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kristina snow has a problem with monsters (kristina_snow) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2012-08-23 11:59:00

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kristina snow, stefan salvatore

Who: Kristina & Stefan Salvatore
Where: Serpent's Den
What: Getting a drink...
When: After Flirting
Rating:R
Status:In progress

Kristina put on one of the skimpiest outfits she could find, the one she was normally seen in. Checking her makeup in the mirror she took a deep breath as she left the apartment headed to town. Not managing to find a job yet she regretted not buying a car but headed down to the bar knowing vaguely where it was. After some questioning and turning around she faced the door that read Serpent's Den, reading her PDA she was sure this was the place. Opening the door she looked around, not many people were around but then again it was one of numerous bars. Sitting down she waved at the bartender her voice soft and smooth. "Jack on the rocks please." It was turning quickly into a signature drink almost like her outfit. Timidly she downed the drink then waited wondering if the guy would be able to pick her out of a crowd.

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moreblood
2012-08-27 04:57 am UTC (link)

"No need to be nervous. I like having you here," he replied easily. He wasn't the best at flirting either, truth be told. He did have issues of his own, and was still toying with the idea of telling her. He couldn't keep the secret in the way he had with Elena. Too many people knew, but he couldn't predict her reaction either, and he didn't want her to run for the door.

He poured himself a shot, and took it. It wouldn't get him drunk in any way, but he didn't want to start thinking about cravings either. He wanted to keep those away. "This place is full of heroes and other things, and here you are with me. Who have you met so far?" It was kind of a ridiculous question, but he was testing the waters.

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kristina_snow
2012-08-27 02:08 pm UTC (link)

"I like being here, and well here with you." Her voice was sweet and almost innocent as she gazed at him wondering what he was thinking. Bree was in the back of her mind but was pretty content from her recent fix so Kristina didn't need her for confidence any time soon.

Thinking over his question she tried to recall all the people she had met from the past couple months. "I'm not sure, I have been here for a couple months. A couple girls.. Jonathan Crane, er well the old one. I think that is about it actually." Wrinking her nose she felt the warmth from the shots shoot up her spine. "Why, am I supposed to have met someone paticular?"

Biting her lip she knew it was true Colligo was full of heroes but she didn't care. Most of the time she kept to herself in the dark alley way between the library and her apartment. Shifting her weight on the chair she tried to decide for another shot yet or not. "I really only talk to those that approach me and I guess I am the type of girl who doesn't go for good guys." Instantly she regretted her comment praying he wasn't a good guy and she didn't just kill her chances.

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moreblood
2012-08-27 02:42 pm UTC (link)

"Wasn't Crane the fear toxin guy?" he asked. There was a light smile on his lips. He didn't blame her. He had spent time with Katherine, the original honey badger.

"What do you think I am? Am I some normal guy, or something worse?" In his opinion, worse, even though he had done some good. When he wasn't a ripper, he was good. Most called him a boy scout. He didn't think he deserved it. He actually hated it. He was a monster at a masquerade, but he was also harder on himself than he should be most of the time.

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kristina_snow
2012-08-27 10:48 pm UTC (link)

A nervous look crossed her face for a fraction of a second and then disappeared. "Yes, indeed he was the fear toxin guy." She decided it was probably best if she didn't bring up how she was his whore. "May I have another shot?" A giggle escaped her as she tried to steady herself on the bar stool. So only three shots made her a little tipsy but she as a lightweight anyway just by her stature alone.

Pausing she tried to make up an answer but there wasn't one on the tip of her tongue. Bree wasn't paying enough attention to the conversation to offer any help either. "I am not sure what you are. I have a thing with monsters though.." covering her mouth as her eyes got wide she tried to make up why she said that. "I mean it's just.. Well.. I think you are someone amazing!" It was a cover up and even someone who hadn't been in the conversation could have known that much.

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moreblood
2012-08-28 03:22 pm UTC (link)

"From what I've read on the net, he fooled a few people. He would have done really well with my ex. Katherine is a piece of work." He was trying to make her feel better. He couldn't really judge anyone for being taken in by someone who had a nasty streak. He had done it.

"Monsters, huh." Maybe that was the opening he was looking for. "I don't know how amazing I am as a monster. I - ", he paused, taking a deep breath. "I usually don't tell people this, but it's pretty easy to find out here. I don't really have to remain unknown like I do at home. I'm a vampire." He wasn't sure if she would believe him or not. He looked so normal, even if a little pale. He was also a daywalker thanks to the ring on his hand. He was a monster in a very nice package.

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kristina_snow
2012-08-28 03:51 pm UTC (link)

Everything he said to her made her unsure if she was too intoxicated of it it was really true. Kristina had already met a witch recently so this would be one more thing to add to her list. "Well I never would have known but here I guess it's expected. I am human!" She was trying to joke away the very awkward moment for her. With a deep sigh she leaned across the table with a serious look. "I have seen many weird things here but I never would have thought vampires lived." Please do not get us eaten Bree had come to just from the pure adrenaline that was running into her veins.

Offering a nervous smile she nudged him gently and almost gently. "I don't care what you are, you are a very nice guy who I would love to pour me another shot." Brilliant white teeth beamed up at him as she made a hopeful attempt at redeeming their flirting. "I just am not good at dealing with situations. I have no flight response and well like I said I do have a problem with monsters." It was a light tone but she was thankful about him being honest with her.

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moreblood
2012-08-28 05:21 pm UTC (link)

"Don't worry," he grinned lightly, pouring the next shot. "I won't hurt you. I promise." He knew that he could keep it together when he wanted to, and he did. If he didn't feel like he could, he wouldn't have agreed to meet anyone. "Vampires exist, but we don't exactly live. I died when I was 17, but I'm over 160 now. There are several of us here."

He set the shot on the table in front of her. "You are doing fine. Most people run from the room, or at least give me that freaked look. I do drink blood but the blood bank is keeping us with a good supply. They don't exactly know that, but we do what we have to."

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kristina_snow
2012-08-28 06:59 pm UTC (link)

Bree held a brilliant look in her eyes as Kristina freaked a little on the inside. The pure adrenaline was better than the fix had been the other night and both together was amazing. "I didn't think you were going to hurt me." I mean unless you are luring us into a terrible trap Just because Bree was confidence didn't mean Bree wanted to die. "So everything I have heard about vampires are correct except that they are just monsters in our imaginations." There really were things that went bump in the night and that bothered her.

"Eww.. So not kissing you" Sticking her tongue out she made a grossed out look then took the shot again easily. Rocking on the bar stool slightly she looked around for a watch. "Well I guess I really do have a thing with monsters." Her biggest monster was herself but no one needed to know that.

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moreblood
2012-08-29 07:02 am UTC (link)

Stefan looked down and laughed, taking another shot himself. "Did you know that alcohol makes the craving for blood much less?" He was teasing her a little about it. She was handling it pretty well, but he could tell she was nervous. "Really, I won't hurt you. I bet there is a lot about vampires you don't know. Now is your chance. Ask me anything." Now that he was talking about it, and she wasn't running away, he felt good. It actually felt good just to talk to someone.

The second bartender came by. Stefan stopped him for a minute to say he was leaving soon. It was a slow night anyway. "After all this, we could go for a walk, if you still want to."

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kristina_snow
2012-08-29 05:58 pm UTC (link)

Raising her eyebrows she grimaced slightly "No I did not know that, but I will definitely have to keep alcohol in my room now." She paused mouth open as she realized what she had said and implied. With a deep sigh she reached across the counter and ran her fingers softly down his arm watching his reaction. She did believe that he wouldn't hurt her but she wasn't going to let him know the only reason she wasn't fleeing was because she couldn't.

"I don't know a thing about vampires, other than stories and what you have told me about blood." Kristina racked her brain for questions but not many were coming up at the moment. "So what about being able to walk in light, I mean are all the old stories true?" That seemed like a general question but it made her seem interested, it wasn't that she wasn't interested she just wasn't sure how to go about things. Smiling she winked at the other bartender just out of habit but it was harmless. "I can try to walk, not very sure about my ability at this point. Why wouldn't I still want to?" She knew the reason he asked the question but she wasn't afraid of him.

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moreblood
2012-08-30 06:12 am UTC (link)

"Most of the stories, depending on what you hear, are kind of true. I can walk in the daylight, and I don't sparkle." He had heard of Twilight, and was a little horrified by the whole sparkling issue. "Most of us cannot walk in the daylight."

He leaned towards her, "I can always carry you home. We do have that strength." He grabbed a towel, wiping the bar down, getting ready to go. It wouldn't take long.

"I was 17 when I became a vampire. I was seeing a girl, and so was my brother. She was a vampire. I wanted to leave when I found out but she compelled me to drink her blood. My dad found out that she was a vampire, and they went to round them all up and trap them in a tomb. My brother and I were killed trying to help her." He shrugged, as he cleaned. "The bad thing was that she had a plan the whole time. She didn't even need us in on it." Katherine had been a real piece of work, and he was glad she wasn't still here.

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kristina_snow
2012-08-30 02:57 pm UTC (link)

"How can you walk in daylight, and when did vampires sparkle?" She tried to think of a scary story with a sparkling anything but figured it wasn't that important. Kristina really wasn't scared of him because well he seemed normal enough.

Picking up her shot glass she tried to decide if she needed another shot or not. The warmth of the alcohol kept Bree away but the adrenaline of him being a monster made Bree aware. Her insides felt like a tornado but more her mind than anything. "Alcohol makes my inner monster stay quiet.." She barely whispered the words talking more to herself than anything else. "Carrying me, now that would be a funny site. You know I would have fallen for you without knowing what you are, but knowing what you are kind of intrigues me." She wasn't sure if she could deal with having Bree aware all the time but she would try for him.

Biting her lip Kristina wondered if he had a girlfriend here or how the story ended... "Do you have family, or a girl here?"
Okay she wasn't calling him a cheater or a player she just wanted to see if there was anything to worry about. Standing up she wobbled a little but stayed on her own feet. She wasn't running she was just trying to make sure she could walk out of the place. "I don't see you as a monster, I have worse monsters than you." Didn't really make much sense to her and she figured it wouldn't to him but she was a bit drunk. Bree was a bad monster who made her burn every bridge and hurt every person she ever crossed. These were things that she wasn't going to tell him on the first date though. She was flirting and having a good time it wasn't polite to make the mood all depressed. With one blink she felt her stomach flop and bent over praying the contents stayed in.

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moreblood
2012-08-31 07:46 am UTC (link)

Stefan looked down and tapped his ring against the table. "This ring. It was given to me a long time ago, and so I've never been without it." He didn't take it off, but held out his hand so she could get a better look. "In this movie or book there are vampires that sparkle in sunlight. It's really weird."

Stefan would love to say that he was civilized, and he was most of the time. He could really fake it well, but then there were those times, when his addiction was speaking much louder, that he didn't have the same control. Instead, he chose to avoid it. Explaining his addiction wasn't something he wanted to do right now.

"My ex-girlfriend is here, along with my brother and his new wife. I kind of ruined our relationship beyond repair, and that's pretty much it. How about you? Anyone special, or a guy back home?" Discussing Elena wasn't a good idea either. He didn't think they would end up back together at any point, or it would have happened already.

He finished up his work, and picked up his jacket. "Do you want to try and walk? I wasn't joking about carrying you. It's one of those vampire benefits."

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kristina_snow
2012-08-31 03:12 pm UTC (link)

Leaning slightly over the counter she reached her hand out tentatively and took his ring hand in hers. Running her fingers over the ring she smiled glad that if she wanted to hang out with him it could be in light. "That is really kind of pretty. Sparking vampires that kind of defeats the purpose of them being evil scary creatures." As soon as the words came out of her mouth she regretted them. "I am so sorry, I mean you aren't scary or evil."

Blushing Kristina felt a ping of worry as he mentioned his ex was there. He had family there at least, but she didn't have anyone. With a deep sigh she tried to ignore the comment and replied softly "No one from back home is here, no boyfriend here either. I am just alone here by myself." Her tone was kind of making her feel like a loser all alone. For a moment she thought of back home but figured now wasn't a time for that. "No one back home either." Okay he wasn't going to believe a girl looking like she did and flirting the way she did was innocent but it was worth a shot.

Biting her lip some she wondered where the date was going from that point. "I think I can try to walk first." Laughing she turned and took a few steps wobbling. While she was waiting for him to join her she turned and called over her shoulder. "Are we going back to my place, yours, or somewhere else?" Bree flicked awake wondering why Kristina was trusting someone she just met, and a vampire on top of that.

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moreblood
2012-09-01 05:01 pm UTC (link)

There were times in his life when he was alone, years at a time actually. There were times when just the smell of a human drove him crazy. He was a lot better now. He knew that when she touched him. He enjoyed it, and he had missed it. He could still hold Elena's hand but there was something missing. "The ring is a Lapus Lazuli. It was enchanted by a witch years ago. That is how I walk in sunlight." His hand move over hers lightly. He liked the touch, and being with someone he didn't feel the need to apologize to over and over for the things he had done.

"I'm sorry there's no one here with you. I suppose you can consider it a fresh start. You can make some friends here, like me." He smiled gently, knowing she was still a bit nervous about his monster status. There wouldn't have been a way to keep it quiet. "I can't believe that back home you don't have a few men chasing you."

When she moved, he caught up quickly, putting an arm around her for support. He took her own arm and wrapped it around his waist. "It's up to you where we go. I don't live far away, or your place works too." He didn't have a roommate, so there was plenty of room and no one to answer to.

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kristina_snow
2012-09-01 05:59 pm UTC (link)

Kristina saw a flicker of something she thought but figured it was just because she was drunk. Feeling another man made her smile, it was someone she didn't have to be afraid of. Realizing that she accidently blurted "It's nice to have a guy here that I don't have to be afraid of. Jonathan.." Her voice died off suddenly as she spoke forcing her to bite her lip. She didn't mean to open up so fast but he had used her as his whore and tore down her spirit some. Shaking her head she tried again. "This place is far better than jail, and I would like to make new friends here, and maybe even more." It was a subtle hint but Kristina knew that was all it would take. "Bree had a few but no relationships so to speak." Grimicing a tiny bit she hoped he wouldn't consider her to be a whore either.

His arm around her felt nice and steadied the spinning world. In a moment she leaned into him a feeling of warmness shot through her. Looking up at him from beneath dark lashes Kristina blushed slightly. "I think your place will probably be best since I'm not sure I can make it far." After a couple steps she stumbled around and almost fell once. With a deep sigh she whispered "I'm really sorry, sometimes I think I can handle more than I should." Raising an eyebrow she wondered if her body was doing anything to him. He said alcohol helped the crave but she knew alcohol mixed with adrenaline, and the monster, would have her blood racing. Inside her mind Bree buzzed but she pretended like nothing was going through her mind.

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moreblood
2012-09-01 07:03 pm UTC (link)

Stefan had a firm grip, even if to him, she was light as a feather. "I won't do that to you. I will tell you more about Katherine sometime. She was a bitch with a bonus dose." He wasn't even sure what Jonathan had done, but that didn't really matter. From what Stefan had heard, that was a bad guy. He was on the same level as Klaus in Stefan's book. He was quite sure that he treated her better by even saying hello politely.

He was still a bit confused about Bree. He didn't realize the severity of the split. He thought it was just another name, like an alias, who seemed to take on a life of her own. He had a few of those over the years to keep from being tracked, especially when the ripper had taken control. "Bree is another person?" he asked, wishing there was a better way to ask.

He pushed the door open, calling good night over his shoulder, waving with a free hand. "You can always ride on my back, or I can carry you. It's easy. Alcohol doesn't have as much of an effect on me unless I finish the whole bottle, but it's easy to get carried away with it."

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kristina_snow
2012-09-01 07:39 pm UTC (link)

Kristina wanted so badly to believe his words and a part of her did. The small part that she was in charge of. A small laugh escaped her as he reassured her, she wasn't being rude just too drunk to manage it. "Ah, well..." The words didn't make much sense but it was some kind of response at least.

Feeling the cool air made her smile as she could smell fall around her. She thought about his question and the best way to answer it. Pausing for a moment she looked him over and decided that he deserved to know. "I used to be a straight A student. Never got into trouble, never even been with a guy. Then I went to see my father for the summer. I took my first taste of the Monster and created Bree for confidence. After that things were never the same... She ruined everything that was good to me and burnt every bridge I made. When she is in control I'm helpless like watching my life through a dream. When I am in control she can still influence my thoughts and take advantage of the situation." With a thick swallow she looked down at the ground wondering if it made sense. "Here, is a fresh start and I am trying to learn to control her. Trying to fight the urge of the monster. Alcohol helps in that area.."

For a moment she wondered what he was talking about by being carried away, and she prayed it meant alcohol. Snuggling against him she shut her eyes enjoying his presence and strength. "I've never had someone take care of me." Her words were soft and at a nod she tried to decide if she could trust him to carry her without dropping her, and without hurting her. "I guess I could let you carry me, if you don't think I am up for the walk." A teasing smile brushed her lips as she opened her eyes and looked daringly at him.

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moreblood
2012-09-01 07:51 pm UTC (link)

"What is your monster?" he asked. There was no superiority in his tone. He didn't look down on her. He had his very own monster - human blood. That monster, when in control, created a ripper. He definitely had a monster. Even though he was sure hers was a bit different, he felt the similarity. He didn't want to discuss it, as telling people that he was a relentless killer didn't often sit well. He could stay in control. He had to this time.

"It sounds like a good plan. We all need control. I do too, if that helps any." When he wasn't in control, he watched his life through a nightmare that he didn't want to relive right now. "Maybe it's better that people from your life aren't here to trigger the monster." A hand touched her cheek lightly in understanding.

His hand fell and he quickly scooped her up in his arms, looking down into her eyes. "Vampires have a bit of extra strength."

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kristina_snow
2012-09-01 07:57 pm UTC (link)

Kristina yelped being swooped into his arms but it was halfhearted and more out of surprise than anything. "A drug... So even when I am not in it's grasp I crave it and that is when Bree is the worst." Her voice was toneless as if to keep away the depressing vibe. "Being a vampire, I would assume that you need to be in control as not to kill." Smiling at him she wanted to let him know that her ex a was a serial killer and who was she to judge.

Shrugging her shoulders she pressed into him again a giggle emerging from her lips. "I trigger the monster myself, but now I have something else to spend my time with." It felt nice to flirt without hearing Bree's voice. His touch felt amazing to her, partially because of the high and alcohol. Reaching up she looped her arms around his neck and stared him in the eye. "Where to now my hero." Okay it was corny and even her voice portrayed that.

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moreblood
2012-09-02 02:50 am UTC (link)

Stefan felt the chill of her words, not that she really meant anything bad by them. It was more of the guilt factor than anything. He was a killer. "Blood is my monster," he said, not denying it. "It's my drug, and not for the recreational user." No, blood was an addiction.

"I do have to work hard to keep that control, but I can. The last time I slipped, I was trying to save my brother. It was a lot like vampire blackmail. He was dying, and a hybrid could save him, but he wanted me to drink, and to follow him in exchange. I couldn't let my brother die." It didn't make him feel better about killing, but if he had to do it again, the decision would be the same.

"My place is right up the street." He liked this. It made him feel good. Her attention made him feel good, and her opinions brought him back from such a low point. They both had some issues, but he was not one to judge.

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kristina_snow
2012-09-02 04:29 am UTC (link)

Kristina watched his face intently as he spoke to her, seeing every expression that crossed even for a moment. With a heartfelt smile she reached up and ran her finger slowly across his lips. "I know what it feels like.. I can understand you needed to save your brother." She didn't think she would ever know what that felt like because she hurt everyone she got close to.

Her finger ran from his lips down his cheek until she rested it again in her lap. Tilting her head she knew that he probably didn't want to talk all depressing the whole date. With a slow swallow she took away her questions and prying at least for the ride home. That thought inside her head made her smile while shaking it. "I guess we should head that way, I don't get lighter with time." She figured he could barely feel her in his arms but she was making a point.

As Kristina watched him she felt warm from the liquor and couldn't help but ever so carefully lean up and kiss him quickly on the bottom of the jaw. Immediately she looked down and let her cheeks turn pink. She had never done anything like this, it had always been Bree. If he was controlling his monster she would learn to control hers.

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moreblood
2012-09-03 03:45 pm UTC (link)

"You aren't heavy," he told her. He could literally throw her around, but he wasn't going to say it.

"Saving my brother cost me a lot. When I am off the wagon, I'm not very nice to be around. I hurt everyone." It was a big understatement, but he had damaged his own relationships in ways he couldn't get back, except maybe with Damon. It was strange how Stefan's own monster had brought them closer.

He smiled when she kissed him. It was nice having someone close again. She liked him, and she forgave him. As promised, it wasn't a long walk either, and soon he was pushing the door open with his foot, and proceeding up the stairs to his room.

"It isn't much," he said as they entered. He set her down gently. The decor was sparse. He liked books and antiques, and they were neatly displayed around the room. He walked her to the sofa to sit and relax.

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kristina_snow
2012-09-03 06:23 pm UTC (link)

Looking around the room Kristina tried to get her barring but the alcohol was kicking in the longer she stayed awake. Stumbling she landed on the couch next to him with her head in his lap facing up at him. Grinning she surveyed the room "Nice place, no roommate I take it? I have one but I have never spoken to her oddly enough." Reaching up she ran her hand over his face remembering his words.

"I don't think you would ever hurt me, I also don't think you have met anyone to accept who you are and not blame you for that." Kristina could relate more than most people to not being accepted for her addiction. Most people just didn't see her monster the way she did, it wasn't something she wanted to do, and it wasn't something she could stop.

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moreblood
2012-09-05 06:11 am UTC (link)

"Nope. I really don't want one either." Really, other than Damon, Stefan didn't like roommates. He didn't really trust them, and due to his nature, he really didn't need the questions. He did actually miss having his brother around, but at the same time, he enjoyed the time alone.

Her words made him smile. That might have been the first time he had heard that. He blamed himself for his own actions. He loathed who he was most of the time, but this was the first time that someone had really voiced it. "I do know that it's my fault, not that I was in control. It's nice to find someone who gets it. I would have loved to stop, to be able to control it, and it's still hard. One of my friends knows how to get me back, but the rest - tried." He bit his lip. He felt like they wrote him off, but he had made it back anyway. It was just too late.