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Gen Black (blacktwin) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2017-08-04 21:18:00

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What do you do when you have time to spare? I don't know what to do all day.

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	blacktwin 2017-08-05 05:34 am UTC (link)
	I don't remember that. What is that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-05 07:21 am UTC (link)
	It is the room in the second basement that allows you to enter very dangerous situations, without the risk of death. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blacktwin 2017-08-05 09:06 am UTC (link)
	I don't want to enter dangerous situations. I want to feel safe but I can't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-05 09:32 am UTC (link)
	The only way that I know how to help you with that, my love, is to be able to measure all the dangerous, and to dominate it. But that is me, I am... what I am. But if you want something gentle and cozy to do, you could help me teach little Gen, and Nick. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blacktwin 2017-08-05 09:43 am UTC (link)
	Maybe I should try it. But I am just human, I will lose more fights than you do. What I can do is to run away. But maybe I can get better. It's very hard for me not to cry around Nick. I miss my Nick very much. But it makes me happy that they will have each other. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

weapon_x_23
2017-08-05 09:57 am UTC (link)

There are quite a few humans here, I have had it programmed to accept that into the room. And... There was a fight that you did not lose, and I did.

They are good with sorrow. I do not know how, but when I was sad over Connor, and then the times James has not been here, they have known without me telling, and comforted me. But if you would rather not, it is okay.

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	blacktwin 2017-08-05 10:06 am UTC (link)
	I did not fight that fight. That's how I did not lose. Later. I don't want to be this sad but I think I need some more time for that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-06 12:57 am UTC (link)
	You lived. That is how you did not lose. How long has he been gone? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blacktwin 2017-08-06 06:38 pm UTC (link)
	It did not always feel like that. It's been a few years. But the pain still lingers. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-07 01:29 am UTC (link)
	It does not always. Not when you lose people. That is understandable. It has been a long time since my mother was killed, and the pain is still there. I do not begrudge you your pain. I am just sorry that I could not keep you from it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blacktwin 2017-08-07 05:01 am UTC (link)
	Yes. You kept me alive. That's more than what others could do for their children. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-07 08:19 am UTC (link)
	You have to remember, they would not fault you in surviving. That is good to know. And you are here now. ~~And perhaps your Nick will~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blacktwin 2017-08-07 05:11 pm UTC (link)
	No. But sometimes I do. I am. This is a better place. It will be better for all of them. They will survive and their life will be a better one. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-08 01:14 am UTC (link)
	You should not. There is no fault in being alive. It will be insured. I hope yours will be better too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blacktwin 2017-08-08 07:16 am UTC (link)
	Sometimes it feels like there was more that I could have done. It will. But I wonder what happened to the people that are still stuck in my timeline. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-08 10:24 am UTC (link)
	You are old enough for me not to lie to you... It will always feel that way after, even if there was nothing more that could have been done. I don't know. Perhaps they will continue to trickle in. Perhaps their lives changed for the better. It is hard to say. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blacktwin 2017-08-12 07:15 am UTC (link)
	Will you always miss them this much or will it get better with peace? My guess would be that it is worse now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-12 10:05 am UTC (link)
	You will always miss them that much, but it will be less painful with time. How so? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blacktwin 2017-08-14 07:07 am UTC (link)
	Less people. There aren't that many left. The losses wear you down. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	weapon_x_23 2017-08-17 01:53 am UTC (link)
	Would they know that you were still alive? (Reply to this) (Parent)

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