Severus T. Snape (snark_master) wrote in colligo_threads, @ 2009-09-27 17:26:00 |
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Who: Sev and Lily P.
When: Tonight, around the time Cassidy Casablancas decides to 'blow' off some boredom.
Where: In the city and then behind Building C
What: No more of this 'handling things on his own' business, Lily's set out to find Sev, she wants to help with this 'fear of hurting her' Severus has.
Rating/Warnings: Possible swearing, explosions, someone is bound to get hurt - but don't worry, nothing permanent.
Status: In progress, closed.
The nightmares had diminished, somewhat, since Severus removed himself from the same housing complex Lily lived in. They were not gone altogether, however, a few sleepless nights were better than no sleep at all. And as long as Lily was happy and safe, which she was, Severus would continue in his currently living arrangements.
Other than this move, Severus really had no idea how to face his greatest fear. He had already hurt Lily too many times, and he had proof that this was beyond him to figure out. As those infernal books had shown he was destined to turn into a bitter, cruel, joyless man (which he saw as different from his current condition, as he did have moments of pure happiness, when he was around Lily). Lily had offered to help, but he couldn't see how she could, as his fears centered around him hurting her.
At least the Dark Lord wasn't really there, threatening Lily's life, just a demon floating around making people wallow in their own fears. Which was still reason enough for Severus to make sure he wasn't around Lily, he had hallucinated once already, no telling if he would do that again, or what he might do next time.
Until he figured out how to face his fears he would stay away from Lily.
But that meant another night in the old, abandoned warehouse Merlin had found - not that Merlin was poor company.
Severus was done with work for the day, it was late, and he had decided walk back to the warehouse instead of disapparating. He found walking helped clear his thoughts before sleeping. The clear, dark skies seemed to promise dreamless sleep, Severus hoped that would hold true for the night.