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Tweak says, "Never Forget the Outlaws"

Christian Grey (50shadesofgrey) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-12-11 06:49:00

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!closed, ~anastasia steele

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Ms. Steele, I am aware that I don't have a right to ask this. But I want to take you out for coffee and talk. I am sorry..... ~~I don't deserve this~~ please permit me to do this.

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Ana/Christian

msanasteele
2013-12-13 11:32 pm UTC (link)

I just want you to be yourself, if you can't see us together, than what's the point in even trying. I don't know what your doing to me but I can't stop thinking about you and even then I know that its too much. Raymond said that in his future we're happy and that we really bond as a family. I just wish that it were true or going to be true.

So what are you trying to say? You don't want to be apart?

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	Ana/Christian 50shadesofgrey 2013-12-14 04:06 pm UTC (link)
	I am doing my best to be myself, I really am. I don't think that I've ever been anything but... I just don't know how to be in a relationship. I can't even imagine Raymond's future. But that doesn't mean that it's not going to happen. We can't control everything. Which is what I am slowly learning. I.... I don't want to be apart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana/Christian msanasteele 2013-12-14 10:23 pm UTC (link)
	Can't you at least try? I mean yes I know that your into fucking and pleasure in your red room of pain and not really love because you either don't know what love is or you've never been loved yourself. But I will say it as much as you are fucked up I love you Christian. And nothing will ever change that. I can't be apart from you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana/Christian 50shadesofgrey 2013-12-15 11:19 am UTC (link)
	I don't know how love works, this is true, but that doesn't mean that I am unwilling to try... I never have been before, but I have never encountered someone as you, Ms. Steele. I want... for the first time in my life I want to try and be what you need me to be. I can't be apart from you, either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana/Christian msanasteele 2013-12-21 05:11 am UTC (link)
	I'm glad that you are wanting to at least try. Really, its not as hard as you think it is. You just haven't believed in yourself to love someone and to be close to you filled with love. I'm so glad to hear you say that too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana/Christian 50shadesofgrey 2013-12-21 01:16 pm UTC (link)
	There is a reason I never have. I am just not sure I want to tell you what it is.... it's hard for me to talk about. I'm glad you are happy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ana/Christian msanasteele 2013-12-28 05:42 pm UTC (link)
	I'd be willing to sit and listen to you Christian. I just want us to be able to trust each other with our secrets so that we can grow together. This is what love is all about. With you....I am happy. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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