Oh, I know that such things are beyond me, since I am too much in love with the outdoors. But there is still the need for friends and I know that there is more some people want that is beyond friends. Again, for better or worse!
I should not encourage overly much, because you need to find your way through this and decide to go forward! But I think the only way to find out IS to take the leap and see where you fall, either on the ground or - if you're lucky - someone will catch you. :)