Charles Darnay Has Shitty Shitty Luck (sans_evremonde) wrote in angelnet, @ 2013-11-17 05:21:00 |
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Current mood: | blah |
Entry tags: | charles darnay, courfeyrac |
I do so hate to bring this up and, well, ruin things for everyone here by putting a bit of a damper on it, but I have found I am not settling here well as I'd like. Old beasts attack at night, old memories and whispers both of what I've left behind for the good, but also the darkness of my cell, clash of the guillotine, and knowledge that I was condemned and deservedly so if it would end one victim's pain.
I do deserve what I face now, and it is the least of those things that I DO deserve but I cannot function well, or teach my students what I need to if I cannot sleep or focus in the hours of the school day.
This world, this vast new century seems to have most anything else that one could want in it. I do not ask forgiveness. That is God's to give and those who have been wronged, but I would, if I could ask it, wonder if there is some means to help me learn how I might cope with what I face to go on living here?
-Ch. Darnay