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red4rose (red4rose) wrote in breaking_point,
@ 2010-12-08 11:52:00

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*complete, 2025 12, character: rose granger, character: scorpius malfoy

RP: Rose and Scor
Who: Rose Granger, Scorpius Malfoy
Where: Granger-Weasley Home, London
When: 8 December 2025
Summary: Scor comes to visit Rose

Her weekend had been miserable; the worst since her hospitalization. While Lily's death left her in a void of emotion, her talk with Bryn left her sinking deeper than she though possible. She had been making progress, but with idea of actually losing Bryn kicking her in the head, Rose lost a little more hope that recovery was even worth it. Her family sent many things to help cheer her up, which she appreciated. Yet, nothing seemed to do much help.

By the time Wednesday rolled around, she was feeling semi-social and human-like, which was a good thing since Scor was coming by for a visit. Therapy that morning had gone well. They discussed the possibility of getting a new job; what interested her and where she could see herself working for a long period of time. By the time the session was over, Rose realized she had gone an entire hour and hadn't thought of Bryn once.

Afterward, she walked around London as part of her routine before returning home at noon. Even though her appetite was still lacking, Rose set out to make lunch for herself and Scor, who she imagined would be starved after practice. Whipping up a meal of Shepherd's pie, Rose slid the dish into the oven in time for it to be complete by her friend's arrival.

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scorchaser
2010-12-22 06:42 am UTC (link)

"I always look forward to seeing you," Scorpius said honestly. With her, he didn't have to pretend, or play games.

He had to force himself to swallow when she spoke. "He is so full of shit. It wasn't a mistake. The only mistake was us thinking he was more of a man. If things aren't going perfectly, you work them out, you don't go fucking anyone else, even if you are lonely." He stopped talking and bit his lip, realizing that he was talking about Lori, and all those things he didn't really say. "I'm sorry."

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red4rose
2010-12-22 01:56 pm UTC (link)

After taking a deep breath, she sniffed and wiped the tears away quickly. Frowning, Rose reached her arms over and gave him a hug. "I'm sorry you had to go through all that," she said. "And I'm sorry talking to me brings all those bad memories up again."

She gave him a final squeeze and looked down at her plate. She barely ate half of her small portion, yet she felt like she couldn't take another bite. The thing was he was partly right; they don't know each other very well. Still, Rose always thought that was part of being part of a relationship; learning the strengths and weaknesses about the other person until even their flaws make you love them despite the fact those same flaws probably drive you crazy.

"It's my fault really; I pushed him into getting married," she finally said. "I thought if there was just a little bit of happiness and joy in the world; I wouldn't be so sad anymore."

She let out a bitter sigh. "Some brilliant witch I turned out to be." No wonder Mum sees you as such a disappointment.

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scorchaser
2010-12-22 04:47 pm UTC (link)

"I know, and it's fine. I can say that now and mean it. He obviously wasn't half the person I thought and I should have seen it, but I learned. There are days when I still miss him, but I can say that I have moved on." He turned and smiled. There were no more tears, even if he felt a bit of residual sadness for what could have been.

"What did you do? Twist his arm and drag him? You didn't do that. You wanted to be happy." He would have done the same thing at one time. "You are not stupid, or maybe I was. We are both going to be fine. We find ways to be happy that don't involve men, except in the physical sense."

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red4rose
2010-12-22 05:38 pm UTC (link)

She knew he was trying to cheer her up; shine a little light into the very dark space Rose hid herself in. However, hearing him basically say she should move on and learn to live with Bryn, hurt so much. Of course, it had always been in the realm of possibilities, but she did everything she could to keep the thought away. Please Merlin, don't let that happen. Make me well enough that Bryn remembers why he fell in love with me...

"You were not stupid; you were in love," Rose said. "Love can make you stronger than you thought possible, but it can also break you into pieces so small it would take years to repair."

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scorchaser
2010-12-22 09:21 pm UTC (link)

Years to repair, he repeated to himself. "It felt like it would take years," he admitted. He wasn't sure that he had a good answer to that. "You have to remember that you can't live for someone else. You can't put so much into it, that you forget who you are." He raised a brow, knowing that was the right answer, at least for him.

"My big problem was that I lost sight of that. Trying to twist myself into some pretzel and be all things to all people - I was ridiculous. I wouldn't have been happy like that and neither will you. Do something for yourself, and you might be happy again. You will be amazed how much better you feel, and how people will see you differently. You will get yourself back."

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red4rose
2010-12-23 02:27 pm UTC (link)

Doing something for herself was never an easy task for Rose because much like her Gran, she preferred to think of others first. However, she was also used to doing things on her own. She got her first job because she visited Flourish and Blotts so much she knew where everything was; her trips to the museums over breaks were caused by her own interest. Merlin, why can't I go back to when things made sense?

"I'll try."

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	scorchaser 2010-12-25 07:51 pm UTC (link)
	Reaching over, he wrapped an arm around her. "You know, it will work out. You will feel right again, even if I have to give you funny potions." He pulled back and smirked, showing that he was joking. "You are beautiful. You just need to believe it again." He kissed the side of her face before releasing her. "Now eat something and don't make me feel like such a pig." (Reply to this) (Parent)

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