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miss_greengrass 2013-06-06 02:26 pm UTC (link)

She was momentarily stunned by Draco's actions. Yes, they'd kissed the last time they saw each other, and it had been a mistake then. Why did he have to continue to do this to her?! It would have been easy to give in, to give him what he wanted form her right then and there, but Astoria found the strength to bring her hands up between them and push at his chest in an attempt to break them apart. "No. No. I did not ask you here so we could pick up where we left off! Draco I need to talk to you. I need you to hear what I have to say... Now, please, remove your hands before I end up doing something I will regret!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

dragon_star 2013-06-06 02:33 pm UTC (link)

For a moment, he was sure she was going to return the kiss, but then she was pushing him away, and he went willingly. He knew that this wasn't the way she wanted any of this, but it was necessary, in his eyes anyway. "What do you want to know? I've already told you my reasons for all of this and you're not going to be able to change my mind," he said, shifting to the opposite side of the room to look out the window at the grounds. "Your parents can sign the contract on your behalf, you know? All of this can be done without your approval, Astoria." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

miss_greengrass 2013-06-06 02:52 pm UTC (link)

"I am aware of this." Little did she know they had already been signed yet her father was giving her this time to come to terms with it. To do whatever she needed to, to accept that by law, she was now Draco's. "There is nothing that I want to know, but I do believe you should take a long look at what you are doing and know that you are only going to make things worse. Whichever one, or both of those that you are sleeping with, they are not going to be happy with you. I hate them Draco. I hate them, I want nothing to do with them, and yet at the same time you are forcing me into a role where I will have to see them on a regular basis. Where I will have to kill whatever part of me has emotions just so I can make it through whatever social function I happen to see them at. Do you understand this? That girl that you fell in love with, I can be her again, but not here. Not in this society. Pansy said it best that if I cannot see the split between a random shag and love then this is not for me. I will never accept that you have them, that I have to sit there and smile and play nice. Not when I know what is going on, or has gone on. I am willing to accept that I have no choice in the matter, but how would you feel if you suspected or knew I would have a secret lover on the side? Or to flirt with said person very openly and reminisce about our past sexual experiences together in public where everyone can read? Would you be able to accept it? I do not believe you would be able to. I hardly think it is fair for you to expect me to do so." As she spoke, Astoria pulled a handkerchief from the pocket of her apron and wiped at her eyes, forgetting that the thing still had flour stuck to it that was now sticking to the wet spots on her cheeks. "I saw the way you looked when my father mentioned an older gentleman caller. I am sure he saw it too. That is why he agreed to this arranged marriage." There was more she wanted to say, more that just wanted to keep pouring out. But, the tears just continued to flow. Merlin, she was a mess and the waterworks would not stop, so she finished there and turned her back on Draco and the room so she could save face and wipe at her eyes in what little bit of private she could find on this side of the room. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

dragon_star 2013-06-06 03:00 pm UTC (link)

Draco sighed, and leaned against the wall by the window to look at her. It looked as though it was going to be this same argument over and over, again. He had to get used to it, he supposed, or just stop indulging her in them by walking away when she started. "There is no them," he said, crossing his arm over his chest. "I told you that it's over, that I panicked and made a mistake, but I'm clear-headed now and I know what I want, what I've wanted since the first time I kissed you. I can make you happy if you let me, but if not, I'll settle for keeping you safe. Of course, one day, I expect an heir, or maybe two, but aside from that obligation, I won't expect anything other than a well kept home from you. You'll be free to pursue whatever outside interests keep you happy. I'm not going to lie to you, Stori. If that involves a lover, I will hate it, and him and do everything to see that it ends, but that aside, I love you, I always will and you will be my wife." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

miss_greengrass 2013-06-06 03:14 pm UTC (link)

Astoria had willed herself not to cry the entire time she was here, she had come close when Pansy had visited. When Pansy told her how her actions had affected everyone on some level. It seemed with Draco around, she could not hold back from crying, all the pain and anger, it was shed through tears. At the moment, all she wanted was to cross the room and fall into the couch and let the tears flow. Maybe this was what she needed, was just to let it all go. Yet, to do so would bring her closer to the one she wished to keep a distance from. Instead, she kicked off her pumps and slid down the door to sit on the floor. "How do you expect me to forget? To go on as if nothing's happened? You know, I have begged and pleaded with my parents to just obliviate me. To make me forget you, to forget all of this, so I could maybe have some semblance of a normal life. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

dragon_star 2013-06-06 03:21 pm UTC (link)

She was starting to make him angry, again. Why couldn't she just accept things, and him, the way he was? Was she that unsatisfied with him that she wanted to change everything about him? He was willing to accept her with all her flaws, and strange ideas about businesses and living without house elves. "Maybe you could just figure out a way to love me enough to let it go?" he suggested, bitterly. "I'm not going to argue with you, Astoria. Whether you want this or not, it's happening. I suggest you find a way to make your peace with it." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

miss_greengrass 2013-06-06 03:37 pm UTC (link)

"I have made my peace with it. I have no say in anything, it is going to happen. That does not mean I am happy with it. I loved you, at least I thought I did. There is still something there, I have no idea what it is." Astoria sighed, and wiped at her eyes again. "Everyone has told me that I view the world as a fairy story. I do not mean to, and I am trying, trust me I am... I am trying to see the world differently and the people in it. Everyone has their flaws, it is up to us to find someone who is willing to accept them and still want to be with us. My father told me that. I don't want to change you Draco, I just want to know how do I move on? How do I forget what has happened?" "Draco, I am trying to be honest. I am hurt. I am scared for the future. Above all else, I just want to let go of it all, so I can love you again and be able to trust you. I do not know how to do any of that. I have been told, if I don't want you to have a mistress, I should be both loving wife and mistress. How?! How do I do that? I have no experience except with you. That doesn't mean I was ever afraid to try other things, but I never knew how to say anything to you. Was that what caused you to find something else where?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

dragon_star 2013-06-06 03:46 pm UTC (link)

He sighed again. He didn't know how many more times he needed to go over this with her, to tell her why he'd done what he did, but it seemed at least once more. Once more, he told himself, and that would be done. "I told you, I was overwhelmed. I never expected to fall in love so fast, and then to come back and find out that I wasn't going to be able to be with you, all I could think of was you. Then, when it was over with Lily and I had time to thing about everything it just kind of freaked me out. Everything had happened so fast. I never meant to hurt you, and it wasn't that you weren't enough, because you are and I can promise, take an unbreakable vow if I have to, that there will never be anyone else in our marriage for me but you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

miss_greengrass 2013-06-06 04:06 pm UTC (link)

Astoria sighed and dabbed at her eyes again, before she pushed herself up to her feet and slipped back into her shoes. The tears were still there, the dull ache present in her chest but she was giving up. She knew there was no stopping what would happen and maybe that is what terrified her. She had no control over anything in her life now. At least, she'd be able to return home and hide herself away for the next couple of months if she wanted to. "You are not the only one who was overwhelmed, Draco." She crossed her arms and leaned against the door. "Just a few weeks ago, I would have agreed to the unbreakable vow, but I don't want to do anything like that. It would be wrong and force you into something you don't want. I think there's enough of that going on already." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dragon_star 2013-06-06 04:11 pm UTC (link)
	He set his jaw. She didn't know what was good for her, but that was to be expected. She was young, naive and didn't know what her aunt was asking of her, but he knew, and thankfully, so did her father. "Is that all you wanted?" he asked, shoving his hands into his pockets to remind himself that she wouldn't welcome his touch. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	miss_greengrass 2013-06-06 04:40 pm UTC (link)
	"To talk to you? TO finally say everything that I have not been able to? Yes. But, since you are here, is there anything you would like to say? Or have you and our parents satisfied with your arrangements?" The way he asked the question had stung, causing her to lash out in return. Merlin she was such an emotional wreck, she hated it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dragon_star 2013-06-06 04:45 pm UTC (link)
	"I've already said everything, Astoria. I can't help it if it's not what you want to hear," he said. Merlin, he wished that none of this had happened, that he'd never met her. Then, he wouldn't hurt seeing her cry, and he wouldn't feel the sting of her bitterness. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	miss_greengrass 2013-06-06 05:04 pm UTC (link)
	"That is where you are wrong. It is what I want to hear, just not sure if I can believe you." She frowned and moved away from the door, giving him a chance to leave should he wish to. "Whether it should or not, it feels like a betrayal, Draco. It is going to take me time to get passed that." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

dragon_star 2013-06-06 05:13 pm UTC (link)

Feeling like it would be a mistake to leave until she asked him to, he stayed put, turning back to the window, because it was easier than seeing her look so miserable at the idea of marrying him. "You've got six months to get used to the idea," he said. Their parents had agreed that no official announcement would be made until after Daphne and Michael's wedding, so she had plenty of time to reconcile herself to the inevitable. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

miss_greengrass 2013-06-06 09:01 pm UTC (link)

"I know how long I have." She snapped, glaring at Draco's back. She had originally asked her father for a year, since her and Tracey were planning Daphne's wedding, she figured that would take up at least six months out of the year, and then with her little business adventure, she could focus on that. At the same time, she hoped Draco would grow bored and move on. Her father gave her the six months. After that, they were supposed make an announcement about the wedding. Whenever Draco and her chose to get married after that, that would be where the added time came from. As she continued to glare at him, Astoria's shoulders slumped and she turned her gaze to the side to look out the window over his shoulder instead. "All I wanted was to start over, Draco. Take our time and see if down the line we were actually meant for each other. That was why I gave you your ring back." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

dragon_star 2013-06-06 11:23 pm UTC (link)

Was she going to keep forcing him into having the same conversation over and over again? It felt like they'd already had this one, as well. He sighed and leaned his head against the glass, his head starting to hurt. "You're the one that can decide how this relationship turns out, Astoria," he said quietly. "It can be difficult, or it can go easily. I've done what I can to keep you from harms way, I'll do everything I can to make sure you're comfortable and happy, but ultimately, if you're determined to be miserable, I can't do anything to change your mind." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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miss_greengrass 2013-06-07 12:45 am UTC (link)

Astoria nodded, despite the fact he couldn't see her do so. "You are right. I will do my best to make sure we are not entirely too miserable together." "I still need to get myself a roommate, but Daddy is letting me move home this weekend. There are two paths we can take from this day forward.. One, we avoid each other for another six months until we make this official and public... or... Two, how about dinner? If you would rather the world not see us together and put two and two together, I can make something to eat. And.. I promise I won't end up looking like I do now." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dragon_star 2013-06-07 04:00 am UTC (link)
	He wanted to give her enough time to get used to the idea of being his wife, but at the same time he enjoyed spending time with her, when she wasn't driving him crazy with circular conversations that didn't seem to go anywhere, so he smiled, turning back to face her. "Dinner would be lovely, Astoria," he said. "If you can stand to be in the same room with me." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	miss_greengrass 2013-06-07 12:43 pm UTC (link)
	Astoria managed an awkward sort of smile that matched the silence that lasted far too long, and lifted her shoulders in a shrug. "There is only one way to figure out if I can or not. That is to give it a shot." As truthful as her statement was, Astoria had meant it as a joke. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dragon_star 2013-06-08 04:27 am UTC (link)
	Draco didn't find the silence uncomfortable. He was enjoying it, actually, because it meant they weren't fighting, or going over the same things over again. She really was remarkably beautiful. "I'll look forward to your invitation, then," he said moving close, his lips curling ever so slightly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	miss_greengrass 2013-06-10 12:07 pm UTC (link)
	"If not this weekend... Then the next." She said, as she watched Draco start to close the distance between them. "Does this mean you would rather stay in?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dragon_star 2013-06-13 06:16 am UTC (link)
	"You're cooking, aren't you? I thought that was the point. If you'd rather I take you out instead, that can be arranged, though I suppose being seen together in public right now would violate the terms of our contract," he said, stopping in front of her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

miss_greengrass 2013-06-13 11:05 am UTC (link)

"No, I am. I just wanted to make sure that that was what you wanted." Astoria looked up at Draco as he came to a stop before her. Draco was close enough that Astoriams body began to react. Her heart thudded in anticipation and she found hard to think. At that moment all she want was for him to kiss her. Despite the wayward course her thoughts were on, Astoria was able to sound calm as she spoke again. "Is there anything in particular you would like me to make?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dragon_star 2013-06-15 01:59 pm UTC (link)
	He felt like he needed to tell her again that the only thing he wanted was her, but it was clear that she wasn't accepting of that, so he decided to leave it, unwilling to argue with her again right now. He cupped her cheek, the dragged his thumb over her bottom lip. "As long as you've made it, I'm sure it will be - delicious," he whispered. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

miss_greengrass 2013-06-15 11:45 pm UTC (link)

As if on its own volition, Astoria's hand rose to rest against Draco's as she pressed her cheek into the palm of his hand. The tip of her tongue snaked out to shadow the movement his thumb had just made against her bottom lip. The way Draco's whispered words fanned across her face had Astoria's cheeks coloring as she stepped forward. She knew she should have stepped away from him. She knew that she was crossing over into dangerous territory, but Astoria's couldn't help it as she closed what small distance was between them and took the initiative. Pressing her lips to his, Astoria kissed Draco. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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