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Severus T. Snape (snark_master) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2009-09-27 17:26:00

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Who: Sev and Lily P.
When: Tonight, around the time Cassidy Casablancas decides to 'blow' off some boredom.
Where: In the city and then behind Building C
What: No more of this 'handling things on his own' business, Lily's set out to find Sev, she wants to help with this 'fear of hurting her' Severus has.
Rating/Warnings: Possible swearing, explosions, someone is bound to get hurt - but don't worry, nothing permanent.
Status: In progress, closed.

The nightmares had diminished, somewhat, since Severus removed himself from the same housing complex Lily lived in. They were not gone altogether, however, a few sleepless nights were better than no sleep at all. And as long as Lily was happy and safe, which she was, Severus would continue in his currently living arrangements.

Other than this move, Severus really had no idea how to face his greatest fear. He had already hurt Lily too many times, and he had proof that this was beyond him to figure out. As those infernal books had shown he was destined to turn into a bitter, cruel, joyless man (which he saw as different from his current condition, as he did have moments of pure happiness, when he was around Lily). Lily had offered to help, but he couldn't see how she could, as his fears centered around him hurting her.

At least the Dark Lord wasn't really there, threatening Lily's life, just a demon floating around making people wallow in their own fears. Which was still reason enough for Severus to make sure he wasn't around Lily, he had hallucinated once already, no telling if he would do that again, or what he might do next time.

Until he figured out how to face his fears he would stay away from Lily.

But that meant another night in the old, abandoned warehouse Merlin had found - not that Merlin was poor company.

Severus was done with work for the day, it was late, and he had decided walk back to the warehouse instead of disapparating. He found walking helped clear his thoughts before sleeping. The clear, dark skies seemed to promise dreamless sleep, Severus hoped that would hold true for the night.

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willow_wand
2009-10-05 03:38 pm UTC (link)

Lily opened her mouth to scream, surprised by the sudden flash of light and heat, but the sound was lost in all the noise. The light was white and yellow and orange like fire, it wasn't green, but it still immediately reminded her of the last thing she'd seen before arriving in Colligo: the bright green flash of a killing curse. However, the sting in her lungs from the smoke quickly brought her out of those thoughts. If she could cough, then she wasn't dead.

She hadn't realized that she'd fallen. What on earth had happened? And where was Severus? She could still hear debris falling to the ground so out of instinct she flung her arms up to protect her head. "Sev?" she called, but she couldn't even hear herself. She was pretty sure he couldn't hear her either.

Things started to quiet, but somewhere an alarm was screeching. She blinked, trying to see through the haze and locate Severus. He was sitting up, but she couldn't tell if he was hurt. She pushed herself up as well. Her elbow was scraped from the sidewalk and she could feel a small trickle of blood from a cut on her temple. She reached up to wipe some of the blood away with her hand to keep it out of her eye.

"Are you okay? What the bloody hell just happened?" she called over at Severus, wondering if the ringing in his ears was as bad as the ringing in hers.

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snark_master
2009-10-08 03:02 am UTC (link)

Relief flooded Severus's mind when he heard the deceivingly distant voice of Lily calling for him. He rushed, or more half scooted, half crawled, to her side, momentarily grateful, for the fact she was still alive, but his elation dissolved when he saw the injuries she had sustained. The scrapes on her elbows could be healed easily enough, but a gash to the head could be just the surface of something more severe.

Thoughts raced through his brain, most of the centered around the idea that this was somehow all his fault. Maybe if he hadn't walked back with Lily, or had just apparated to the warehouse instead of walking back from work so that Lily would never have found him, or a thousand other possibilities - but all because of him.

Lily was hurt because of him.

"God, Lily," he could barely hear himself talk and was unsure if Lily even heard him. "Where are you hurt?" He didn't want to risk having her move just to cause more harm, but then he wanted more than anything to get away from the burning remains of that car.

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