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Tweak says, "WooHoo!"

Maryanne Elizabeth Walker (maryanne_walker) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-04-16 21:37:00

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!open, maryanne walker (oe), ~tony stark

Why can't this place ever be fucking simple? Why does it have to complicate the ever living FUCK out of something until you want to either break into a million fucking little pieces and scatter to the wind, or simply lose your fucking mind and go apeshit at the same time?

~~FUCK YOU ISLAND FOR BRINGING THE WRONG GUY!~~

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	itarille 2013-04-17 02:57 am UTC (link)
	Would that your pains would be eased, dear child. (Reply to this) (Thread)

maryanne_walker
2013-04-17 03:19 am UTC (link)

I'm sorry, you talk really pretty, and I'm not trying to be insulting or sound really stupid, but... Huh?

Normally I can fathom fancy talk. My best friend is, or was, British, talked real real pretty. Sounds exactly like the latest fella on the CB. But my brain has hit the point of near breaking. And will not let me compute anything beyond lowbrow mortal hooha type speech.

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	itarille 2013-04-17 03:21 am UTC (link)
	Oh, I was saying if only your sorrows would go away. I can tell that you are hurting. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2013-04-17 03:54 am UTC (link)
	I should be happy. The only two people, men, that I've ever loved in the way you love Tuor, and he you, were brought here. But the cynic says there's something cruel and nasty, and meaner than any Mutant hating bigot that I've ever faced, is just going to take them... Him away again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	itarille 2013-04-17 04:01 am UTC (link)
	I should not spare your feelings.. for that will not help. But yes, in all likelihood you will lose him again. Such is the fate of Men. But you must try to rest in knowing that you have his love forever. Even when he is gone. And let it be enough to get you through the days, even when you do not want to rise in the morning. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

maryanne_walker
2013-04-17 04:11 am UTC (link)

That's the cruel part of being here. I wont have his love forever. This is just... A tricky part of being here. They die here, but it doesn't mean they don't live on at home. Where they're from. I've cheated, in weakness after he died I sat myself in front of one of the TVs, and watched the documentation of where he's from. With Tim, so he could at least hear Daryl's voice. He doesn't speak that much.

Ugh, I don't remember where I was going with that. Anyway, by the end he's still alive. The big hearted, mean, when he needs to be, fighting redneck that I fell in love with. But I wouldn't want him dead. I wouldn't want to deprive any world of him, even if he didn't, or wouldn't, know me if I stepped into it.

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itarille
2013-04-17 04:20 am UTC (link)

You have had his love for a short time then, and it will have to be enough. No one says that it will not hurt, for love often does, but you are strong inside and brave. Brave beyond measure to dare loving one whom you knew you may never see again.

It is a beautiful thing.

And though you hurt now do not despair. Live in memory, for your love is in memory of him and that shall never fade or abandon you.

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	maryanne_walker 2013-04-17 06:13 am UTC (link)
	It wasn't really a choice. My heart made it for me. But it wasn't a hard one. He's a good man. And one solid year of happiness seems like it was enough. It was enough that he made me feel like everything else, all through my life, was worth it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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