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Loki ([info]hamrammr) wrote in [info]compass_network,
@ 2013-04-05 22:18:00

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Entry tags:!open, maryanne walker (oe), ~hansel, ~isabel lane, ~john mitchell (oe), ~micha delmare, ~tony stark

So I’m going to bore half of you again. With a steadily growing population and steadily changing population, I think we should have something like regular meetings. How about everyone who takes an interest in the Island every second Thursday of each month? The people who are jobless so far can be assigned jobs.

And I know there are a few people who don’t want to hear it but I would like to assign some organisational posts. It seems like the only thing we do is constantly argue over them. What is our security plan at the moment? Is there even one existing? Or food: one farm with two people working on it and one hunting team for all of us? That’s not going to work out in the long run. If we don’t want to rely on the Island’s mercy, there should be a few more people working on the farm now that spring comes around. We could try to fix the houses around us. Clean them, get electricity there. Maybe use one as a nursery. One of the office buildings could have a hall big enough for meetings or balls.

Last but not least, have we given up altogether? We stopped doing anything to get away from here. Where are the clever scientists? We know that there’s a psychopath out there who locked us into a prison. Are we just going to accept that?



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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-12 07:46 am UTC (link)
But you are in pain and avoiding your grief. You won't heal like this.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-12 07:55 am UTC (link)
I'm in pain, because the other part of my soul is gone. There's no healing that.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-12 08:03 am UTC (link)
There is, Maryanne. Not everything but there is.

After I killed Ira, I started to reach a point where I could slowly face Annie's death. And it still hurt, it still sometimes does but it got better. It got better before she showed up again.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-12 08:14 am UTC (link)
What if I don't want to heal from it? I don't want to forget how he made me feel. I don't want to forget him. I don't want to let someone take his place. Because no one can. Maybe no one else saw him the way I did, but to me, he was perfect.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-12 08:21 am UTC (link)
Healing does not mean forgetting. You will see him everyday in your son. Jesus, even if you want to I doubt you can. But you need to stop building your life around the fact that he is gone. You need to build it around you and Tim. I don't say go and find a replacement for him but go and find a little bit peace.

If it had been you who died would you have wanted Daryl to feel miserable forever?

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-12 08:26 am UTC (link)
I am was finding peace. And I see him, I smell him, I even hear him in my son. Even if the last is little things that he'd do.

Of course not.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-12 08:41 am UTC (link)
Then why don't we go to Daryl's room and pack his things today?

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-12 08:45 pm UTC (link)
Next week. I'm giving myself to next week.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-12 08:49 pm UTC (link)
Just don't put it off for too long. It'll just get harder.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-13 01:58 am UTC (link)
Actually, that's not entirely true. The longer I wait the less pungent his scent gets. I've only gone in twice, since he's been gone. And it's like he surrounds me. Enough that I could almost close my eyes and pretend that it was just a horrible nightmare. Because I still hear him.

I know it's all in my head. But there's no making it go away.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-14 08:06 am UTC (link)
But they will always remind you of him. They are his stuff. If you want closure, you need to do this.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-14 04:57 pm UTC (link)
I know... And it's not nice to take up a whole apartment just because I'm a coward.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-14 08:51 pm UTC (link)
There are enough empty apartments. But I don't want you bleeding over it like you are doing now.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-15 06:00 am UTC (link)
I'm not bleeding. I'm trying to ignore it.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-15 07:19 am UTC (link)
Maryanne, you can tell me a lot but you are not okay.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-15 09:06 am UTC (link)
I never said I was okay. I'm pretty far from Okay. I can function, though, and that's what counts right now.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-15 09:11 am UTC (link)
Not in the long run.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-15 09:20 am UTC (link)
The long run doesn't count until tomorrow. And I'll get through tomorrow, and the next day.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]hamrammr
2013-04-15 09:25 am UTC (link)
But it does count then and tomorrow will come. It always does.

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Mitchell / Maryanne
[info]maryanne_walker
2013-04-15 06:30 pm UTC (link)
I handle it as it comes.

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