"It didn't feel like a lie at the time," Faith said. She knew that didn't make it any better but it really hadn't. "Stefan and I talked on the way home from LA and I told him that I wanted to be with you. He said he wouldn't get in the way of that. I thought things were done between us. I should have told you the whole story but I didn't." Because she already had enough ex boyfriend/girlfriend baggage to bring to the table without heaping Stefan on top of it.
"I was lying to myself cause we're not done. I like you a lot, I do. But I have feelings for Stefan too. It's not fair to you that I keep you in the dark about it. I haven't been fair to you at all. You don't know me, Emily. Not really. I don't think you would like me if you did. Maybe that is putting my own shit on you, I don't know. It's just what I'm feelin' right now. I can't change that."
Faith didn't know what the future would hold. Everything was so damn tenuous, even Faith's grip on reality seemed so fragile on most days. Like one little misstep, one slip, one fall could send her plummeting back down into darker days. Stefan seemed to see her there, dangling over the precipice and was always dangerously close to pushing her over the edge or pulling her back up. It excited both parts of her, the light and the dark.