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Tweak says, "Feed me!"

Enjolras. (antinouswild) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-06-11 12:37:00

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The taste for solitude and contemplation was born in my heart together with the expansive feelings whose purpose it is to feed it. Turmoil and noise constrain and suffocate them, calm and peace revive and intensify them. I need to retire within myself in order to love. ... I had longed for the countryside, and I had obtained it; I could not bear subjugation, and I was perfectly free, indeed better than free ... [src]

I struggle to understand the words of wise men; revelation is a form of acquisition of knowledge undesirable for the progress of the human race, and yet to know and realize the full meaning of all the words of Rousseau - of Jesus Christ - of Saint-Simon - at times it seems as though it must be necessary. There are mysteries. I do not understand.

Even so, it seems to me Rousseau would have thought a city empty of its people to be a thoroughly unnatural thing.

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	pontmercy 2013-06-11 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	Who told you that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	antinouswild 2013-06-11 08:17 pm UTC (link)
	A woman; she knew my name. She told me I'd died. Perhaps I have, although I can't remember it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pontmercy 2013-06-11 08:18 pm UTC (link)
	You trust what she's telling you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	antinouswild 2013-06-11 08:25 pm UTC (link)
	I haven't any choice, knowing nothing. But I see nothing to be gained by lying, either. If this is an afterlife, I don't know what to make of it. Thus, pray. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pontmercy 2013-06-11 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	No, I absolutely refuse to believe I'm dead. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	antinouswild 2013-06-11 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	It seems to me you've believed a great many other things with less provocation. But I'll admit, I hope that you're right. A place so desolate could only be a hell. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pontmercy 2013-06-11 08:46 pm UTC (link)
	~~That has no place~~ I'm sure we can't be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	antinouswild 2013-06-11 08:50 pm UTC (link)
	I've always thought hell must be something like that passage in Malory - And when Sir Launcelot saw this light he had great will for to enter into the chapel, but he could find no place where he might enter - but no man can truly know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pontmercy 2013-06-11 08:59 pm UTC (link)
	And is that how you feel? This place, being here. You don't seem... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	antinouswild 2013-06-11 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	No. Here, I am confused. That's all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ENJOLRAS \| MARIUS pontmercy 2013-06-11 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	You can't be nearly as confused as that poor young lady. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ENJOLRAS \| MARIUS antinouswild 2013-06-11 11:54 pm UTC (link)
	On the contrary - she's been here much longer, and will have insight accordingly. I'm going to see her. What we discuss may concern you, apparently. Perhaps you should come, but of course I leave it up to you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ENJOLRAS \| MARIUS pontmercy 2013-06-11 11:57 pm UTC (link)
	~~But are you sure she isn't~~ Perhaps I should go with you. I don't care for how she knows us and keeps saying that we die or disappear. I understand it's impossible to explain how we arrived here, yet still. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ENJOLRAS \| MARIUS antinouswild 2013-06-11 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	It doesn't matter whether you care for it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ENJOLRAS \| MARIUS pontmercy 2013-06-12 12:00 am UTC (link)
	I'm going with you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ENJOLRAS \| MARIUS antinouswild 2013-06-12 12:02 am UTC (link)
	Good. Let her make an explanation. At least she has one. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ENJOLRAS \| MARIUS pontmercy 2013-06-12 12:13 am UTC (link)
	You're right, it is better than what we have now. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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