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Tweak says, "Ipromise u won't forget this 1"

amandameyerson (amandameyerson) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-03-13 20:28:00

Entry tags:

!open, kytana montrose

This place confuses me greatly. It really does. And I know I'm not the only one that feels this way. Everything is very confusing around here. Every day something different happens that makes you just sit back and think "What the hell?" People dying every time you turn around, it feels like. Those who aren't dying seem to be falling in love. Or they came here already married and with child.

But I think what has me the most confused is....why was I brought here, told that I'm a witch, given a wand at Christmas time and then denied any type of education on how to use it? Why bother? Why should I be told that I have this magical power if the information has no use to me at all whatsoever? I just don't understand. I was better off at home living a useless life of mediocrity.

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	mostloyalruby 2013-03-14 02:52 am UTC (link)
	Have you asked for help? That tends to be a really good first step. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	amandameyerson 2013-03-14 02:54 am UTC (link)
	I did ask for help. One person taught me one spell and when he disappeared, I asked if there was anyone else that could teach me and got no response. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mostloyalruby 2013-03-14 02:58 am UTC (link)
	Well, asking again is probably going to be more useful than being all passive aggressive and feeling sorry for yourself. Just sayin'. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amandameyerson 2013-03-14 03:01 am UTC (link)
	I'm not feeling sorry for myself. I just don't understand why I was told I have this gift if I have no way of learning to use it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mostloyalruby 2013-03-14 03:03 am UTC (link)
	Because that's life. It's shit. Then you die. And then it's more shit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amandameyerson 2013-03-14 03:07 am UTC (link)
	So your whole purpose for commenting here was to make me feel bad about myself? Or was it to crush what little hope I have left? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mostloyalruby 2013-03-14 03:12 am UTC (link)
	Well, my purpose was more along the lines of telling you that you were annoying the fuck out of me. But if I did one of those things, bonus! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amandameyerson 2013-03-14 03:14 am UTC (link)
	Bite me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mostloyalruby 2013-03-14 03:15 am UTC (link)
	Really? Is that an offer? I'd love to. Where are you? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	notdarthrevan 2013-03-14 04:06 am UTC (link)
	If your life is so horrible, perhaps you should find another way to expend your energy. Something more fulfilling, perhaps sculpture, or embroidery? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mostloyalruby 2013-03-14 04:12 am UTC (link)
	Oh, I'm sorry, am I being unpleasant? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notdarthrevan 2013-03-14 04:16 am UTC (link)
	I think your fowl mood, and ill temper is directed to someone who doesn't quite deserve it. I would call it more of a skin irritation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amandameyerson 2013-03-14 04:17 am UTC (link)
	Thank you for the assistance, Kytana, but she's really not worth the effort. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notdarthrevan 2013-03-14 04:20 am UTC (link)
	Perhaps not, but I felt discomforted by her petty bullying. I'm sorry I can't aid you, I can't say I am trained in what to do with a wand. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amandameyerson 2013-03-14 04:22 am UTC (link)
	Thank you for that. It's quite alright, really. I have it put away in its box in the closet and see no point in worrying about it. I'll just go back to being plain old ordinary Amanda. The way it should have been. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notdarthrevan 2013-03-14 04:31 am UTC (link)
	You are welcome. Have you tried finding a book that might aid you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amandameyerson 2013-03-14 04:37 am UTC (link)
	I'm not even sure where to begin looking, to be honest. Or what type of book to look for. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)