|Zero Kiryuu (notamasochist) wrote in marinasylum,|
@ 2012-04-27 10:56:00
|Entry tags:||ciaphas cain, gir, kitty pryde (evolution), sakura kinomoto, sollux captor, soubi agatsuma, yuri lowell, zero kiryuu|
ANONYMOUS BULLETIN BOARD MESSAGE
[Patrolling again, Zero makes his way around the dome during which there is a brief stop off at the shelter billboard. People don't do this as often as they used to, but Zero needs help and it's not the type of personal information he's willing to talk to anyone about face to face.
Yuuki is also not the type of person to wander across the the dome and go to the shelter for no reason. At least he doesn't hope so. Either way, he's going to have to keep a closer eye out for her tonight on his rounds. The very last thing he needs is her finding something like this.
Ensuring that there was no one else in sight, Zero tacks up the paper on the bulletin board before fading into the streets of Marina with only the prints of his shoes in the snow as proof that he was there.]
I swore I would never do this...
Here's the short version to start with.
You've been in love with someone for years. You're content and happy just being by their side without any ulterior motives other than seeing them happy. A romantic relationship with this person isn't an option for you for various reasons that have to do entirely with you and nothing with them. They are clueless to your feelings and that's for the best since even if they reciprocated, nothing would ever come of it.
This person lands up in a romantic relationship with your worst enemy. This results in your friendship being fractured and non-existent. Both of you say things you can't take back and part ways intending to never have anything to do with each other after that. You are okay with this because you know they are happy and have gotten what they wanted, you have no regrets as you made your feelings for this person known before leaving their side.
Except after a time they suddenly show back up again. The romantic relationship has apparently fallen apart, leaving them devastated. During the absence they have suddenly come to the conclusion that they have been in love with you and just didn't realize it. They want your friendship back and for your relationship to be like it was in the past.
The issues that prevent you from pursuing them were resolved and no longer hold you back. Friendship isn't enough anymore.
Having just gotten out of a relationship, they say they aren't ready and just want to start by picking up the fractured pieces of the friendship and see where it goes from there. You agree and things fall back into relative normalcy considering how they were prior.
The problem is, any pressure beyond that is met with resistance and I'm beginning to wonder if just this shred of hope is their way of not losing me again. That friendship is all it will ever be...