|Enjolras isn't a statue, really (solo_patria) wrote in valarnet,|
@ 2013-05-22 02:10:00
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I am a bit embarrassed to be asking this on the valarnet of all places, particularly when there are much larger, more important issues to hand right now, but I can NOT keep myself from doing so anyway. Discovering myself, I will be honest and admit to it being myself, there is no good in pretending otherwise, in love with a good friend, a love that cannot possibly be returned due to sexual orientation of at least one of the two potential parties here, has left me confused as to what I ought to be doing next.
Another of our friends suggests that I come out and say it, and take the chance at happiness, but again, I do not think that this friend is like me, and so would never understand where I am coming from, it would cause unhappiness if we tried, and I am relatively content in our friendship the way it is. I only...
The last few weeks, I have considered whether or not we might become something more and whether it is worth attempting such a thing. I did not even know that I could love until so recently, so I am especially confused to find myself in this position. The thing is that, should there be the slightest chance this becomes more, it would be the most amazing thing that has come into my life.
On the flip side, it is patently unfair to ask someone I care for whether they would deal with ME, particularly when they are doubtlessly of a different mindset and preference set than I am, so of course I should not do it.
I am so used to being decisive in all things that I am not sure what's to be done now, but some advice on either side would be incredibly appreciated.