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daddyissues_ (daddyissues_) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2021-11-13 09:26:00

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abigail hobbs, katherine lokadóttir, maryanne walker (oe), thor

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First day without crying. I'm not sure whether that's a good or a bad thing.

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	maryanne_walker 2021-11-13 08:41 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry Kat. I'd say it's good, because you're able to function around the pain. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	daddyissues_ 2021-11-13 09:19 am UTC (link)
	I just don't want to forget him. It feels like he's becoming less important. It's wrong. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-11-13 10:36 am UTC (link)
	I don't think that will happen. I think we just make space. Tim will be nine in seven days, and I remember how Daryl fell asleep with him on his chest, almost every night until he was... I didn't forget him, I didn't replace him... I just made room. And Clint and Tony will never mean anything less than they did when they were here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	daddyissues_ 2021-11-13 10:54 am UTC (link)
	Kids make you remember, don't they? He will always be a part of Lucy. Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-11-14 06:08 am UTC (link)
	They do. And it'll get to a point where it doesn't hurt so much. You're welcome. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	daddyissues_ 2021-11-18 04:54 am UTC (link)
	I feel like it should always hurt. But I can't live my life like this, can I? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2021-11-18 08:04 am UTC (link)
	No. And he wouldn't want you to either. You just have to keep that in mind. He wouldn't want you in pain always. He'd want you to happy when you thought about him. Or... randy, I can't say I really knew Rhys to well. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	heir_to_odin 2021-11-13 06:39 pm UTC (link)
	A good thing, I think. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	daddyissues_ 2021-11-18 04:57 am UTC (link)
	I guess so too. It just feels wrong that it should ever stop hurting. I know I need to move on. I know he wouldn't want me to despair forever. But it just makes it so permanent. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	heir_to_odin 2021-11-18 05:39 am UTC (link)
	Maybe do not think of it so much as moving on, but more that you continue to live on carrying their memory. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	daddyissues_ 2021-11-18 06:54 am UTC (link)
	I like that. Thank you, uncle. I will tell everyone I meet about him. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Same filter abigail_hobbs 2021-11-13 07:56 pm UTC (link)
	It can just be a thing. (ooc: Is this filtered from kids as in young kids, or from her own kids like Lucy?) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Same filter daddyissues_ 2021-11-18 05:02 am UTC (link)
	I like that. I need to learn how to shut up my head, don't I? Thank you. (ooc: Young kids are excluded, Lucy is able to read it! Sorry, had my last few days at work and was super busy.) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Same filter abigail_hobbs 2021-11-19 09:04 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, just do what you need to. Trying to label stuff good and bad just complicates everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Same filter daddyissues_ 2021-11-20 12:01 am UTC (link)
	That's usually the words I speak. Shabby when you can't listen to your own advise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Same filter abigail_hobbs 2021-11-24 11:17 pm UTC (link)
	Do you want me to come over for a visit? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	lucyfightsback 2021-11-19 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	It's good. He wouldn't want us to spend our time crying. We can focus on happy memories. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	daddyissues_ 2021-11-20 12:08 am UTC (link)
	No, he wouldn't. I wouldn't if he were in my shoes. I would want him to live the most happy an fulfilled life. It's just hard. But you and the people from your timeline must know that better than anyone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lucyfightsback 2021-11-24 11:21 pm UTC (link)
	We do know loss and hardship. There's a point where you expect to lose everything. It can make us appreciate what we do have, while we have it. We still have each other and the rest of the family. (Reply to this) (Parent)