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Summer Adams will lick your face. (asummersday) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-02-19 13:57:00

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!open, maryanne walker (oe)

So apparently four of my best friends are dead and no one even thought to say anything to me about it but, hey, there you go. That's life, right?

And that's not even counting ~~my boyfrie~~ someone else I cared about a lot.

This week just keeps getting better and fucking better.

'Scuse me if I'm just over here not giving a crap about anything for a while.

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	the_mariner 2013-02-19 04:10 pm UTC (link)
	I know it to be so. You speak to one who has lived over 6500 years of Men, and who faces many more to come. Freedom is something for which I dearly wish, but such is my fate. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	asummersday 2013-02-19 04:13 pm UTC (link)
	Why? You immortal or something? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

the_mariner
2013-02-19 04:16 pm UTC (link)

Immortal? No.

I am counted among the Eldar, and as such my life is tied to the life of Arda. I will die, but not until the world ends, and as such my spirit remains bound to the world, despite my weariness. It was not my choice to be such. I am half-elven, and the choice is given to us to decide if we will tie our fates to that of men, or that of the elves. I would have chosen the freedom that men find in Death, but my wife wished to be counted among the elves. I would not leave her alone for such a long life without me.

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	asummersday 2013-02-19 04:27 pm UTC (link)
	Dude, that sounds really depressing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_mariner 2013-02-19 04:33 pm UTC (link)
	Depressing? Perhaps, but I have not thought of it that way. I have sacrificed much in my life, but because of it, the Peoples of Middle Earth prosper and thrive. It is my fate, perhaps. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	asummersday 2013-02-19 04:48 pm UTC (link)
	I don't believe in fate. People make their own fate. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

the_mariner
2013-02-19 04:55 pm UTC (link)

Ah.

Well, there was a prophecy made my father's father to my mother's father long before I was ever born. He said, of my grandfather's kingdom, the Hidden City of Gondolin that "Yet if it stands but a little while, then out of your house shall come the hope of Elves and Men. This I say to you, lord, with the eyes of death: though we part here forever, and I shall not look on your white walls again, from you and from me a new star shall arise."

The hope of Elves and Men is a bit of hyperbole, perhaps, but it was I who sailed to Eldamar to enlist the Valar in our hopeless battle against the Morgoth. It could perhaps be said that their help is what turned the tide of our battle, and indeed brought hope to the Kindreds. The Valar had made it clear that they would only speak to one who could speak for both Elves and Men, and I am in a unique position to do that.

And - 'A new star shall rise!' That is how my ship and myself and the Silmaril appear from the ground, a star in the heavens, bringing hope to Middle Earth. This is obviously my fate, prophesied long ago. So you will forgive me, my lady, if I do believe in fate.

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	asummersday 2013-02-19 04:58 pm UTC (link)
	Tldnr. Unless you hadn't noticed, I'm not in the mood for storytime right now. I'm too drunk for anything that requires concentration or lots of words. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_mariner 2013-02-19 05:00 pm UTC (link)
	I see. I was unaware that you had been hitting the bottle, so to speak. To summarize, there is fate, whether you wish to admit it or not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	asummersday 2013-02-19 05:04 pm UTC (link)
	In that case, it doesn't matter if I believe in it or not, does it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_mariner 2013-02-19 05:05 pm UTC (link)
	It could make your life easier, and tragedies easier to accept, but that is your choice entirely. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	asummersday 2013-02-19 05:07 pm UTC (link)
	What, so it's easier to accept tragedies if I just say, "Oh well, it was fate"? I don't think so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_mariner 2013-02-19 05:08 pm UTC (link)
	If you were not drunk, I would think you are intentionally obtuse. No, because fate happens for a reason, and a death is always easier to take when you know it has purpose. When something good comes of it, perhaps. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	asummersday 2013-02-19 05:12 pm UTC (link)
	We're never gonna agree on this. People don't die for a reason. They just die. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_mariner 2013-02-19 05:44 pm UTC (link)
	Following that logic, they live for no reason, either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	asummersday 2013-02-19 05:50 pm UTC (link)
	People live because their parents fucked once. What they do with that life is up to them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_mariner 2013-02-19 05:58 pm UTC (link)
	You would speak about your parents in such vulgarities? This is, indeed, a different world. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

asummersday
2013-02-19 07:03 pm UTC (link)

It's just the truth. People have sex, kids are born then those kids have to choose what to do with their lives. Some use them well, some blow their chance. It's not fate, it's choice. I'm not going to believe that my whole life has been mapped out for me from birth. What is the point in me even trying to be a decent person if I don't even have a fucking choice in the matter?

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