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Tweak says, "I AM THE ALPHA!"

Elenwë of the Vanyar (vanya_elenwe) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-05-02 17:45:00

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!open, ~hansel

Spring has come at last! It never got terribly cold or terribly warm in Tírion or Taniquetil, but there were always times of the year that Yavanna set aside for blooming and for harvest, so we had seasons in that way.

And in the spring, and in the autumn - as they were for us - we would have grand feasts with dancing and singing. They were lovely times of fellowship and celebration, celebrating all of Yavanna's creations and all of Eru's gifts.

Perhaps...we might have something like that here? A time to bring together, to learn of each other, to celebrate all the new children that have been born here. To make new friends, and enjoy time with old ones.

Would anyone be interested? I know that there are some who do not like me, but I should like to try to set such things behind, and for everyone to have a fresh start. It is, after all, spring, and a time of new beginnings.

[Filtered to Maedhros]

You have no choice, Fëanorian. You must come.

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	itarille 2013-05-02 10:05 pm UTC (link)
	I have learned many things this week that hurt me. But I am not so burdened as you or my father. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë vanya_elenwe 2013-05-02 10:06 pm UTC (link)
	Will you tell me what has hurt you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë \| Elenwë itarille 2013-05-02 10:10 pm UTC (link)
	I have learned that you and father are not doing so well. I have seen Russandol's cruelty toward others, and I have learned of the Fall of Gondolin. I am sad. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Itarille | Elenwë

vanya_elenwe
2013-05-02 10:13 pm UTC (link)

Itarillë, I love your father more than I can ever put into words. And whatever is wrong between us, time will work it out. Neither of us want to give up, because we love each other. But you need not worry about that. You are so dear to both of us.

Maitimo...it has been hard for him since Findekáno died. I hope that having your uncle here will make things easier for him.

And do not grieve overmuch. You, Tuor and Eärendil escape. And your father comes home to me.

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Itarille | Elenwë

itarille
2013-05-02 10:24 pm UTC (link)

But I do worry and it is unfair of you to tell me not to. You are my family and I want you happy! You deserve to be happy. I have seen you both so radiant and beautiful together, and now you hide behind facades of cheer and lie to me. Both of you.

And my son will lose his home, the only home he has ever known, before he has a chance to grow and want to leave it of his own accord. I do grieve! He, I, and Tuor will lose our home and I must say goodbye to my father.

I don't know that I will ever be prepared to live in a world without you or he in it.

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Itarille | Elenwë

vanya_elenwe
2013-05-02 10:34 pm UTC (link)

I love him. That is not a lie. And I wish so much for that cheer we once had, Itarillë, I want it so badly I could scream it to the heavens. But he is not ready, and we must respect that. The five hundred years without me were hard on him. He learned to survive, but without me, and he must change his entire world view to accommodate me once more. It will not be easy, and it will take some time. But I love him. And he loves me.

You will never have to, Itarillë. We are of the Eldar, and so long as this world exists, we will be in it.

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	Itarillë \| Elenwë itarille 2013-05-02 10:51 pm UTC (link)
	I feel guilty mother, because he makes me so angry. Why can he not see how much he's hurting you? He has been without you for so long why would he not be so glad to have you now? I don't understand! I don't understand I want to shout at him to stop being so ridiculous. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë \| Elenwë vanya_elenwe 2013-05-02 10:57 pm UTC (link)
	Your father is a man of deep feeling, Itarillë, and he has suffered greatly. Do not blame him, and do not keep yourself from him. You are the dearest thing to him in all the world. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë \| Elenwë itarille 2013-05-02 11:41 pm UTC (link)
	I have a right to be cross with him, and it's a right I hold to. I love him but that doesn't change my feelings at all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë \| Elenwë vanya_elenwe 2013-05-03 03:05 am UTC (link)
	I should have said nothing to you. You shouldn't trouble yourself with my relationship with your father. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë \| Elenwë itarille 2013-05-03 05:18 am UTC (link)
	Nay! You should have told me sooner rather than lying about it, mother. I deserve to know! And now I do, and it hurts. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë \| Elenwë vanya_elenwe 2013-05-03 06:05 am UTC (link)
	I never lied, Itarillë. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë \| Elenwë itarille 2013-05-03 06:06 am UTC (link)
	You lied by omission. By pretending you were happy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Itarillë \| Elenwë vanya_elenwe 2013-05-03 06:09 am UTC (link)
	I am happy that he is well. That is not a lie. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	tuor 2013-05-03 05:34 pm UTC (link)
	Itarillë. Will you talk to me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-05-03 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	Of course I will talk to you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	tuor 2013-05-03 07:20 pm UTC (link)
	Then come home, love, and let us speak of what bothers you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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