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Hawke was born the (victimofaname) wrote in chances_net,
@ 2024-07-08 16:15:00

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dc: dick grayson (comics), ~ex: dragon age anders, ~ex: dragon age fenris, ~ex: dragon age hawke, ~ex: marvel carol danvers (mcu)

At this point, you know what why not? This is fine. Everything is fine. At least nothing's bloody green. Or filled with spiders.

...if there's spiders please. No. Let me dream.

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hawke.

mages
2024-07-10 01:01 pm UTC (link)

Not all of us can be so lucky. Only half? I'll take it. I would have thought it was more than that.

Be careful. That's how you get venereal diseases.

I've been doing research since we left Kirkwall, following every lead I could. It's all theory and most of them nearly impossible. And the anger. Sometimes it's all I feel, burning in the centre of my chest and I can't think of anything else. We can't keep living this way. We just can't.

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Anders

victimofaname
2024-07-10 02:04 pm UTC (link)

There would be more, but you know, there's the rest of the family. Merrill's at least a third of it, and the reason it's not a larger number is that I share custody with Varric.

I'll pass.

Who says it's impossible, though? I'd like to remind you I fell into the literal, physical, Fade (an impossibility) and Corypheus was said to be one of the Blight giving Magisters from ye old times (also an impossibility). Have you tried them? Because we won't know they're impossible until we do.

Look, I can't help with the anger. I live with it too. My way of dealing with it is hitting the cause of the problem until it stops being a problem, so in that regard, I'm not helpful.

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	hawke. mages 2024-07-11 01:04 am UTC (link)
	~~Merrill~~ I would have assumed she and I were about equal. Most should. I haven't. I'm [......] honestly afraid. No one has even attempted and of this, and I don't have the power to try on my own. ~~I've been~~ Not without putting those I care about in danger. If the problem wasn't me, I would try your way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders victimofaname 2024-07-11 01:38 am UTC (link)
	If I didn't have shared custody, sure. Well I get the worry but we can't keep being afraid. Walk me through the concerns. Because we have Beth with us. Which solves some of the power issue. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hawke. mages 2024-07-11 04:10 pm UTC (link)
	Have you ever considered shared custody of me then? It might save you a grey hair and a wrinkle or two down the line. I know. It does, but I can't ask her to risk herself for me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders victimofaname 2024-07-11 04:20 pm UTC (link)
	You act like I'm not sharing custody. I mean, you can. As much as I worry about the little bird, she's come into her own. Don't tell her I said it, though, but she knows her limits. What about looking for a way to potentially limit any damage? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hawke. mages 2024-07-11 05:01 pm UTC (link)
	Should I ask what other unfortunate soul has that unwanted task? I'll keep that secret for you, Hawke. And I don't doubt her skills. I just can't have her blood on my hands too. That is something I've been working on. It's why I don't have the power for any of these rituals myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders victimofaname 2024-07-11 05:25 pm UTC (link)
	I'll let you guess. Makes it fun for me. You do see how you're running into walls here, right? Either you let us help, and trust people know their limits, or you can get stuck in what-if's. And you have to talk us through it. Shouldering it alone, and being unhelpfully vague I can tell what you're doing there, isn't going to help anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hawke. mages 2024-07-11 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	I can already rule out at least four people. It's what I've always done. Sometimes, bruising myself that way is better than the alternative. I know. Hawke, I know. I trust all of you. The problem is that I don't trust myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Anders

victimofaname
2024-07-11 08:47 pm UTC (link)

Can you though? How sure are you of that?

You know self punishment isn't effective. All you get by saying you're a bad person or how you don't trust yourself is stagnation. Effective change is doing it.

You're still being unhelpful.

Our biggest problem is Justice, right? Wild take, why don't we try talking to him. Aren't his main points he doesn't want out because a)the injustice of the world (which, buddy I get you, I'm right there) b)he may be a little worried about the after? We can't solve the first, alas, and I'm not saying he'll believe us right away, but if we can promise him an after might that not work? I know you guys are more entangled then I'm making it out to be, but isn't it worth a shot?

Leap into the abyss, etc etc.

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	hawke. mages 2024-07-11 11:06 pm UTC (link)
	Decently certain. You make change sound so easy, Hawke. ~~I'm t~~ If you want to talk to him directly, we can find a way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Anders

victimofaname
2024-07-11 11:11 pm UTC (link)

You'd be surprised how many people actually care about you.

Look, I get it. My own failings haunt me every day. But I got to keep flying, or I'll crash. We just got to find a metaphysical cliff to throw you off so you'll get moving. Unfortunately for you, you don't get the very cool dragon/lady giving you sage life advice, you just get me.

It's worth a shot, isn't it? And don't worry about me, I'll be fine.

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	hawke. mages 2024-07-11 11:54 pm UTC (link)
	You're right. I would be. I ~~Your f~~ I don't know that I would have taken advice from a woman who was also a dragon, Hawke, which may be a failing on my part honestly. I know you will be. You always make it out, Hawke. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders victimofaname 2024-07-12 12:05 am UTC (link)
	Spoiler for you, it is all of us, you know. Don't make me reinstate the 'make sure Anders eats' protocol. She was very convincing. And scary. And really cool. One day, I too will know how to turn into a dragon. Or a dog. It is my curse. Anyway, set it up. We got to try something. I'm not letting you spiral. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

hawke.

mages
2024-07-12 12:16 am UTC (link)

I think Sebastian might have something to say about that. You know, I saved a letter he wrote me after everything and it's just as funny now as it was when I first read it. I have to admit, I'm annoyed his handwriting is so nice.

It wasn't a bad protocol. I forget more often than I remember.

A woman who could turn into a dragon would be rather convincing, I'd think. No world is ready for you to learn how to do that, Hawke.

I'll [....] try to talk him into it, but you have to promise me something.

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Anders

victimofaname
2024-07-12 12:22 am UTC (link)

We don't count Sebastian, he's kicked off the team. He'll be lucky I don't stab him on sight next time I see him, the sanctimonious prick.

Re-instating it as we speak then.

The only way we know the Maker's real is because He saw me and decided that it'd be the worst idea to give me the magic in the family. But one day. Oh, one day.

I'm not stabbing you, but sure. Shoot.

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	hawke. mages 2024-07-12 12:25 am UTC (link)
	What was the final straw? I need to know so I don't get kicked out, too. Probably for the best. If he is real, we can say his sense of humour leaves a lot to be desired in general. You might have to, Hawke. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Anders

victimofaname
2024-07-12 12:29 am UTC (link)

Are you going to tell me my mother's sin would carry over in the Maker's hall, and then try to take over Kirkwall because you got pissy about things? That and he threatened my family. You don't get to do that and live.

Andraste's sainted tits Anders. Can we just settle on if I have to I'll punch your lights out? Although, I may have an idea if you're concerned about things.

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	hawke. mages 2024-07-12 12:36 am UTC (link)
	I can't say I would, Hawke. On any of those counts. I owe you and your family too much besides. Colourful. What's your idea? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders victimofaname 2024-07-12 12:51 am UTC (link)
	Yeah so don't worry about it. I have to talk to Fenris, actually. Are you okay if he's included on this talk of ours? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hawke. mages 2024-07-12 12:53 am UTC (link)
	I don't mind. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders+Fenris victimofaname 2024-07-12 12:58 am UTC (link)
	Fenris if you can see this let me know. I need to ask you some probably invasive and sensitive questions. Full permission to come punch my lights out if I'm pushing anything. For reference, I want to discuss the markings. And discussing their possibilities. You can tell me to fuck off, I'll accept it, but I'm trying to help Anders. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders+Fenris+Hawke broody 2024-07-12 01:06 am UTC (link)
	Isabela has asked more invasive questions about the markings than I can count. It's unlikely you can surprise me at this point, but I welcome the attempt. At least you won't wonder why I don't have lyrium breasts tattooed to my chest. Go on. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders+Fenris+Hawke victimofaname 2024-07-12 01:12 am UTC (link)
	With every intent that I never want to make you feel like I'd make you do anything you didn't want to, and if you say no I fully accept this. Could you, theoretically, do what a Templar could and nullify magic? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Anders+Fenris+Hawke broody 2024-07-12 01:23 am UTC (link)
	Thank you, Hawke. I trust you, but it still means a great deal to me that you said that. Theoretically, yes. The lyrium acts as a natural nullifying agent. Our only issue is that I cannot control when or what it reacts to, I can only surmise when it will activate. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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