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Rachel Summers/Phoenix | Rachel Anne Grey-Summers (cosmicflame) wrote in colligo_network,
@ 2011-09-19 02:14:00

Entry tags:

charles xavier, forge, kitty pryde, lorna dane, rachel summers, raven xavier, rogue

[Intended-but-neglected-to-filter to the X-Mansion]
I feel so guilty looking at people and knowing what happened to them in my time and not saying anything, especially when I'm responsible. I'm just going to be very fast.

I knew Charles when I was a kid but the army killed him in front of me when I was fourteen. And Erik took over for him and I really admired him but we had to leave him behind in the camp because he'd been crippled. And I didn't knew Forge's reputation but didn't really know him. And Kitty was like another mom to me and my best friend but she made me go back in time and I just know the Sentinels killed her because she was trapped. And Logan was killed by the Sentinels and I felt it in my mind. And Raven was one of the reasons everything was so horrible because she killed Senator Kelly and that set off all the anti-mutant regulations. And I didn't know Rogue.

But when I went back in time, Charles was alive and walking until the Shi'ar took him away. And Erik reconciled with him and again took over for him like in my time but without the death. And Forge made a stupid neutralizing gun that was going to be used on Rogue but Ororo took the hit instead and lost her powers. And Kitty was younger than me instead of older and she was a teenage mutant ninja and my friend again. And Logan meant to kill me because I was going to kill Selene and that's why I was dying when I came here. And Raven somehow got her cronies together in a government-sponsored mutant-catching team. And Rogue was really cool except when she thought I was crazy and turned on me.

I'm so, so, so sorry, Aunt Lorna. They made me into a Hound and I never, ever wanted to hunt you down like that, but I couldn't stop it, so it's my fault they killed you and captured Uncle Alex, and he ended up dying, too. I wish I could've known you when I went back in time, but I'm glad I didn't have to look you in the eye. But now you're here and barely older than me.

[OOC: tl;dr? Days of Future Past vs. X-Men comics timeline, Erik was made of win, Raven was made of fail, Logan tried to kill Rachel, and Lorna was totally Rachel's aunt-by-marriage]

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	_maker_ 2011-09-19 10:19 pm UTC (link)
	dude no way i did what???? who's ororo? (Reply to this) (Thread)

cosmicflame
2011-09-19 11:56 pm UTC (link)

Shoot, I didn't mean to say so much.

Ororo Munroe, Storm, one of the X-Men. You were a weapons contractor for the government, and they decided to play with your prototype without your authorization, and since Rogue used to be a terrorist, they decided she was the perfect test subject. It neutralized superpowers. I wouldn't be surprised if they adapted your technology for the inhibitor collars they used to make us wear in the camps.

Anyway, poor Ororo. But she was still nobody to mess with even without her weather powers.

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	passingthrough 2011-09-20 12:14 am UTC (link)
	Wow. Um. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 12:23 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I just felt like I had to say it and I never meant to do it like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	passingthrough 2011-09-20 11:17 am UTC (link)
	Dude, it's okay, that's just a lot of information. And, I mean, we all have to die sometime and there aren't any Sentinels here. I was more going "wow" at the stuff about everyone else. You okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 06:35 pm UTC (link)
	Ohhh. I assumed. Thank you, Kitty. Do you have a junk food stash? I could really use something. Mortified. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	whoeveryouwant 2011-09-20 03:18 am UTC (link)
	[ooc: blank post is blank!] (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 03:22 am UTC (link)
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	whoeveryouwant 2011-09-20 03:29 am UTC (link)
	This is stupid. I'm not her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 03:35 am UTC (link)
	I'd noticed, you know. You grew up with Charles, you aren't Rogue's foster mother, you haven't killed a senator, you aren't a terrorist, and many many other differences. But that's what I knew of you before. I didn't mean to go saying all of that, and I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	whoeveryouwant 2011-09-20 03:38 am UTC (link)
	... Rogue's who to the what now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 03:40 am UTC (link)
	In the other timelines, you took Rogue in and you were ~~one of~~ her foster mother ~~along with~~. I'm not sure if you were older or not. It's really hard to tell, with powers like yours, how old you actually are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	whoeveryouwant 2011-09-20 03:42 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, ~~Hank~~ Beast said that much. Not about the foster mother thing but about me not aging right. But I'm not sure I can see some Senator killing version of me adopting some kid, either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 03:46 am UTC (link)
	I guess the other versions of you had a soft spot where Rogue was concerned, although it didn't stop the other you from using her. Maybe having a partner helped with the personal life. Not a legal adoption, but in all the ways that counted. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	whoeveryouwant 2011-09-20 03:50 am UTC (link)
	I had a partner? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 03:53 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. You led a team and all, but you had a partner-partner for decades. Irene Adler, aka Destiny. She was a precog. So, I think you were older than you looked because she was fairly aged herself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	whoeveryouwant 2011-09-20 04:02 am UTC (link)
	So I was what? A leader of some mutant terrorist group that was also into girls? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 04:06 am UTC (link)
	If you want to put it that way! (Reply to this) (Parent)

bardcore
2011-09-20 03:32 am UTC (link)

I have never believed in censoring the people in my home. People should be free to express their feelings. And I respect the things you've gone through in your life. I cannot imagine how difficult it was.

That said, this is also Raven's home. She is my sister and I will not have her feeling uncomfortable in her own home. And whatever she may have done in your reality, it is not the same as ours. I know Raven, and she never would have done that.

So I will have to ask you to keep her feelings in mind. And if you can't move past your own feelings where my sister is concerned, knowing she has not done and likely never will do the things you have said, then I am uncertain where to proceed from here. As I said, this is as much Raven's home as mine and I won't have her feeling as if she is an outcast here.

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cosmicflame
2011-09-20 03:39 am UTC (link)

I didn't mean to go blabbing everything like that, especially that way! It just happened, and I know she isn't the same, Professor! I'm not stupid and it's not the first time I've had to deal with alternate versions of people I knew. It's hard to get past, yeah, but you know what? When Annie was dying and you nearly died with her, I could feel just how much you and Raven loved each other. How could I think Raven was that same woman after feeling that? I never meant to make her uncomfortable, okay?

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	whoeveryouwant 2011-09-20 03:40 am UTC (link)
	It's fine. I mean, it's not fine, but... it's not her fault, either. She can't help where she's from or what she knows anymore than we can. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	untouchable 2011-09-20 03:43 am UTC (link)
	And yet still not as weird as me and ~~Magneto~~ Erik hooking up and having a kid. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 03:47 am UTC (link)
	... Okay, I don't even know how that would work, but that's really eewwww. To borrow from Forge, :( (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

untouchable
2011-09-20 03:49 am UTC (link)

Yeah. Something about electromagnetic fields around the body and how he could manipulate them so we could touch and... now my mind is going to a really scary visual place.

But suffice to say, in that reality, we had a son that we named Charles, after the Professor. And considering, in my reality, ~~Magne~~ Erik is the reason I have my white streaks and would have killed me if it wasn't for Logan... I really just can't see it.

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cosmicflame
2011-09-20 03:57 am UTC (link)

That doesn't really make sense to me. Then again, my mom could make it so my dad's optic blasts wouldn't burst out, so maybe whatever the energy signature of your power is... Really, let's just not think about it too much. I don't need my mind going where your mind's going.

~~I wonder if the part of your brain~~

Oh, that's a different way to get them! When I knew you, I'm not totally sure if they were natural or if you actually bleached them in. I've seen pictures of them styled like you have them, around the front, but then I've also seen them as two streaks running back, and also as one big white streak down the center when I knew you. Maybe that was just the way you combed your hair, though, and it actually was around your face. Nothing to do with Erik, in any case.

Logan does get involved a lot in homicidal situations.

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untouchable
2011-09-20 04:01 am UTC (link)

Oh. You're talking about what I called the skunk!look when I first showed up. That's... definitely not me. And I'm not sure why some other version of me would bleach parts of my/her hair white but... I can't really see why other!me would do half the things I/she does, either. As for me, it had everything to do with him and how he almost killed me.

Logan has saved me more times than I even want to think about. That time - the time my hair wound up white - almost killed him. He's the closest thing to family that I've got.

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cosmicflame
2011-09-20 04:10 am UTC (link)

I wasn't going to call it that, but I can see the skunk comparison, yeah. Even just in the time I knew you, you changed your hairstyle and cut a few times. Maybe the white was just part of your mutation.

Did you somehow absorb his hair color? Or was it some sort of electromagnetic pigment deadening?

I know what that's like. In my own time, Logan and I were that close. When I went back in time, though, we didn't really click any more.

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	polarising 2011-09-20 03:47 pm UTC (link)
	Aunt Lorna? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cosmicflame 2011-09-20 06:36 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I think you can figure out how that happened. (Reply to this) (Parent)