all, the universes borrowed and its characters belong to various shareholders, NOT me. Obviously. I did not make any money borrowing them and do not plan to do so in the future. This, like all other fanfiction, was written for sheer pleasure alone. That said, most characters depicted in these works of fiction are over the age of minority, and no way does any sexual act that may or may not be written in them promote pedophilia, rape, and other such dark and nasty acts. If such work does contain these topics, you will be warned quite clearly; but even if they do, the author assures you she wants most pedophile rapists dead as the next gal. Please don't hurt me. I don't want another LJ.

Note Concerning GW spelling: I shift the spelling of certain things quite often--I spell it Merquise and Marquise and Sanc and Sank and Cinq and Maganac is always Maganac even though I know that's technically the wrong way to spell it. If you are extremely picky about such things, you might want to turn around. I'm crazy like that.

Also, Archiving: I haven't been approached by many of them, but if you do want to archive, I'd be thrilled. Just be sure to tell me so that I can squeal. The same goes for contests, nom's, rec's, so on and so forth. For the most part, my fiction will be remain here, just as long as IJ doesn't pull a GJ, an LJ, or a WTFJ. You know what I mean, J? ;)</sub>

Short Stories/Drabbles/Ficlets-- The Greatest Loss Pair: 1x2 Rated: R Genre/Warning: second-person POV, suicidal thoughts, language, death. DARK. Summary: The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live. A Way Of Telling Pair: 3x2 (3+4, 1+2 background) Rated: R Genre/Warning: suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, dark humor, language Summary: Trowa fails to commit suicide. Scars And Skin Grafting Pair: 3x2, (3+4, 1+2 implied) Rated: PG-13/T Genre/Warning: angst, stream-of-consciousness, slashy kissing, strong language. Summary: During the war, there was Quatre. After the war, there was Duo. From The Ashes Pair: Trowa, Duo Rated: PG-13 Genre/Warning: angst, death (old age), homelessness, very bleak Summary: Duo gets a call to identify the remains of someone he loves. Cigarette Porn Pair: 2x? Rated: R Genre/Warning: slash, cigarette smoking, wet Duos, gritty, language. Summary: Duo smokes. It's the ultimate act of voyeurism, really. How High Pair: Auda pov, Rashid, mentions of Quatre Rated: PG-13 Genre/Warning: Second-person POV. Some negative thoughts on Quatre (no bashing, but Auda is oddly jaded), general tense darkness, some violence, some language. Un-beta'd. Summary: Auda contemplates Quatre, samurais, and test tube babies. I Quit (In 12 Parts) Pair: 1x2, 2xOFC Rated: PG-13 Genre/Warning: little dark, intense, swearing, some torture, angst-ness, minor limes (with a happy ending!) Summary: Heero has been captured, and Duo's determined to get him back by whatever means necessary. (Hosted at underthebridge! Wooties!) The Knife Pair: Quatre, Duo (friendship) Rated: PG-13 Genre/Warning: short mention of slash (past 3x4), lots of het, marriage and divorce, swearing, huge father issues, light angst, older gundam pilots. Summary: After his forth divorce running, Quatre decides to confront the root of all his problems—his father. (For D-sama!) Humpty Dumpty Pair: Trowa, Duo, Quatre Rated: PG-13sh Genre: second-person POV, angst, character exploration Summary: Trowa still hasn't recovered from The Incident. Martian Wedding Rituals Pair: 6xD, others Rated: PG-13 Genre: Fluff, sap, romance, pure het, sweetness that will make your teeth ache, happily-ever-afters, not a lick of slash Summary: Fed up with their long-distance relationship, Dorothy moves to Mars to be with Zechs. Old Men Pair: Howard, Duo, mention of young Howard/O Rated: PG-13sh Genre: age, angst associated with age, graphic images of violence. kind of dark. Summary: Duo visits Howard in the nursing home. Howard's First Pair: young Howard/J Rated: PG-13 Genre: implied slash, umm.. just read it. Summary: Howard finds an old photo. True drabble. Baby Blues Pair: 6xD Rated: PGish Genre: het Summary: Just read it. True drabble. Untilted 2x3 Pair: 2x3x2 Rated: PG-13 Genre: language, slash Summary: Duo cusses out Trowa. True drabble. Reverance Pair: old Duo Rated: G Genre: fluff, sap, angst? flapst? just read it. xD Summary: As an old man, Duo still has a way with the children. True drabble. Lice Sucks Even More Than Peas Pair: Duo Rated: PG-13 Genre: itch-factor, ie: lice and the graphic descriptions of it Summary: A young Duo has lice. True drabble. (Off The Dollar) Menu Pair: Duo, Heero (gen) Rated: R just to be on the safe side Genre: disturbing images, depression, mental breakdown, starvation, language, intense Summary: One of my favorites. Duo doesn't eat meat. Good And Red Pair: 1+6+1 Rated: PG-13 Genre: bad fluff, bad humor, weird get-together-fic, pessimistic view on Christmas Summary: For Ederyn. Heero hates Zechs. Heero is a liar. Heero is frustrated. And Zechs is in his own little world. In The Line of Duty Pair: Trowa, Duo, doomed OC Rated: R Genre: OC death, killing, tragedy, war-ness, angst Summary: Infiltration is just another word for betrayal. Death Goes Zero Pair: Duo, mentions of Hilde and Trant Rated: R Genre: Canon, violence, character death, massacre, what-if AU Summary: What if Duo's hallucinations in the Zero system came true? In A Nutshell Pair: 1x2x1 Rated: R Genre: Post-war. Dark, mutilation, gore, lots of blood, shinigami!Duo, psychosis, refs to prostitution, pedophilia, child abuse Summary: Probably my first torture fic. During an interrogation of an ex-ozzie with Heero, Duo unexpectedly reveals the truth of his origins, and the fact that he knows perfectly well where he came from. It Has A Soul Pair: 13x6 Rated: NC-17 Genre: slash lemon, dark, angst, psychobabbling, stream of consciousness, odd Summary: There is a soul in Zechs' mask. He puts it on, and it becomes him. Sting Pair: 6x3 Rated: PG-13 Genre: slash, f-words, angst, sap Summary: Zechs and Trowa aren't friends. For Ederyn. Saltwater Stay Pair: Mariemaia, Dekim Barton Rated: PG Genre: angst, death, implied inter-family murder Summary: My mother is dead, and Grandfather Barton is delighted. Put Up A Parking Lot Pair: Duo, Hilde Rated: PG Genre: Post-war. Angst, oddity, the desecration of graves, religious themes, mental breakdown, twisted... Summary: My take on Duo and The Church. Err. Duo prays over a spot in a parking garage once a year, and Hilde asks him why. Blow The Hellfire Pair: 6x6 (literally) Rated: NC-17 Genre: yaoi in a weird way, lemon, angst, madness, adult language Summary: This is the story of how Wind was born. Originally for 30_tortures, "the naked truth," but the claim was cancelled. Bird Man Pair: Heero, Duo Rated: PG Genre: post-war, winged!Heero cliche', minor angst Summary: Old favorite. Everyone knows that Heero's got wings. He just hid them under his tank top every time the camera panned his way. When A Star Falls Pair: Heero Rated: G Genre: none... almost canon Summary: A very small Heero-drabble for gw500. Bloody Little Children Pair: Weridge, Relena, Une Rated: PG-13 Genre: Takes place during episode 11: The Destiny of Happiness, ie word-for-word spoilers like mad. Murder, death, angst. Bit dark. Relena with a gun. ;) Summary: Old favorite, for Meritjubet. Instead of shooting the rose, Relena shot its thorn. The Euthanasia of Thirty Nine (hosted on LJ) Pairs: 13+9 Rated: PG Genre: het, strangeness, OZ-ness Summary: Noin confronts Treize about Zechs, and the two gain respect from each other. (Was part of a longer series, now it's a oneshot.) The Loneliest Number Pair: Zechs, Noin (friendship) Rated: PG Genre: post-EW, slight songfic. mixture of angst, sap and fluff. Summary: On his 21st birthday, Zechs bluntly asks Noin why she came with him to Mars. The answer surprises him. A Perfect Fit Pair: Wufei, Mariemaia Rated: PG Genre: pre-Endless Waltz, angst Summary: Wufei tries on his new uniform. Oh Glorious Father Pair: 13x6 Rated: PG-13 for violent themes Genre: Pre-war, twisted, angst, homosexual bigotry, family problems, some shota... Summary: Earned a banner at gw_ozzies. Most likely my first 13x6. A father condemns his son for being homosexual, without ever knowing the name of whom his son took fancy. He never knew, because his son ran away at the age of nine, and never spoke to him ever again. Shit Happens Pairs: Zechs, Quatre, various others. Yaoi with mentions of het. Rated: R for violence Genre: Post-EW, violent, emotional, dark/drunk humor Summary: Zechs is drunk in a bar on Mars when Quatre literally barges into his life, angry and depressed at the world. After much pressing, Quatre tells his story... and then Zechs offers some friendly advice. (by request for the Whumped!Quatre ficathon) Drabble Request #5 Pairs: 13x4ish Rated: PG-13 Genre: slight yaoi, Oz prison cells, um... drabble? Summary: Yes, another drabble meme. no_utopia requested: "13x4. Or just the two of them interacting, your choice. With Quatre captured *nod*" Drabble Request #4 Pairs: 13x5 Rated: PG Genre: Yaoi, angst. Summary: Another from the drabble meme from years ago. the_dw requested: "Gundam Wing, 13x5 in Treize's POV, in the moment when Tallgeese II was about to explode." Drabble Request #3 Pairs: 1x2x1 Rated: PG Genre: light yaoi, angst Summary: Another from the drabble meme. kali_sama requested: "Heero/Duo... and I've love it to be angsty but if you could work in a bit of fluff there too, that would be just perfect." (1x2! Who knew? xD) Drabble Request #2 Pairs: Treize, slight 13+5 Rated: PG Genre: slight yaoi, drabble, angst Summary: From a drabble meme. lomelinde_sama requested: "I want ... Treize ... and I want him ... while he's in the last battle. Not when he's about to die, but you know, before, when he's in the thick of the battle in Tallgeese II." (Looking back, this didn't fill the request, exactly. Doh! Oh well. This was years ago, and that's my excuse. Drabble Request #1 Pairs: Quatre and Dorothy (4+D if you squint) Rated: PG Genre: het, drabble, humor Summary: There was a drabble meme around around LJ a few years back and I did some requests. Meritjubet requested "Dorothy... Competition suits her nicely, I believe. Preferably between her and Quatre." Parting Gifts Pairs: 1x2x6, 5x6x5 Rated: NC-17 -- Adults only! Genre: PWP! LEMON! Sex! Threesomes! Hentai! Dirty things! Not for children!! Yaoi. Summary: Zechs receives a vid disk in the mail that brings back some extremely interesting memories regarding his night before the take off for Mars... takes place in the Sabintha Universe, featured on fanworkrecs.com. (My first threesome!) Dinner Interrupted Pairs: Quatre/Zechs Rated: R Genre: Post-war. Extreme angst, emotional-ness, violence. Cliffhangers from hell. Gen. Summary: My first attempt at a cliffhanger. A quiet dinner between friends goes horribly wrong (semi-sequel to Silver Lining if you wish to read it that way). The Silver Lining Pairs: Quatre, Zechs, mention of unrequited 3x4 Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war. Slight angst, sap, little fluff. Gen, mention of yaoi. Summary: Quatre has a headache. Zechs has a request. Oh, the beginnings of cherished friendships... Catherine Kills Pairs: Catherine and Trowa-ness Rated: Strong R Genre: Canon. Murder, very dark, emotional, scary. Gen. Summary: Old favorite, first Catherine POV. Catherine Bloom will do anything to protect Trowa. Even if it means murder. Burlesque Pairs: 3x6, 6xR, 3+R Rated: R Genre: Post-war. Limes, hentai thoughts. Bisexual. Summary: Trowa and Zechs can hear faint music coming from the attic... (written for Merith) Scary Chicks Pairs: implied Sx9 Rated: very strong R Genre: Post-war. Implied yuri, very dark, gore, disturbing. Summary: My first and as of yet, only yuri. Noin and Sally get revenge after Quatre is almost beaten to death. Do What You Will Pairs: Heero and Quatre Rated: G Genre: Post-war, gen. Summary: Heero gives Quatre a word of advice about life after war. Of Allies and Enemies Pairs: 1x4x1 Rated: NC-17 (Adults only!) Genre: LEMON!! Sex! Not for children! Also angst, and during-the-war-ness. Yaoi. Summary: My second lemon. What starts as a showdown between Quatre and Heero, ends up as a confession of hatred, regret, and the pain of pointless death. Quatre is shattered, Heero is lost, and they're both too stubborn to admit it. Can the blind lead the blind? For lomelinde_sama's birthday. Learning To Fly Pairs: Trowa/Heero Rated: G Genre: Canon, introspection, angst, gen. Summary: Old favorite. Trowa sifts through thoughts of Heero and life, observing silently as Heero stands on the edge of a building, prepared to jump. Hell's Back Door Pairs: 13x5 with various others Rated: NC-17 (Adults only!!) Genre: PWP! LEMON! SEX! NO KIDS! ADULTS ONLY! BDSM, many kinks, yaoi with refs to het. Summary: Very bad. First 13x5, first lemon. Wufei winds up in the bed of a man he hardly knows, to get involved in things he hardly understands, because Quatre has decided that Wufei needs to get laid very badly. Damn that Quatre. OFFLINE Do You Remember? (hosted on FFN) Pairs: 3+4, 3+1 and Tro/Cathy depending on how you look at it. Gen, overall. Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war, introspection, angst, gen. Summary: Very bad. Trowa dives head first into the ocean of his demons, and describes just what exactly is going on in his head. A Block of Wood Pairs: 1+2 and 1x2 at the same time Rated: PG-13 Genre: Dirty humor, poking of mpregs, limes, ref to lemon. Yaoi. Summary: Duo finds slash fanfiction very kinky. OFFLINE Seize This Kiss (hosted on FFN) Pairs: 6x1 Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war. Angst, tiny fluff, romantic-ness, "big macs and bourbon." Yaoi. Summary: Rec'd by Raygunworks for some reason. The only fic I know of that was ever rec'd, also my first 6x1. Zechs finds Heero in a bar eating big macs and drinking bourbon. Why, you ask? Zechs is just as clueless as the rest of us. Smile Like You Mean It (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Pure Duo-ness Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war, memories of pre-war, introspection, braid-cutting. Gen. Summary: For Merith. Duo tells all in the history of L2, his life, and how he changed himself for the better after the war. The Not-So-Secret Secret Affair (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Relena/Dorothy, with mentions of 1xR, 4xD and 2x3. Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war, humor, fluff, het with ref to yaoi. Summary: Dorothy boasts a secret that Relena has long ago figured out, and the creeper suddenly becomes the creepee. What is Doro to do? My Dinner With Ghosts (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Mariemaia Rated: G Genre: Post-EW, angst, introspection, gen. Summary: First Mariemaia POV. Mariemeia Kushrenada contemplates her family and her life while dining with three lonely ghosts. A Weak Justice (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Wufei, Duo, past 5+M Rated: PG-13 Genre: Canon, angst, major Ep Zero spoilers, mostly gen. Summary: My first Wufei POV. Wufei meditates on his reasons for going to war, and relives some painful memories in the process. Did it work? (hosted on FFN) Pairs: 4xD Rated: G Genre: Post-war. Fluff, humor, romance, tiny sap. Het. Summary: Personal favorite... a lot of people don't understand my love for 4xD. This explains it all. ;) My Brother Lives (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Relena, possible 1+R, background 6+9 Rated: PG-13 Genre: Canon, angst, introspection, gen. Summary: After Relena discovers that her brother is alive, she finds herself still wishing for his death. Not Relena-bashing. Happy Birthday, GW500! (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Duo, various. Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war, humor, third-party cross-dressing, gen with het and yaoi refs. Summary: For GW500's birthday, obviously. ^^ My first crack fic. It's the new year and Duo's bored as hell... so he looks up fanfiction about himself and his fellow ex-pilots. Of Heroes, Liars and Rogues (hosted on FFN) Pairs: the 5 gundam pilots Rated: G Genre: Post-war, poetic prose, angst, sap, gen. Summary: Five boys--two heroes, two rogues and a liar--stand on a hilltop, looking over the city on New Year's Eve. They wonder where they will go, what peace is all about, and where home is, in the heart. The Ashes Remain (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Zechs Rated: PG-13 Genre: Poetic prose, angst, gen. Summary: My first Zechs fic. A poetic-style ficlet depicting the fall of Sanq and one of Zechs' darkest nightmares. A Rush of Blood (hosted on FFN) Pairs: 1x4x1 Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war. Angst, violence, arson, songfic, yaoi. Summary: For lomelinde_sama, my first 1x4 and first alternate pairing fic. Quatre frees himself of his demons by blowing up his house and everything in it. Good Day to Die (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Rashid, Quatre Rated: R Genre: Post-war. Angst, violence, OC suicide, gen. Summary: A man tries to kill Quatre, and Rashid beats the living crap out of him. (Not related to No One is Allowed to Die) No One is Allowed to Die (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Rashid Rated: G Genre: Canon. Angst, character study, introspection, gen. Summary: My very first attempt at alternate POV's. Rashid's thoughts about the Maganac loyalty to Quatre. (Not related to Good Day to Die) Tug-O-War (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Trorwa, Cathy, 3+Midii Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post war, angst, slight introspection, subtle het. Summary: Trowa leaves the Preventers and goes back to the circus at Cathy's request... to greet an old demon of the past. Drums (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Trowa and Cathy Rated: G Genre: Canon, angst, directly after episode 25. Gen. Summary: A man is lost in the rain, and he can't remember who he is. Both The Devil (hosted on FFN) Pairs: 4+D Rated: G Genre: Pre-war, angst, fluff, subtle het. Summary: A young Dorothy meets a strange boy in the park. This Promise (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Quatre and Wufei Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war, angst, gen. Summary: Quatre and Wufei face some old demons on Father's Day. Little Beer Friend (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Duo Rated: PG Genre: introspection, gen, angst Summary: My first Duo POV ever. Duo goes back to L2 after the war to find himself, and he meets an old face in the process. And I'll Fight (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Relena, possible 1+R Rated: PG-13 Genre: Canon, angst, introspection, gen. Summary: Relena contemplates suicide while sitting on her throne during the war. A Brief Moment in the Life of Heero Yuy (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Heero, possible 1+2 and/or 1+R Rated: PG-13 Genre: Canon, angst, violence, introspection. Gen. Summary: My first Heero POV. Heero contemplates the meaning to his life on the way back from a mission. The Desert (hosted on FFN) Pairs: 4xD, 1xR, 2xH, 5xS, 3x11, hinted 3+4 Rated: PG-13 Genre: Post-war, angst, introspection, het. Summary: My first het. "She'll put you out of your misery and drain your soul of every last drop, feeding on you, drinking you, savoring you all for herself with no intention to share. She's quite the possessive bastard. Her name is Dorothy Catalonia." Play For Me (hosted on FFN) Pairs: implied 3+4, possible 4+5 Rated: R Genre: During-the-war-ness, angst, implied shounen-ai. Summary: My first real Quatre POV. Quatre plays the music to forget, but he will always remember. The Devil Went Down (hosted on FFN) Pairs: Quatre/Treize, hinted 3+4 Rated: PG-13 Genre: During-the-war-ness, angst, songfic, gen with yaoi hints. Summary: Quatre duels Treize for the freedom of his four captured friends... but Treize gets in over his head. Trowa's Cure (hosted on FFN) Pairs: 3x4x3 Rated: PG-13 Genre: Yaoi, angst, refs to NCS. Summary: Trowa needs a cure for his demons, and its name is Quatre Raberba Winner. My very first attempt at yaoi and almost-first GW fanfic EVER. Seriously, it's bad. For more early fics by me, click here.